I held your hand
As you said goodbye,
and you shed a single tear

It wasn't until then
That the light bulb lit,
And I saw my biggest fear

I held you close
Praying for strength
Just needing you to be near

I closed my eyes
And sent up a prayer
Begging Him to hear

Please dont go
I begged you so
Between every tear

Something worked
I hope it was for me,
But you decided to stay here

No words can do you justice
But here I am to try,
I think of you every day
I just can’t say goodbye

I miss the way you made me feel
Like nothing really mattered
And every time I think of you
My heart gets re-shattered

But now you breathe with the wind
And your smile fuels the sun
You may have left the world behind
But your time is never done

You shape the clouds for me to see
And I look at them and smile
It does not stop the pain
But it’s better for a while

Wind blows through my hair
The grass soft against my feet
Everything seems fair
Even constrained in my seat

I have plenty of food
I'm safe and warm
Even if it's crude
I'm part of the norm

I'm sent to a place
That is padded ceiling to floor
I play with my dress' lace
While I sit there and bore

This is my punishment for speaking
I acted out to Him
The one who's been 'tweaking'
Me since life turned grim

Awful things happen here
But I'm grateful too
That I don't live with fear
The one I once knew
  
This punishment is minor
I've had it a time too many
For asking about her shiner
And counting to twenty

If I continue rebelling
And I do worse
Then spelling
I'll ride off in a hearse

I've been taken to a big crowd
I'm out of that room
That's when it went loud
And I heard a BOOM

That's the day I was found
The day I was me
I heard no other sound
But those of glee

I never understood
What I hadn't been told
And now I think how could
My parents never want to hold

Me

That was the day I was taught a word
One of beauty and glory
A word that I heard
That is its own story

A story so sweet
Saying I didn't need 'em
That I could meet
A world of freedom

sunshine and
high heels
thrumming music
how do you feel?
pulverized hearts and
love smashed to smithereens
a silver bullet
stops the wolverine
but nothing can stop my love
by any means