step by step
hand in hand

a nice winter morning
in the tepid afternoon

two hopeful tones
one groggy, the other in tune

heading south
toward town

an empty city
full of emotion

a simmering sense
of optimism

'twas all he could ask for

your love is the fearless life in your eyes
your love is the feeling of your head on my shoulder
your love is the one song i get to play on my way over
your love is the christmas charm carried in your step
your love is the late night silence we often bask in
your love is the burning kiss that leaves me gasping for air
your love is the impulsive trust simply crafted in me
your love is the perpetual hug that keeps me coming back for more

i forgot that i loved you
maybe i wanted to?

i logged on to facebook
to look at your emoji smile
before i realized i could look at your actual smile in a picture
although the emoji seemed more genuine

i went to get a drink
i half expected to see you there
for no reason at all

i never wanted to hurt you
in a lot of ways i did
a string of connections
and not even that
that shouldn't have been
i don't want to cry over you
because it wasn't you
and i wasn't me
at least who i wanted to be
despite my past thoughts

i'm sorry for many things
but an apology doesn't change what happened
words typed or written
worth may be desired
but reality is the true expression

so i depart from you,
a few words left behind
others in my head,
to live that good life
become the person i want to be
learn from my mistakes
and salvage some appreciation
from what you saw in me

"i missed you"
the words muddled out as i was leaving
did i really miss her? i wondered
it seemed like i did
i wanted to be back
more time alone
more to share & learn
did i really miss her? i wondered
it felt like i did
though time apart was fine
catching up with others
keeping myself in check
did i really miss her? i wondered
i think i did
who's to say though
it came to mind then
an impulse almost
and that holds some value
did i really miss her? i wondered
well what if i didn't?
and what does that mean?
i wasn't sure
oh well

did i really miss her? i wondered

a dark rainy city
a bachelor walking through
hoodie up, headphones in
the lights glisten in his eyes
a lonely tune in his ear
headed toward the unknown
his apartment possibly
in the heart of downtown
dressed unusually nice
for the lack of occasion
but maybe there's one
he stays busy
among those moving cars & moving people
always meeting new ones
and talking to ones from long ago
gleams of his past lives
keeping him afloat in some ways
but otherwise not so much

a mind of bliss
a heart full of hope
a bachelor in the city