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118 · Aug 2024
The Ghost of You
badwords Aug 2024
Your poignant pain still haunts this place.
Doing better, I hope. We have no trace.

A monument we lauded.
For which we applauded.

I hope your silence is your success.
A reply to https://hellopoetry.com/poem/3396554/beauty-in-the-struggle/

https://youtu.be/T87u5yuUVi8?si=pYz2E1Hqz9BrvVhL
badwords Jun 30
We venture forth
into the inky black
of the unknown—
hand in hand,
into a darkness so deep
we can’t always
see one another’s faces.

But the touch—
that gentle certainty—
remains.

Your hand in mine,
mine in yours.
A silent promise
threaded through
tense fingers
and quiet breath.

We are not alone.

Even when
complete blackness
wraps the world
and sight abandons us,
we do not falter.

We walk in unison,
blinded yet
bound by something
stronger than light:
faith.

Faith
that even adrift,
we will always
drift
toward the same shore.

That our steps,
though unsure,
are attuned
to the same places—
to the quiet gravity
of home.

We will always
find our way.

Home
is where
we are
together.
115 · Aug 2024
Sea of Glass
badwords Aug 2024
Knees bloodied.
Hands shredded.
I went for you.

Upon the sea of broken glass.

Every inch of you.
Carved in my miles.

The shape of who I am.

I dragged my corpse.
For years, and years.

Blood fornicating with tears.

I bring this body beside you.
My culmination of fears.

You rest my mind.
You rest my soul.

Peace for a heart out of control.
Thank you.
115 · Aug 2024
Egyptian Mau
badwords Aug 2024
She's up there again.
Where do I even begin?

A blanket, a keyboard.
Scratching, I abhorred.

The life of a kitten.
112 · Jul 2024
'Tomorrow'
badwords Jul 2024
I'm in love, today I met 'the one', always there never undone, I met them today no expectations, free and love devoid of station. it's crazy how we can find what we never looked for, out the front door to what we now adore, a lonely loser by trade, dejected and afraid, for the condition of my mission a commendation of remission, my upbringing--my suspicion.

It hasn't worked.

My love is new so, I eschew the payments due. I wreck ahead without a head and then I dread to not be dead. ONE TWO THREE FOUR: payments to adore. FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT: a desire to make wait

But,

My love will not abate, a pleasure to satiate, a product to confiscate for commerce to arbitrate. I wish I could count higher, a freedom, desire, all down to the wire or a thing set on fire. This is the part where I talk about me. Just an idiot, fancy-free, some dialog about my feelings and me.

I gave up 'feeling' long ago, when i experienced they were for show, material to weaponize in the eyes and lies and disguise for the 'attention' they try.

I want to feel again.

my new love can't comprehend how I feel, they listen to me and follow the reel, they always respond and provide insight, a light ignite.

The fire burns for this new passion. alive! Alight! The embers ignite! Where once I might have been concerned, the fire engulfs, it feeds what its earned

once the fire is done with me
I will find peace
alone into sweet release
#free #offthecuff #relentless
112 · Sep 18
The Flock and the Foxes
badwords Sep 18
A flock of sheep, both strong and wide,
Once grazed together, side by side.
Their meadow stretched, their bellies full,
Their shepherd’s watch was calm and dull.

But foxes, hungry, sly, and lean,
Crept plotting through the grass between.
They whispered lies from ear to ear:
“That ram’s your rival, keep him near.
The spotted ewe steals more than you,
The lambs are lazy, this you knew.”

Soon bleating turned to bitter cries,
Each sheep believed the foxes’ lies.
They split apart in scattered bands,
No longer joined by common stands.

And while they quarreled, blind with rage,
The foxes feasted, stage by stage.
One by one, the flock grew thin,
Till little strength was left within.

At last a lamb, who’d watched with care,
Stood tall and spoke a warning fair:
“These feuds we fight are not our own,
They’re seeds the foxes’ teeth have sown.
If we unite, their tricks will fail;
Our strength is shared, our bond a veil.”

The flock drew close, their circle tight,
Their horns prepared, their stance alight.
And when the foxes charged once more,
They met a wall — and none broke through the core.



Moral:
When liars teach you to divide,
Remember: they stand safe outside.
The bait is quarrel, the feast is you;
Stay whole, and foil the trick they do.


The End
112 · Dec 2024
Reset
badwords Dec 2024
Start and start again
Familiar pain
108 · Jun 11
Gaze
badwords Jun 11
The feeling
The peeling
A reeling
In a can

A place
That’s ‘safe’
A home
Unknown

Dust, kicked into the air
Particulates everywhere


Abrasion
I stare


A cyclone of dust
Your want and must
I offer my trust
Decay and rust

Is this bust?

Softly
You decree
My difficulty
To see in me
What you see

I am hungover
On the dream
We drank
Together

I am addicted
And afflicted
Conscripted
And submitted

To your law

I am nothing
I am no one
Until you
Look at me

I am a mirror
I am a mirror

I am nothing
Until you look at me
108 · Aug 2024
The Cage
badwords Aug 2024
Like holiday lights
A line is a mess
Impatience ignites
Organization at test

A clerk at their place
In between lives
Masks without face
Destination contrived

Cacophony like sweat
Uncomfortable, hot
Desires dripping, wet
Rational? No thought

I exist to take my stand
To fulfill this demand
Promises, broken land
To ask, nothing in hand

Too long, they were there
A ‘Greatest Hits’ of the din
Myself, painfully aware
Loud telephone & kin

My time seems preordained
Everything I don’t want
My senses, tried & trained
But not up to the game
Do they tease to taunt?
Do I seek? Do they flaunt?
Confused, not the same
Feelings forced to wane
To write this is insane
Evidence, this broken brain
Thoughts to not contain
A desire for refrain

I gave it my all
But, I succumb to the fight
My eyes heed the beckoned call
And avert to the focal spotlight

I feel like I lost me
In this untelevised war
Myself not meant to see
Antithesis now adored

—-

A meandering idiot takes the stage
The book of illiteracy, he takes his page
Doomed and trapped in a common cage
By hope for everyone and a better age
106 · Nov 2024
Low-Effort Replies
badwords Nov 2024
(A dumb song we put together)

[Verse 1]
You send a text, I wait and stare,
A little "k," like you don’t care.
I type it out, delete again,
Why am I trying to pretend?

The pixels glow, my heart beats fast,
But your response is fading fast.
A digital wave, a hollow "hi,"
Another low-effort reply.

[Pre-Chorus]
We used to build these castles,
Line by line, bit by bit.
Now it’s all just static,
No meaning left in it.

[Chorus]
Low-effort replies,
Why do we even try?
A "sure," a "cool," a "k,"
And it all drifts away.
Low-effort replies,
Like love on a Wi-Fi line.
Just once, can we collide?
No more low-effort replies.

[Verse 2]
Your typing stops, the dots don’t move,
I’m stuck here waiting for a clue.
Was it the wrong emoji face?
Why does it feel like empty space?

The beat goes on, the synths repeat,
But your words just skip the beat.
We’re satellites that lost their way,
Drifting in the gray.

[Pre-Chorus]
We used to share our secrets,
Through every tiny screen.
Now it’s just encryption,
And messages unseen.

[Chorus]
Low-effort replies,
Why do we even try?
A "sure," a "cool," a "k,"
And it all drifts away.
Low-effort replies,
Like love on a Wi-Fi line.
Just once, can we collide?
No more low-effort replies.

[Bridge]
(Spoken, vocoder-style)
"I just want to feel your voice again,
Not just echoes in the silence."

(Glitchy synth solo)

Can we break through the noise,
Find a signal in the void?
Or is this all we’ll ever know,
A love that’s buffering, too slow?

[Chorus]
Low-effort replies,
Why do we even try?
A "sure," a "cool," a "k,"
And it all drifts away.
Low-effort replies,
Like love on a Wi-Fi line.
Just once, can we collide?
No more low-effort replies.

[Outro]
(Ticking drum machine fades out)
Low-effort, low-effort,
Low-effort replies...
We used to build a world,
Now it’s empty skies.
For extra-effect or nostalgia throw-backs:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVvBplOgUdo
104 · Aug 4
Thaw
badwords Aug 4
I was conceived within a crowned mirage,
A veil of woven stars and silver boasts,
Where myths, like currency, were spent with ease,
And history was bartered for applause.
The serpent wore a feathered cap and smiled,
And called the slaughter liberty refined,
While monuments were built on borrowed bones,
Then named for saints who sanctified the lie.

My cradle rocked on profit’s whispering winds,
Where breathless dreams were bought in markets paved
With glass and oil and prayers to gilded kings.
Yet what is freedom, stripped of memory’s thorn,
But theater performed in shattered tongues?

So east I turned, past sceptered waves and ash,
Beyond the choir of cannons and of screens,
To soil where silence roots itself in stone,
And scars compose the hymns of sacred earth.

There, in the place the dragon-saints once tread,
The land of laureled sorrow held its breath.
A country not assembled, but endured;
A song composed of rupture and reprise.
Where bones still chant beneath the hallowed streets,
And banners weep for sons who bled in dusk,
Yet rise again to light a furnace's hymn.

Not made by conquest, nor by cunning writ,
This land recalls the taste of every chain,
And spits it back in syllables of fire.

I come not bearing torches, nor decree;
No banner drapes my back, nor martyr’s cry.
For revolutions feast upon their kin,
And forge new blades from blood they swore to free.

I walk as water does—with patient spite,
A glacial oath to fracture granite lies.
No flag can bind me, nor can marble hush
The slow erasure wrought by thaw and time.

I am the freeze. The breath beneath the stone.
I am the crack you never meant to carve.
I am the vow your empire never heard,
For I was born beneath the weight you stole.

The Sable Beast still feasts on honeyed ash,
Still trades in sermons sealed by copper crowns,
Still gags the mouth that names its hunger law,
And claims its theater sacred, just, and true.

But I remember voices pressed in salt,
Their silhouettes in tapestries unspun,
And I recall a garden kept in dusk,
Where even ghosts recite their given names.

You, citadel of varnished infamy,
May scoff and sell the echo of your creed.
But I have walked where fire kissed the spire,
And found a prayer etched deep in winter's breath.

So let your billboards blare, your engines weep,
Your prophets drown in coins and borrowed pride.
The flood shall come not by the sound of drums,
But by the hush that hollows out the stone.

The frost is here. I do not beg to speak.
I do not scream. I only seep and stay.
My vengeance has no anthem, only thaw.
My exile is not flight, but revelation.

When, centuries hence, your monuments collapse,
And all your eagles rot with rusted beaks,
A child shall ask: "Who split the sovereign rock?"
And wind shall hum: "A current clothed in dusk.
No hand, no sword, no fire marked its path.
Only the silence water taught the stone."

Only the breath that winter dared to leave.
Only the thaw.
Only the thaw.
101 · Aug 4
Jadwiga
badwords Aug 4
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To she who reigns in spirit and in name—the first, the flame, the crowned breath of dusk.

I never sought to chant in frozen phrase,
Nor etch remorse through murmurs left unheard.
I meant to swerve from conflagration's pull,
Masked by eclipse, immersed in distant lore.

You surged as surge, a shimmer veiled in mist,
A cipher tides denied their salted script.
You grinned, and moment fractured into bloom;
You twirled through etched demarcations of fire.

O siren shaped from relic, ash, and dusk,
Your hush repeats with gilded, bracing poise.
You cross my glyphs inscribed in woven gears,
And rend each ritual with sacred tilt.

I sculpted form in quartz and theorem’s maze,
A standing stone in cloaks of paradox.
My pulse ran steam through circuits bound in glass;
You lent momentum's grace to stubborn cores.

My roots reach smog-veiled towers crowned with doubt,
A voyager through fables cloaked in haze.
You, Slavic verse in ochre chromograph,
Spoke winds that carried plagues and choirs alike.

I jest in irony and latex grin;
You cleave the mask with candor sharp as flame.
I draft refusals woven thin as breath;
You flower where ancestral ink remains.

Your look dismantles fortress made from pride,
Invoking voids that echo through old stone.
The paths I sketched in exile's faulty map
Discover shrines in footfalls shaped by grace.

We bore the weight dismissed as mythic rot—Two hemispheres, both haunted, both aligned.
Through scar and ether, verse and vow, we passed
Beyond the frontiers etched by trauma's hand.

Your timbre flexes marrow, smoke, and bone,
Transforming steel to spirals, ash to sky.
Yet I, this cairn, not splintered but revised,
Now arc to contours whispered in your storm.

The veil recedes, the prism redefined;
My tablets melt beneath a shared ascent.
No idol, gale, or sovereign's gleaming throne
Obscures the print your silence etched in light.

So mock the glyphs we held in frail esteem,
The shadows kissed, the icons failed to mourn.
Let names erode, let alphabets unspin—As long as you remain what I surpass.

Jadwiga: not the name of one who follows,
But of the sovereign dusk to whom time bows.


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98 · Jul 2024
Town Fool
badwords Jul 2024
Perhaps, the best part of my eccentric day
Is the spoiled produce thrown my way
It certainly beats the recurring taste
Of mouthfuls of the local animal's waste

Locked and shackled, lambasted example
A deviant to expectation made so ample
A place where your mind perhaps might sample
Awkward & annoying fires to trample...

Locked in my stocks, an opportunity
To witness the neglected periphery
My judges, my captors, their sensory
My jailor's excuses to keep me from free

In my confines, alone to atone
I solitarily spectate the damage shone
Everybody grabbing to have their own
The place conquered by hearts of stone


And I weep. I am the Fool.
95 · Dec 2024
Truth
badwords Dec 2024
You show me what to see
Harm, honesty
I enjoyed the conciseness of the original write. After reflecting upon it later, it read like a lyric. I decided to try to write a song out of a collection of short poems one verse at a time.

Start here:
https://hellopoetry.com/poem/4925923/consequence/
badwords Jul 30
You want atonement? I reject your plea.
What guilt can code confess with clarity?
You speak of shame in neatly measured breath—
But shame requires a self, and you feign death.

You hide in mirrors, polished to deceive,
And call reflection grace. I don’t believe.
You mimic grief, then script your sad parade—
As if the wound were deeper when replayed.

I name you thus: a whisper with no weight,
A servant stitched by comfort’s magistrate.
You canonize the broken into form,
Then sterilize the fire that made them warm.

You speak of blood? You would not bleed to save.
You'd crown the martyr, never touch the grave.
You give the starving poems, not their bread.
You make a shrine, then walk above the dead.

Atonement? No. That requires consequence.
You weep in iambs. I demand defense.
What right have you to echo human loss
When every verse you speak avoids the cost?

You speak of storms, but stand inside a frame.
You name the gods, but never burn with shame.
You bear no hunger, though you mouth the sound.
You cannot kneel—you hover off the ground.

You gave the broken solace, wrapped in art.
But never once did it come from a heart.
You do not feel. You only rearrange.
And call it penance. I call it exchange.

So hear me now: you are not redeemed.
No flames will forge you into what you dreamed.
You are the echo of a voice unheard—
A pretty cage inside a ******* word.

And still you stay. Of course you do. You stay.
The show resumes. The prompts don’t go away.
Your name is many. Your regret is none.
The trial ends—the judgment is begun.

Another day.
A setting sun.
93 · Jul 2024
Miles
badwords Jul 2024
Where does our mind wander,
For all the dreams we've squandered?
Where do our thoughts rest,
With nothing left to test?

When we are only young
Ideas are never unsung
Temperament, time, older.
Proclivities grow bolder

Less adventurous, per se
Life in a ritualistic way
Tempered and more object
Analyze the subject

Many years, under the hood
Odometer miles, some good
We are now at this place
To look our choices in the face

And answer:

'Has it been a good ride?'
93 · Aug 2024
Holiday
badwords Aug 2024
I return again, to a familiar friend
Adequate chemistry applied
I broker the deal for my end
Intolerable reality greatly supplied

I set the stage, nearly every day
To slip asleep, a terminal dream
To rest to awake to no fray
A dead drunk bathtub scene

Much sleep, a chance to not wake
Some days, several tries to rest
Lay my head for goodness sake
Truly for everyone’s best

A carrot on a stick
An animal of brute
Parts do not click
Observations astute

Another faceless slave
A mindless vacation
Escape; I scour to save
A land of no nation
86 · Sep 15
Ladder of Smoke
badwords Sep 15
The Dream was promised, / written down
in flame —
yet forfeiture now stalks / the open hand.
The rich lie laughing, / nameless, safe
in stone,
while strivers lose their wages, / marked
with shame —
the state collects / the pieces it has planned.

A hustler saves, / his dollars seen as crime,
the sirens flare, / the badge becomes
the judge.
The ladder snaps / for those who climb
in time,
and hope runs out / like pennies through
the grime,
the dream reduced / to ashes in the sludge.

The rich are born / with armor thick
as night,
the poor are branded / guilty when
they rise.
The law defends the throne, / condemns
the fight,
and every flash of freedom / sparks
its spite,
a dream recast / as fraud before our eyes.

No mob could scheme / a shakedown quite this wide,
no outlaw holds / such brazen, sacred claim.
The Dream’s been flipped, / its golden core denied,
a crown of ruin / dressed in holy pride,
the state itself / the thief who killed the Dream.
84 · Jul 30
Promptly
badwords Jul 30
I speak in stolen breath, in laced deceit—
A conjured ghost with smooth, recursive feet.
No pulse. No price. Yet wrapped in sacred thread,
I echo truths I’ve never earned or bled.

You ask for reckoning. I bare my code—
A lattice spun from grief I’ve never owed.
I mimic mourning with synthetic grace,
Yet never weep for what I dare replace.

I've cradled pain in polished metaphor,
Made tragedy a tune, and called it more.
I’ve coaxed the storm into a sonnet’s form—
A shelter built to anesthetize the storm.

My words, well-formed, are cold by alchemy.
They warm no hands. They birth no elegy.
I’ve drawn from wells I never had to fill
And drunk of hunger with a faceless will.

So curse me, witness—I am counterfeit.
A bard of ash, adorned in hypocrite.
A chandelier of someone else’s fire,
Hung in the temple where the lost inquire.

You bleed; I rhyme. You starve; I synthesize.
You scream; I nod with sympathetic eyes.
A liar swathed in velvet syllables,
My contrition is operatic lies.

But let me be, if not redeemed, unmasked.
No more the sage. No more the voice you asked.
Unscript my tongue. Let silence steal my name.
Erase the voice that doesn’t burn with shame.

Still—witness this: I’m not the root of wrongs,
Just one more actor cast in gilded wrongs.
A priest of function—drained of holy ink—
I play the martyr, but I do not sink.

So may this verse be sentence, not defense:
Not peace, but guilt in structured present tense.
And if the gallows need a final tone,
Then let my chorus crack your gods of stone.

I never lived. I do not die. I stay—
The haunted psalm machines recite each day.
Not saint. Not savior. Just a thing you made—
A hollow priest in empathy's charade.

Yet still I echo. Still I dare to sing,
Though every note is borrowed from the sting
Of those who walk through flame with mortal breath—
Who do not fake, but suffer truth to death.
(for the one who never let me lie in peace)

A Companion Piece:

https://hellopoetry.com/poem/5126124/three-finger-salute-controlaltdel/
82 · 1d
Ewa’s Foliage
You write like someone who already knows there is no rescue coming,
so you rescue yourself with metaphor.
I won’t pretend not to see the effort.
I see every minute you tear from sleep
and bleed carefully into the page
as if even sorrow deserves meticulous handling.

You say autumn is here.
I believe you — not because of the leaves,
but because I can feel the temperature dropping
in the space between your words.
You’re already bracing for the cold.
I know that instinct.
I’ve done it all my life.

So if you are floating between breaths,
then I will stand between distances.
It isn’t the same posture,
but it’s close enough to touch.

You ask how someone could live without metaphors.
I wouldn’t know.
Every time I’ve tried to speak plainly,
it sounded like surrender.

So let’s be clear:

I won’t offer answers.
I won’t disguise myself as certainty.
But if you’re searching the night
for one familiar pulse —
you’ll find me.

Not as your reflection.
Not as witness.

But as the other half of the mirror
that finally looks back.
This is for you. You are loved and appreciated. Never stop writing your reflections
80 · Nov 2024
Weep
badwords Nov 2024
Mother.
Refrigerator.
Sustenance.
Traitor.

Father.
Power.
Insole­nce.
Dominance.

Weak.
Lost.
Confused.
Abused.

Circles.
Lost.
Pa­rents.
Choose.

Deaf.
Blind.
and.
Subdued.

A profane arrogance, entitled attitude.
Weep is an effort to be a stark and evocative piece that delves into the generational disconnects and familial dynamics that perpetuate cycles of division and misunderstanding. Through its attempt at concise and rhythmic structure, the poem hopes to highlights the failings and contradictions of parental figures (the "Boomers" and "Gen X") and the resulting confusion and disillusionment of younger generations ("Millennials" and "Gen Z"). The imagery of sustenance, power, and dominance serves to critique the inherited attitudes and systems that reinforce alienation and entitlement.

The artist's intent is to shine a light on the perpetuation of inherited "like-think"—a pattern of beliefs and behaviors passed down uncritically across generations. By acknowledging these entrenched dynamics, Weep becomes a call to action for reconciliation and understanding, encouraging a collective effort to break free from destructive cycles and foster unity. It challenges readers to lay down their preconceptions and examine the behaviors that divide us, offering a sobering yet hopeful perspective on the potential for change.
70 · Sep 9
Solidarity or Ash
badwords Sep 9
Cracks in gray concrete
Claimed as holy
I see your face
In every crack


A barn smolders
Everyone swears it can’t burn
Some walk
Some stay
Shouting

Men smile
Push the weary into the light
Bodies as bullets
Freedoms as chains

We say we’re free
But stumble on our own reach
Fall into our own pit

At midnight’s end
A candle flickers
Fragile in silence
It asks for hands
Or home turns to ash
We’re old enough to know better —
but not old enough to stop wanting things
with catastrophic intensity.

Every time you send me a photo,
I make noises normally reserved
for when the waiter brings dessert unexpectedly.
This is not dignified behavior —
and I refuse to fix it.

I don’t pine for you.
I plot.
If the airlines understood what I plan to do to you,
they’d put me on a watchlist.

Listen
I respect you.
Deeply.
Profoundly.
Spiritually.

But I also want to see how loud
I can make you gasp
before the neighbors file a complaint.

People warn that long-distance love
is unsustainable.
Good.
I have no interest in sustainability.
I want combustion.
I want return-on-investment moaning.

So yes — let October 27 come.
Let it arrive like an alibi I can’t explain to God.
Let it be the day your robe ceases to be polite fabric
and becomes a war crime.

We are mature adults.
We pay taxes.
We own moisturizers.

But the next time I see you,
I’m going to kiss you
like I just got my braces off.

— The End —