I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of yelling
I’m tired of being afraid
I’m tired of being alone
I’m tired of failing
I’m tired of losing
I’m tired of feeling
Most of all I’m tired with dealing
I’m tired of nightmares
I’m tired of not being loved
I’m tired of anger
All I feel is depressed
All I feel is anger
All I feel is numb
All I feel is hate
I’m tired of being hurt
I’m tired of being tired

Black as night
Empty as space
No one for miles
An empty house
One ray of light
The sound is dead
The little flame is almost gone
To keep it alive
A fire must start
Deep in the depths
Of the cold damp heart
Tired is she for her heart it longs
To find the place she belongs
There is little hope
Less time
Then she cries to sleep every other night
Feeling worthless she remains STRONG
For her fight all day long
Bullies who bully
Parents who judge
She fears there’s no one to love
But one little spark remains in her heart
Along with the mind that’s tearing her apart
Mind set to fear heart to loyalty
There is no one near but the one she held dear
He is gone in the past
For she must release
The thought that troubles her deep
Writes poems and songs to keep her sane
She’s emotionally unstable
She has wars with her self
She views herself worthless
The only few she believes are near and far
Chris in heaven
Mother afar
Couple of teachers maybe two or three
She fears herself whom she thinks she is lonely
She prefers the cold
Loves the dark
But longs for the fire that will never start

The fresh clean air
The damp grass, how lovely
Wind dies along with depression of the roaring clouds
The crashing has stopped
≈Total silence≈
The flashes stop
When I go outside
As I look around
I realize I’m trapped within huge gray walls
 
What feels like hours of waiting,
Crash, Bang, Howl
I see nothing from my window
Except darkness
I open my window
I feel rain, snow, hail, and wind
I run to the second floor
More crashing, more flashing


After what I believe to be a life time
It all goes quiet
Clear blue skies
A cool breeze
Crystal blue green waters
Destroyed homes
Ambulances
Police
Fire

I look towards heaven
A double rainbow
A sign of promise
I’m going to be okay
Until the next one

Your words are tricky
Your tongue flicking
Lies through your teeth
You’re a deceiver
Tall tales that only I can see
Your trust is lacking
In one move you can strike fear in my heart
The few I fear
You are one
With the face red as a fire you snap
Calm as a hurricane
No warning
Feast on your pray
I’ll be there to catch you in your ways
Then release you for another day
I shouldn't let you loose
Then the fear grows stronger
I fear there’s I nothing can do
The creature so evil