Some aspects of the world
remain static....

One cannot help but experience
pangs of deja-vu
as their conscious energies walk
through this spiral timeline
dressing the sphere we call home.

We are created from all the energies which we are born into.
Stands to reason
all the answer sought
lay within
as we are created from all the energies which we are born into.

I just want to not want this

But I do

I want this

Even though I can already see my heart

Dangling above a meat grinder

By a capillary vein

Pumping with the pace of desperation

That our lips might touch

I wish I didn’t want to kiss you

But I do

You are not supposed to stand so close

I can feel your breath

It is sweet when I inhale it

And I know your tongue must taste like

The coffee I am watching you drink

All the right kinds of bitter

I don’t want

To sleep alone anymore

And I don’t want

To continue guessing

What you might be thinking or doing

At this very moment

And because I don’t want anything to be unrequited between us

Right now

I’m drinking a tall can

And wondering how I can make my house not haunted

And am secretly loving you

I am secretly loving you

And all I want

The only thing

Is for you to love me back

In any way you can

Before the sun comes I see you
not always how I want to

I see her too
she has you

you consume me
even though
you don't want me anymore
even though
I want to
let go

She doesn't know you
like I do


So now I wait
for the sun rise
to close my eyes
but
I still see you
never how I want to