I'm in suspense, floating with no sense of anything, it feels weird yet but I can't get rid of it and gnaws on my insides without fail. I can't stop it and can't just run,  it follows me wherever I go. I start seeing my life and what has been, the good and the regrets. Every time I touch, smell even so much as glance at something, no matter how insignificant it sparks a stream of memories so long it seems infinite. I see hope tinged with despair. I see sadness in amongst joy. It feels like I'm dying yet I'm still here. What happens from here on out I don't know, and it terrifies me.

Everything I see around me changes.
From the clouds, the trees, the grass.
But why do we need to change aren't we good the way we are?

I'm not talking about all the bad stuff, but the good things
The things we'd want to stay forever.
Like good weather,
Fun times,
Your best friend,
Who'd want these things to end?

Why do we hurt one another?
Why do we hurt this world of ours?
Is it because we need to or because we want to?
Is it because we like to see destruction, chaos and hurt?
I'll never know the answers but one thing I know for sure,
We all can all make a difference.
No matter where you are.

We live by rules and regulations
That tell us our goals are impossible, ludicrous and crazy, that we shouldn't even try
That the world we're living in, the Earth we're on right now is harsh, disgusting and that it doesn't even deserve respect

But I know a that it is beautiful and wonderful
With rolling hills, valleys, lakes & streams
A place with deserts, mountains, forests and much, much more
And on this world are people
Everyone of them kind at heart
Everyone of them with a goal they'd like achieve 'one day'

But because of our rules, we come to believe they're impossible, and give up even trying.

So if you're reading this know that whatever wacky, fun or adventurous thing you want to do but can't
Just do, because who's going to stop you?