Contemplating.
Do I, do I not?

It's possible that I do.
I think I will.
I mean... The lack of communication
doesn't mean
the lack of love,
does it?

You did nothing for me to even
feel the slightest for you.
If anything...
You brought anxiety,
insecurity and pain.

You have this hold on me.
Either that, or I'm just
plain stupid.
Addicted to pain.
Emotional *******?

Leaning towards the latter...
But when did I give a ****?
When did I actually learn??

I saw it coming.
I knew it was only a matter of time.
True colors caught off guard
Didn't trust my intuition
8 months later
If intuition had a face, it
would currently be giving me the
'I told you so' look.

So much time
effort
emotions
were wasted.
At least I found out myself
Confirmed beyond shadow
of doubt.
Enough groping in the dark

In the words of Plath...
I would say go to hell,
But I never want
to see you
again.