I miss the days
When I didnt have to fake a smile

A summers day will never compare to the feeling of when you touch me
The warmth of our souls when we connect
The feeling I get when you hold me
Kiss me
Love me
No words can describe how my heart beats for you
If you listen closely it will speak to you
But only if you listen with yours

Fighting for a reason to get out of bed
To get out of my head
And to touch the ground
I'm swallowing myself whole
If i dont get up now
There is no turning back
The world has giving me lots of reasons to smile and be seen
But none of thoes reasons are the ones that I need

I hate that I cry every time I think of you.
Maybe not in tears
But my soul feels it.
My body feels it.
Because a pain will never go away
All because you decided to
One day father. I hope you feel the pain too.

I can feel my heart breaking.
It happens all the time.
Your words stab right through me.
You won't ever understand why.
I wish you would just let me be
Because when my heart starts breaking
I cant seam to get ahold me
I can feel it breaking
Shattering like glass
What am i to do when you
....
When i cant fix it anymore
When all of our problems spill out on the floor
Will you feel regret on the day that I left
Or will you say goodbye like we never even met

I sit and i watch you
That look in your eyes
It was just a joke but the fire from your mouth breeds a different story
There's pain where you lay
I wish i could get down there with you too
But you won't allow me
You push me away with your screams and your hate
When you see the redness in my eyes
From a night of lonesome crying
I can almost see you
I wish i could see you
But you push me away with your screams and your hate
And the day that I'm gone
Maybe i will see you
Maybe you will let me see you
      I just want to see you

The darkness surrounds me
Swallows me whole
I sit and watch as the lights go by shimmering hopes and dreams going by one by one
They never knew I was here
Neither did i
As I'm lost in this place of the unknown
By body and soul have froze
Turning days into weeks
Forgetting what the outside world looks like
Wondering if the smell of the trees are the same
Or the color of the dandelions
My head is a comfortable place
But i wish i could escape.