I write, I express emotion
I use words no one will read, hear or utter
I create worlds within this head of mine
And try to convey them to the people
So that they too can feel the grass that I dream of
I greave
To the point that it wells up inside me
And there’s no way to keep it in any longer
Instead of leaking salty crystals
Because I have to much pride
My pen takes me to a place of ongoing ink
Where rivers run black
And skies are grey
Where the sun rises and gives hope to weary
And the stars guide me through the night
This genius of mine is a writer
Able to bring light to these dead eyes
And rebirth forgotten feelings
But fear is a creature of hideous evil
And beautiful comfort
I fear that is this genius is rejected
If this part of me dies there is no hope
No light for me to follow back to my world of grass and grey skies
That forever I will be lost to the wicked ways of this world.
And the only escape is death.

As I block out the light
And sit in my grey
I search for the light of the moon
Mother and lover of all in the night

The day burns my eyes
So I cover it with a smile
Letting the sun shine through my ghost
Everyday I hide, this part of me dies

This wind that I try to catch
Threatens to blow my shell away
Leaving me open, bleeding and exposed
Taking all my ties, weakly attached

Mother of mine
How far I've ran
How long I've pretended
I knew hiding would be my demise
How I lived with all my filth and lies
Brings shame to all the seers
My kind

I’m looking at you through the glass
I don’t know how long its been
Sitting there observing me
Next time you watch me
Next time you have the urge to test me
Remember what your studying is me
I’m staring at you trough the window
I know your looking in
Watching my every move
Waiting to see how I react
Next time know I see you
Next time realize I have been watching you to
Realize what your staring at is me
Before you tell your self how strange I am
Before you tell the world how much different I am from the rest of you
Remember its only different from what you see
I can see you through the bars you have put me in
Making me the object of your ridicule
I cling to the iron bars
I will not cry
I will not beg for freedom
I will not give you the satisfaction
I will become stone
I curse the stars
For they have lied to me for the last time
You have ridiculed me for the last time
You have watched me for the last time
I am breaking free
I don’t care what you say
I don’t care if you try to tame me to your liking
You can control me no longer
I shall linger in this cell never again
I will break these bars
I will rip the shackles from my feet
And I will dance from dawn to dawn
I will love with the passion that one thousand swords can not break
I will laugh with all of my heart
And you shall never study me again
I don’t want you to feel what it felt like
I could never wish that on anyone
I want you to know that you never again have any power over me
I am free

The smell of the sky
Just before a thunderstorm
Is calling me to come dance

The first thunder clap
Beats the charcoal sky
As I stare in to the heavenly abyss

The dime-sized drops
Covering the parched ground
Making my hair dripping

The electricity in the air is rising
I know that lightning is coming
Looking in the gray blanket I wait

All colors yet none
Flash across the sky
My face upturned I spin

Letting mother earth
Take her corse
I call you out and we dance

In our ears
The wind howls
Like wolfs we praise the sky

Spinning, jumping, singing
We embrace the beautiful chaos
Around us

Frizzy haired
And huge smiles
We play under the sky jungle

The thunder
Sending vibration to our senses
Only makes us dance faster

Rolling in laughter
Almost to the point of tears
Lightning sneaks up on us

All were blinded by your beauty
How ever fake it was
I remember those days so safe
Before your real light appeared
Seeping through the cracks in your mask
Only few saw and reached
Then the betrayal of ugliness burned them

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

There were few that witnessed the fall
Our blindfolds ripped from us
And see the monster you’ve become
Some refuse to see you
Most are still blinded by your memory
You made these whole hearts torn
Cold and ugly you have become
That was not the fate we foresaw

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

To you I scream in agony
Come back home though I can’t promise
Forgiveness is what you get
Our pride is strong, heavy and pure
Our hearts fortress is stronger
Your memory is always welcome
Only when it is no longer
When you are no longer a memory
You will be let back in

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

Sweet pictures of old paint my mind
Your sun is coming love
Open your eyes and see the pain
Yourself inflicted pain
The pain that you passed out to others
From your black box
Like your fake affection and trust

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

How long will you stare at the celling
How many nights will you cry
How long will you go on
With the guilt inside
How long will you lie to your self

Now we are strong
When is it our time to fall
So hard
Crashing, when will we make you bleed
All we are is a lie
Born from lies we walk
All we are is a lie
Until we realize that we are racing
The wrong way

Fist clenched
Clutching weeping thoughts

As you stand
Sunless days passing you

Worlds waving good bye
For you could not step into they’re atmosphere

Going, always going
Never gaining another step

These are the days
That will be forever yours

Unless you gain the strength
To go on

You are who you are
All of your pain

Until you can run
Turn your back on all the things that held you

Pain on pain
Stamp them to the ground

Burry them
Let dirt bind them

When the trees take root in the sky
And the planets rotate in the ground
The black bird sings a song of yellow
And the canary sings the mourning sound

We walk past where the sidewalk ends
And  transparent solid ground we fall
All green color eyes at our finger tips
Hour glass eyes falling past our closed toe call

Everything a dream
What we want things to be
For the attention of it
The reality is the worst
The real me is the worst me

Maroon painted on our sky
Green splashed our sea
Your octopus garden grows
As our river of fire flows
Flying through rock
And climbing over air
The impossible broken
My eyes woken