I've been looking
For God in silence
Screaming for help
In empty horizons

I've been hurting
For as long as I can remember
Crying pitiful tears while my body
Begs to surrender

I can't look you in the eyes
For you have sewed mine
"Is it really different?"
Love is blind.

I haven't seen light in so long
I don't even know what is wrong
"Is it just you and me?"
Maybe in my mind.

And for the first time
I opened my eyes
Feeling the yarn rip
Only to find

You. Aren't. Here.

Some find their sanity
On the edge of a blade
Some find it in an ocean
And they just calmly wade

Some lose their sanity
All because of love
Some find it in the air
Sight of flowers or a dove

Some simply never had
Some pretend to always have

Sometimes it's hard to be alive
I imagine somebody knows that more
Than I do

Looking out windows for answers
Only to be greeted by suicide
What is the point

Somehow the secret must be
To remember that somebody knows
More than I do

Being open
Has only brought judgement
Has only brought pity
Has only brought misunderstanding

Being closed
Has only brought silence
Has only brought loathing
Has only brought cynicism

Oh what to do...