Tarnished past how long will it last?
Born in exile what am I to do?
So afraid of the Future, Oh yes how bout you?
Destroy me?  You have.
Brought me down til I was nothing.
All because you knew I would be something.
A lot of motivation will get you a long way.
But it takes non stop dedication at the end of the day.
Smile in my face don’t disrespect my back.
Don’t even want to see your face as a matter of fact.
Your tarnishing ways gave me eternal pain.
What can you possibly say that there was to gain?
Tears I couldn’t cry because I never knew they existed.
Tarnished memories leaves my mind twisted.
Trust is a Fear Factor will you loose the game?
But shall I thank you for things will never be the same?
Belittling me, at the same time you grew my mind.
Peace and Joy I have received, I truly hope you find.
Look me in my eyes that’s if you could do.
Pathetic and ashamed I would be too.
The feeling is great when I arise from a slumber.
Your tarnishing ways gave you tarnishing days you can’t cumber.

Has it really come to this?  
His love making I will truly miss.  
The way he held me in his arms all the way to early dawn.  
He rubs my body I begin to tremble now I know it's on.  

Now it's lonely nights and the tears begin to roll.  
I guess all the fighting has finally taken it's toll.  
I'm missing the way he holds me talking about the ways he held me.  
A dream and a prayer is what I need to make you see.

The feelings that take over me are more than good.  
The ability to turn back time, I wish I could.  
Tears often escape from my eyes, this would never be happening to me.
  
I have discovered true love therefore it will forever be mine.  
You and I, this was supposed to be to the end of time.  
I understand I really hurt the trust, but living with out you will never be a must.  

You were my partner instead I treated you as a kid.  
Withholding information and keeping secrets of the things I did.  
I have no reason to ever doubt that the love you have is true.  
The need is underestimated, my destiny awaits you.  

Feel the beat of my heart because I am here.  
Here or there my heart will always be near.  
Even though at this time and place words don't mean much.  
A chance at tomorrow is what I need, have you heard of such?