you cannot control everything
you cannot hold the trees as you carry the sun
you cannot stop the rain while the thunders are there
and you cannot change someone's feelings towards you

someone will always say
i will always be there
and when you are at the peak of feeling terrified,
no one is there

someone will always say
i will never change
and after a few years you will never talk to them again
and the feeling is not there anymore

here we are believing in others
expecting and hoping from what they say
actions speak louder than words
and finally i have got to say

here we are being honest
and all that they can see are lies
you always wanted to scream and say the truth
but no one ever listens to you

*b.a

the greatest people in your life
come unexpectedly
maybe it is the time
when you bumped them in the hallway
or played volleyball on the same team
it happens
and we just do not know
maybe they were your bus mates
or someone you thought was a ******
i thought everyone was the same
until i met each

*b.a

here i am
writing a poem again
for you, only you.
i know you won't see this
but i know someday you will,
and somehow you will
remember me,
what i gave you
what i made for you
and what i let you feel
and you will realize
that you're lucky for what we had
and too dumb
to let this all go
but now that i have the time
i am not wasting anymore
i will tell you
how much i love you
and how much i care for you
even if sometimes
it hurts
i know
it will always be okay
because it all matters

*b.a

don't tell me i can't ******* go without you
because for you information
even before we met,
i can ******* stand alone

and don't tell me you miss me
because if you really have time
and you're sincerely willing,
you will talk to me

*b.a

i look at her like she's magic
like the one with red and golden confetti
she seems like the dove that always come up from a box
and fly above as if freedom is embraced

i look at her like she's magic
like the one with fancy fans and hats
who always made me smile and giggle
and think how amazing she was

but then i am now to the point
that i see the real thing beyond
beyond magic, beyond her
and then i realized that
it does not gives me the interest anymore

but the sparkle is still there
like how mini fireworks have
but you have given me one reason
to stop my interest in you
but i want you to know
that i still love you

*b.a

i still look at you the same way i used to twenty two months ago
i still look at you the same way when you first kissed me
i still look at you like magic
and i will still look at you the same way you look at me too

*b.a

"will you still remember me after fifteen years?"
i asked
"of course, you'll be my bride"

*b.a