I glance out the window
It’s still there
The wall
I built it there last winter
After you left
I thought you would stay for good that time
I know better now
The snow is beginning to fall again
So I know you’ll be by soon
This time it will be different
The wall is strong and steady
You won’t be able to break it down
Thanks to you, no one ever will

I reached out
I grasped a handful of sand
I held so tight
The small grains fell right through my fingers
I tried to catch them
They ignored my attempt
Crashing to the ground
I fell with them
Buried my face in the sand
And let the ocean pull me in

I keep trying to quit you
And start over new
So time and time again I erase you from my life
But always come back because only you can solve all my strife
I tell myself life without you will be fine
But when my blood turns to alcohol, I need to call you mine
I want to find the we, we are destined to be
That’s why you still find your bed warm with me
But another side of me is scared to be all in
Afraid I’ll ruin us before we even begin
Will all my second guessing ever cease?
Will my brain and my heart ever make peace?
I don’t have the answers to pull me through
So I keep trying to find them all in you
Please, I beg you, do something to fix it
Don’t you have some kind of tool in your tool kit?
I like you too much to just let you go
Cause I'm your starry night and you’re my van gogh
There must be a reason we always come back to each other
And a reason for why I never look the same way at another
I think it’s because I know we’ll be great
Please tell me, my dear, I’m not too late

Down by the water you'd find her,
Humming a happy tune
Laughing with the wind and swinging from the trees
Dancing with the grass and painting pictures out of clouds
Wading into the water and making faces at the fish
The girl no one could ever figure out
And the one whose smile made it all okay
Until the world anchored her
Vibrant colors to pale grays
Loud laughter silenced
Wild hair tamed
Down by the water it’s empty now
No longer a sight to see
Vacant of the free spirit that once lived in me

Do you remember
When we’d climb the old oak tree
Sit atop it and look
Look out at the world
Our world
Ours to conquer
Together, of course
Side by side, hand in hand
It’s different now
We’re both grown
I still visit the tree
And
I secretly hope I’ll find you there
Sitting atop, waiting for me
Our eyes would meet
It’d be as though we were young again
We’d join hands, and jump
Into our world
Together again, together at last
Yes, I remember