Ashton Montgomery

Ashton Montgomery Oct 2013

in a daydream
i imagine a dramatic
romanticized reuniting.
a story book embrace
with obnoxious smiles
and joyful greetings.
but under expected circumstances
i know it will
be nothing more
than eyes meeting
with a knowing smile
and a quiet
"hello,
it's so lovely to see
you again."

Ashton Montgomery Oct 2013

the partial embrace

you embraced my right side
your body flush against mine
shoulders down to ankles.
    your arm clutched my shoulders
    mine grasped your waist.
while my right remained
warm, loved, safe, whole
my left side was abandoned
icy, brittle, empty, broken.
    now your presence has been gone
    for a significant amount of time.
my right is perfectly fine.
my left is still aching for you.

Ashton Montgomery Sep 2013

some sort of beautiful

there were five men
who had a permanent residence
within her bulging heart.
Jay Gatsby, the tragically hopeful
Peter Pan, the child who never grew up
a fellow from Montana
a five-year-old angel
and a blond-hair blue-eyed boy.
none of them solely loved
her.
none of them stayed with her
either.
yet she constantly ached for their
presence
and she always fiercely loved
each.
until the boy tore her heart into
pieces
and the only thing she could love
were her attempts to make her pain some sort of
beautiful.

Ashton Montgomery Sep 2013

happy ending?

i close my eyes
as the song comes on
the one about the boy
trying to skip rocks
on the ocean
and i can see myself
years from now
taking a little hand
warmly in mine
and leading them down
that old, worn out dock
to our old spot
between 10th
and the shore.
i'd show those little eyes
the very spot
i fell in love with
you
that unseasonably warm
November day.
i'll show them
the date carved
in stone.
our proof for the ages
that no matter
what happened to us
we really did
happen.
i'll tell those little ears
about the magical
once in a lifetime
sunset
that took my breath away
and took us to a
whole other world
a whole lot better than
this one.
i'll tell them
our story.
the long complicated tale
about best friends,
a lovely blonde haired
blue-eyed boy,
and my insignificant self.
i'll mention how
we saved one another
from ourselves
and how we fell
in love
during late night talks
but never admitted it.
i'll tell them the story
of us.
i just really hope
i get to give a
happy
ending.

Ashton Montgomery Sep 2013

i will find you

just because
i so easily
see and feel
you
in the presence of
glorious, soaring
eagles
tiny, delicate
hummingbirds
and watchful, rugged
red-tailed hawks
does not mean
that i can't
find you
in the
wingspan
of a graceful
snowy owl
or in the
shadow
of a
scavenging
turkey vulture.
if you
want
to be found
i
will
find
you.

Ashton Montgomery Sep 2013

only one of you

i am so
distinctly
aware
that there is
only
one
of
you
on this fine
planet.
and because of that
acute
awareness
it's terribly
difficult
for me to
live
with the fact
that even though
i can't
live
without
you,
i can never have
you
and i will never
be able to
find
another quite like
you.

Ashton Montgomery Sep 2013

do i even dare

love.
what a strong
powerful
meaningful
word.
one that should
not
be used
or taken
lightly.
you yourself
said you
rarely
speak it because
it is used too
often.
so now
in the course of
three little weeks
you've told me
four
times
that you
L.O.V.E.
love
me.
do i even
dare
to believe you?
do i even
dare
to question you?
do i even
dare
to say it as truth
in return?