when you left, i
was only left with
theses photographs.
and i looked them so many
times so that the
image of your
face won't leave
too.

life is so unpredictable,
it changes with the seasons,
even your coldest winter,
happens for the best of reasons,
and though it feels eternal,
like all you'll ever do is freeze,
i promise spring is coming,
and with it, brand new leaves.

Lately I've been oblivious
It's the cold weather that reminds me
of you.
It makes me think off all the pain
and all the happiness you brought
me.
It reminds me of the nights I wondered
The emptiness of my mind thinking of
you and hoping you were doing the
same.

I know that he hurt you and now you
want to build walls around your heart
so no one can ever make you feel such
pain ever again, but darling, you'll only
hurt yourself in the end.

she wanted to tell him she
missed him, but knew it wouldn't
change  a thing so she just kept
pretending she didn't

let's pretend for just one minute
more
that I'm yours and you're mine again
but I get to walk away from all the
mess you left, your emptiness.
I want to forget about the pain
in me.

I saw you
at your
lowest point;
your miserable,
wallowing worst,
pitiful and *****,
sorrowful and shame
and I
still
love(d)
you

do you ever feel,
so sad that,
your chest aches,
and you feel so numb,
and there's a big hole
right where your heart
should be,
like you don't matter,
like you're nothing,
and your life is nothing,
and you're just invisible,
you just want to lie in your bed,
and sleep for awhile,
sleep just for a very long time,
and possibly never wake up.
Do you ever feel that?
Cause that's how I always feel.

what a shame
that the girl who once believed
in fairytails and magic
had to be struck by reality
with demons in her mind
and the fear of never being loved.

it's hard to wake
up from a nightmare
even if you're not asleep

I am sorry,
that im not the brightest
star in the universe.
or the most beautiful rose
in the garden.
I am sorry,
that my cheeks
are not as rosy, or that my
eyes don't shine as
brightly as theirs do.
But, I am not sorry
that it is you whom ive
fallen for.

do you honestly think
forever exist?
it is the most beautifully created
illusion known to man kind.
crafted from lies
wonder, and hope
so do not promise me
what will never com

i am too shy
to tell you
how i feel
so i'll hide behind
timid smiles and
soft hellos
im afraid
if i ask you
"what do you think
of me?"
your reply be.

I want to help myself realize
why i fell in love with you
so I decided to make a mixtape
of all of your favorite songs
and replay it in in the car
over
and
over
I could taste your lips
by the third track,
and I could feel your skin,
by the fourth
but I wanted you here
at the first song.