everything
everything was a lie
and i thought i was your grain of truth
but i guess i wasn't good enough
wasn't close enough
wasn't lovely enough
to be that grain
but rather
i was just good enough
to keep you company
and
nothing
more

You
Do not have the right
To come bursting in my life
To make me feel this way about
You

You
Do not have the right
To call me
Beautiful
Babe
To say
I love you
And then leave
Without a trace
Without a sound

Out of sight
But not
Out of

Mind

I want you to know how it feels
When you have a burning and stinging
In your eyes when tears come.
I want you to know how it feels
To give someone your absolute all
Only to have it pried from your cold, dead
Fingers.
I want you to know how it feels
When I watch you **** another
And you are unaware.
I want you to know how it feels
To have an intense burning in your heart;
When you see someone achingly beautiful.
I want you to know how it feels
Having absolutely no hope or love left,
Just cold ice and emptiness.
I want you to know how it feels
To feel humiliated and disgusted,
To have your heart bitten in two.
I want you to know how it feels
Whenever I'm with you.

White flag surrender,
I lay my weapons down.
I've run out of fight
Silence is the loudest sound.

I'm giving up;
I won't put up a fight
I'm done with this-
whatever this is-
And I'll blow out the lights.

I will bow down,
I will kneel.
But tell me, dear,
Is pride all that you feel?

Well, you've done it.
You have finally won.
Are you happy now?
Our love here is done.
Our love here is done.

Drowning in these memories of October
The absence, the vacancy, the nothing
The way you wove your hands through mine
Your lips like wine
Sweet, red, and filled me with warmth
And everything I'd ever need
My hunger for love you'd feed
And the burn of our passion
Like the sun-
An eternal flame
Never touched by darkness-
Always shining brightly.
And on the day the light did rip
Came a fearful, dark, destructive eclipse.
The way you left without a sound
The weariness and sadness inside me bound.
Oh how I miss your tender touch!
Don't you know I love you oh so much?
It tears me apart
As I slowly, sadly, surely
Depart
To go my separate way
Please beg me to stay.
All those days ago I turned away
Drowning in October.