One shot, two shots
Colors start to blur
Three shots, four shots
Body moves without direction from the mind
Five shots, six shots
Stumbling to the beat of some rap song
Seven shots, eight shots
You think of him.
Nine shots, ten shots
You know this is not where you belong.
No shots
Sorrow,
Regret,
Anguish.
One shot, two shots.

The air was thick and our cares were thin.
We stared at the stars in silence,
young and reckless.
The sky was so black and yet I had never felt more light.
Breathing, once so paramount, slowed into one soft fluid motion.  
Our cares slipped through the tips of our bare, ***** feet.
Trouble with him never before made me feel so alive.

Its the color when you lay in bed with an abundance of blankets but an absence of love.
Its the color of the snowflake that tickles the back of your neck.
Its the cool breeze on the beach when you've just emerged from the water.
Its the color of his shirt when you watch him walk away.
When you grasp onto your pillow for dear life as tears trickle down your cheeks, its the color of your fingertips.
Its the color of your breath when you realize he's never coming back.

To take a stand you must get on your feet,
Through waves of contention you must compete.
Change can only come through those with strength,
With hope and faith, defying any length.
To one without motivation,
I administer to you a simple invitation.
Remember the man who gave his life,
The man who conquered and calmed the strife.
In hopes that we may return to our father above,
He gave his infinite and everlasting love.
All that he asks from us in return,
Is to love one another and his mercy we’ll earn.
So come unto him and take a stand,
Spread bravery and fervor throughout the land.
Justice and mercy we shall stand behind,
Creating an Earth, in which heaven is aligned.

I feel your pull like gravity
Your sweet words are sugar on my tongue
In the back of my head a little voice says no
How can I listen when my heart is screaming yes

I fall for you like leaves in the autumn
My heart is opened like flowers in the spring
I feel as I am floating upon water
But how soon will that water sustain only one living thing?

What if there is more than one being
Feeling the same as I
And what if he does not choose me
How many tears will I cry?

My falling turns to crashing
My heart, it turns to stone
Once again I am abandoned
Once again I am alone

What is a man?
They would say a man is tough
I would say a man is strong
They would say a man is rich
I would say a man is rich in heart
They would say a man has many women at his fingertips
I would say a man will love one woman for all his life
They would say a man is dedicated to his job
I would say a man is dedicated to his God
They say a man is tough
I say a man is strong

Even when I'm thinking of nothing,
I'm thinking of you.