You came around
like a insect
searching for pollen
you took me away,

It hit me
like a swarm of wasps
stinging me one,
by one

******* inside
your dark nest
full of emptiness

I know you
were the one
who started it

And I am
the one who
will make it
*end

Wishing to be a God for once
creating existence then turning away
oh, you tore down your walls, what a pleasant surprise
let me take a peek at what you house within
ah, I can devour you now
I crave power
meek I may be, a monster has been born
born from the ashes of loneliness and deceit
let me be vindictive
watch me make you squirm
I am feeling quite morbid today
six thousand feet high, I bear down with a magnifying glass
destroying everything that you have ever hoped for and built
I wish to be malicious
let me become a freaking God
and tear you to pieces

Wanting the power
the power to my own undoing
complete control now lost
yearning the ability to be happy within my own self
without it I must surrender
completely helpless
left at the mercy of another's mind
another's wishes and whims
I cannot be so powerless
the idea utterly terrifying
waiting each day
for the power to be used
rip my already almost lifeless soul to shreds
at an impasse
unable to merely seize the power
committed to reaching within myself
envisioning the power is mine
then so shall it be
I need my power back
need it for me
that I may stop living in trepidation

Malevolence*
for so long stealthily hiding in shadow
today I became aware of your presence
I wish to understand you
but on the deepest level, I fear you
also though, I know I need you
with you here it means I am not alone
as I so long have thought
step forward
whisper my secrets into my mind
so that I may understand them
Mouthless, the others call you
yet still you are able to speak
you sought me out via a friend
tall, slender, clothed in black
many would seek to call you devil
yet you claim you are not such
I must accept reality is not what I perceive
let go of the fear I so desperately cling
and perhaps
you can lead me to what it is I seek