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elli Jul 2016
And it's 2am. I'm lying on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling. While half of the world is fast asleep, and the only thing i hear by now is the rain patting on the roof. My mind empty as the walls, my heart cold as the weather. That's when i realized that i was numb. Numb from the pain you've caused weeks ago when you decided that i wasn't good enough for you. You left and it felt as if my world stopped spinning, the clock stopped ticking and i stopped breathing. I was drowning from the pain as i was trying to grasp for air. We were in the ocean and when we reached the middle, you left and i didn't know how to swim. I guess i was the anchor dragging you to the bottom so you decided to let go. You were my ship, adrift, you finally saw the port leaving me alone in the ocean. You knew you were safe. It's 3am and i kept asking myself "Was i holding you down?" The thoughts in my head began to consume me. And my lungs was starting to be filled again with water. Suddenly, i couldn't breathe. I tried to grasp for air again for a second but then i asked myself "where am i going?" And the answer started to ripple like a raindrop in the water. The answer was a resounding nowhere. So i stopped trying and let myself drown waiting for a rescue that wasn't ever gonna come.
elli Jun 2016
Enjoy the little things in life
How to ocean kisses the shoreline
How we wake up for the 6 am sunrises
And how we dance through the rain

Enjoy the little things in life
How to wind whispers through your ears
The feeling of the sand between your toes
And how it makes us feel like home
elli Dec 2016
We ended like the sunset. It was beautiful for a while, until it lasted. And months after we ended, I decided to go back to our place. As I walk along the shore watching the sun setting, I remembered the days that we drove to the beach on a late afternoon. You said it was because you know how deeply in love I am with the sunset and even took me to the best spot where we can watch it. We would spend our whole afternoon just sitting at the back of the pick up truck, looking at the sun as it sets. Like someone spilled a bunch of colors in the sky that don't usually belong, you would describe it. But for me, it was like a blazing fire lighting up the horizon. And soon after, I am lost in the moment, slowly drowning to it's beauty. The more I look at the sunset, the more I fall in love with it. And sometimes, I wouldn't even notice the tears falling down my face. You always thought it made me melancholic because it's like something was fading or ending. It was neither a feeling of loss nor an end. Rather, it's an overwhelming feeling that puts warmth in my heart. It was like coming home after a long, tiring day. Like the clouds promising a calm and peaceful night. We would be there and have our small talks whilst waiting for the sun to finally set. And then I would look into your eyes. I would look in those big dazzling almond eyes, drawn closer and closer. Suddenly, I will feel your lips pressed against mine and we'll promise to remember this feeling. And after a while, it starts to get dark and we'll finally decide to go back. This was one of the most beautiful things I would say that has ever happened in my life. But then again, all good things must come to and end. And so we did. Like a beauteous sun setting, fading slowly until it was gone. But I am keeping my promise to always remember what it felt like. And now I look at the sunset once more and it gave me the idea of you. Beautiful but temporary.
elli Jun 2016
She was always crying
thinking about dying
but she was always smiling.
Oh how could she be lying
without you even noticing?
elli Jul 2016
You were like the rain, and i know rains are dull, cold,  and melancholy. Rain often leave people soaked just like the eyes that are drenched with tears. And sick like the pain when a person devastates you. Thunder almost felt like it was the sound of their hearts breaking. And the clouds couldn't hold them anymore because they were too heavy like letting go when you can't bear with the pain anymore. But unlike any other rain i've encountered, you were different. Your rain made me happy and bright so every time you touched me, my heart couldn't help but flutter. I wanna feel every drop of you like the love you give.  You made me realize that pain can be beautiful too. And because of you i wasn't afraid to dance in the rain. You made me want to close my umbrella and step on your puddles. I loved you despite how people opposed you because they think it was dreary. I loved you despite how many people open their umbrellas whenever you came. I loved you despite how i'm frighten with thunder like the hue and cry whenever we fight because you couldn't handle the pressure anymore. I loved you for what made me feel. I was the girl who was in love with the rain. And you? You were my rain.

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