What do you do when you just want to cry?
What do you do when every smile becomes a LIE?
What do you do knowing he won’t be there?
You’re turning 13 and your heart turns cold and bare!
When you can’t be happy you can’t laugh anymore!
You can’t pretend he'll walk through that door!
With flowers and balloons and a cute teddy bear,
and a little pink bow to go in your hair,
a smile on his face and a tear in his eye!
Before his big hug out comes a sigh!
“My little girl is growing up so fast!”
That’s what I wish I’d hear him say,
Another gaze into my eyes,
Darling "I LOVE YOU happy 13th birthday!!!!
What do I do when my hands start to shake?
when my heart starts to yearn for that smile on his face?
13 years of life and almost 3 with pain in my heart,
A million left to go and I don’t know where to start!!!!
So I’m lying here tonight my heart crushed and sad,
It’s SWEET 13 this year without my amazing dad!!!

Hey,
Can you hear me ?Am I still known to you?
I  cry for you , but you don't even feel my tears
and the unbearable pain
and that's killing me inside
Monsoon have started in my life
but I am happy because
Its swiping away my pain and sorrow,
and  I am still  waiting for the rainbows
after angry sky
But I don't see even a single shade of rainbow
in my life because
you have took my heart with you
forever....