need a trip in
nature
away from people and technology
to heal

Not independent enough
To handle being
Left alone
I need your company
Makes the
Thoughts go away
For a little

It's hard to take a step back
Either way, doing or not
You could be risking
Something important
Don't want to seem needy
Nor distant and uninterested
And there isn't much of a middle
Area
At least I don't know how to find it

Every day,
something new

I exercise.
Go to yoga.
Meditate frequently.
Listen to music I love.
Try to do things I love.
Have healthy relationships (mostly).
Eat basically healthy or
Just the things I enjoy.
Get my coffee.
Get my sleep.
Have the job that I wanted.
Am appreciated for my skills/personality/appearance (sometimes).
So
Why am I unhappy.
In a fog, constantly.
Can't find peace most of the time.
Anxious.
Thinking.
Unwillingly judging myself and
The situation, always.
Can't
Focus, concentrate
Feeling very constrained
By what isn't in my control

How do I help myself?
I've tried so many things
Even not trying at all
Still
*nothing

I wish that I could appreciate
Every second of my life as well
As be happy in every moment.
There's so much to love and experience
But I'm too in my own mind that
I miss out on what's happening
Just being unhappy