B Nicole: Poems

B Nicole Jul 2010

Has it really come to this?
His love making I will truly miss.
The way he held me in his arms all the way to early dawn.
He rubs my body I begin to tremble now I know it's on.

Now it's lonely nights and the tears begin to roll.
I guess all the fighting has finally taken it's toll.
I'm missing the way he holds me talking about the ways he held me.
A dream and a prayer is what I need to make you see.

The feelings that take over me are more than good.
The ability to turn back time, I wish I could.
Tears often escape from my eyes, this would never be happening to me.

I have discovered true love therefore it will forever be mine.
You and I, this was supposed to be to the end of time.
I understand I really hurt the trust, but living with out you will never be a must.

You were my partner instead I treated you as a kid.
Withholding information and keeping secrets of the things I did.
I have no reason to ever doubt that the love you have is true.
The need is underestimated, my destiny awaits you.

Feel the beat of my heart because I am here.
Here or there my heart will always be near.
Even though at this time and place words don't mean much.
A chance at tomorrow is what I need, have you heard of such?

Anniversary Dream

B Nicole Jul 2010

Anniversary Dream

You can’t always help who you love,
only the love you showed gave me no choice.
Now another year has come that I have been blessed with your grace.
Amazing you are wonderful it is, to know each day that the love we share will be better than before.
It only makes me wanna love you even more.
On this day that our anniversary is, I give the greatest joy and the most love that you can bear to stand.
Mind blowing is how it feels never would I have imagined falling in love every single day.
I dreamed of you before I met you, I fell in love with the thought of you.
This is the day of dedication, where i dedicate my heart to you.
The light in your eyes and the way you smile, I just knew that you were heaven sent.
Seems like yesterday when I first laid eyes on you, nervous and quiet no more.
You are now  and will forever be the first thing I see in the morning and the last when I close my eyes.
A smile and a kiss is all I need.
You have given the world to me, for now I know dreams really do come true.
That is why from the bottom of my heart I thank you for my Anniversary dream.

A NU WE

B Nicole Feb 2011

A NU WE

I wasn't looking for him
He found me vulnerable
Vulnerability became courtship
Courtship became lust
Lust is now love
Can it happen so easily

Now I have to leave behind
The sweetest love that I've found
Unanswered thoughts
Leaves strong minds limp
Meshed together mistakenly
Torn away violently

Eyes can no longer bare
The water that flows warm
Should I act on impulse
Thoughts telling me so
Nonchalantly disobeying
All pleasures but my own

A minute without
Compares nothing to
A lifetime with
Taking in poisonous air
Nicotine he is
Addicted I am

Giving hearts
Receiving minds
Massaging words
Passes slow times
Running to choosey arms
Coming back for A nu we

Poison or the Antidote

B Nicole Sep 2010

Poison or the Antidote

You've been Questioning
Is it corruption or a blessing
These trying times shall cease
I truly believe I was meant for thee
You gave me the greatest gift you see
No hesitation on dedication
Mistakes can be made in many ways
Unbreakable promises and truthful pleas
I PRAY
Obstacles are in every race
Fall once but twice you loose your place
Coach me so I am able to win
Heartache comes before happiness
the line so thin
So many emotions we share
Believe me
My words are all I have
See them
No other soul will be suffice
Either way it goes just roll the dice
Teach me how to please thee
Dreams of you in my past times
The future is tomorrow and will you forever be mine
KNOW BELIEVE SEE FEEL that I love you
For you there is so much I shall do
Blowing your mind you driving me wild too
Poison or the Antidote
Which are you

Queenism

B Nicole Sep 2010

Queenism

The sensation of warm moist lips
Lay softly on my neck as he begins to nibble on my ear
I loose a single tear
Full of heartache and happiness
I am beautiful in your eyes
Therefore I am the prize
QUEENISM
The state of being more
More for you more for me
Gazing in my eyes that is what you see
I am strong powerful better yet gentle caring
I turn compassion into a fashion
Fall in so you can do my dance
For he knows who he is who gave me this chance
QUEENISM
Embrace me for I am yours
Leave I will never choosing me was most clever
You and I as one as we embark on our endeavors
I am here to help build our kingdom
Streets of gold and garments of GUCCI
Eyes of envy and tongues of jealously
Become one with me as I bow down and king thee
I am your Queen and this is the state of
QUEENISM

skin2SKIN

B Nicole Jul 2010

skin2SKIN

Taste the sweetness of the skin I am in
    Overly intimidating to all That sees me
    The nappiest hair that I am oh so proud to wear
    The softest lips that the average man can bear
    Piercing eyes with a deathly stare
    Love me for who I am
    Instead of the skin that I am currently in
    The heart is the home yes it’s that
    No matter what is said the truth is where it’s at
    Soak me so I am tender
    Lioness of this land Untamed I am
    Undress me with your eyes
    Dress me with your words
    The state of being is much more than a verb
    I’ve seen many things and I’ve walked many miles
    The place that I am at only makes me smile
    Age I am a baby but I’ve lived so long
    I’ve seen it all mind so strong
    To love is to fall in love with yourself
    Love it, Learn it, Embrace it
    You’ll soon find out it’s much more valuable than wealth

Tarnishing Tales

B Nicole Jul 2010

Tarnishing Tales

Tarnished past how long will it last?
Born in exile what am I to do?
So afraid of the Future, Oh yes how bout you?
Destroy me? You have.
Brought me down til I was nothing.
All because you knew I would be something.
A lot of motivation will get you a long way.
But it takes non stop dedication at the end of the day.
Smile in my face don’t disrespect my back.
Don’t even want to see your face as a matter of fact.
Your tarnishing ways gave me eternal pain.
What can you possibly say that there was to gain?
Tears I couldn’t cry because I never knew they existed.
Tarnished memories leaves my mind twisted.
Trust is a Fear Factor will you loose the game?
But shall I thank you for things will never be the same?
Belittling me, at the same time you grew my mind.
Peace and Joy I have received, I truly hope you find.
Look me in my eyes that’s if you could do.
Pathetic and ashamed I would be too.
The feeling is great when I arise from a slumber.
Your tarnishing ways gave you tarnishing days you can’t cumber.

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