another endless night,
where i cant get these words phrased together just quite right
where you eat up my mind from the inside.
and when i fall asleep, i know ill see you there.
sounds so sweet, i wish it felt that way too.
i wish i didn't feel that constant need for you.


so when the sun sets, i think it could all change tomorrow.
but when its light again, nothings changed.
another day spent either hopeful, or soaked in sorrow
but i'll wait a million more days

i'm so sick of loving you.
and guessing if you love me to.
use your words, it's not that crazy.
not as crazy as the idea of loving you.

every time my eyes meet yours, i shatter.
every time you step on me i feel my heart shatter.
i've lost touch with who i really am.
ive become this statue of a girl who i can;t stand.

so why can't you just let yourself love me.
why can't i tell you what i know?
why is there always someone else on your mind?
and why can't you let them go?
is this some sick joke? making me chase you around. a game of cat and mouse, and i'm just so worn down.

why can't i believe in myself.
you're the only one i know that has that ability.
to give me home, and then crush it in your hands, in front of my eyes.
and you just break me apart inside.

it's always going to be this way.
we'll never make the progress that i pray for every day

rip the words out from my lips.
i cant bare to speak this.
pry your face far from my eyes
so i won't stare this way.
the more i tell myself that i must be harsher on my heart.
the more i seem to fall apart.

if i could go back in time, and erase our conversations, every line, every you ever muttered, it meant nothing, but my heart puttered. and i wish i could just go mute. blind my eyes, and block all the sounds coming from you. i cant change this. even if im patient, im still gonna love you.

carry me over the hot coals.
you always save me, its like you want to.
and i don't know just how to read you.
or should i even try and study you.

tears bleed from my eyes,
because i've trapped them inside,
with this crazy facade,
that i'm not fragile, but strong.
and everyone's fooled, they even say they wish they could do it like i do,
you don't want to wish that at all.


i'm empty inside, something is wrong.
i've buried secrets underneath my feet for far too long.
and you want to know me, but i don't want you to know.
but then i realize you fill me with love, and i no longer feel so hollow.
you make me believe i don't have to be hollow.

i've never been so at war with myself.
does this skin really belong to me,
do these eyes see what theyre meant to see.
and they all think ive got it so figured out,
but im always looking for answers, i cant tell you when i cant tell myself.


so show me something i can keep branded in my mind, because it feels like i forget everything, everything important all of the time.

did you know youre translucent?
When you look at yourself do you see the phony that i do?
do you have any recollection?
of the digs youve taken at people who only pretend to care about you?
but we're all so nice, we fake it.
you know all about that don't you?
but when we try to be frank, we're just outrageous.
and then you let the waterworks carry you out.

we all see you for who you are.

so what that we can put on a pretty face and smile, even if we don't want to.
and you can hurt everyone that circles you, but when the punch comes back, you put on an act,
like you're the victim here, and youve been so sincere, and we've been so very unkind.
we're two steps ahead, youre a step behind.

i can't even pretend that it's alright.
i've always been an actress, or so it seemed.
but i cant seem to grin beneath these clenching teeth.
cause all i want is to lash out.
but i know to win is to watch and smile and see.

i don't miss you.
not one part of me longs for you.
i just loathe you.
even if i tell myself i forgive you.
how do you sleep at night?
knowing youre so selfish and self centered.
but you play your angles right,
so people think you;re someone you've created in your mind.
but i...

when i look into your eyes, i dont see anything familiar, or similar to what you used to be. its so cold to know that youve turned everyones world around too, just to move around and change where you are.

i dont know if i love you.
but i feel like i have to.
so i can spit the words out from my lips.
but i dont feel it in my heart one bit.
and your lies are piling up in front of me.
i see them so clearly,
and you cant dig your way out now/


youve taken everything straight from my hands.
and you just go about your day the same way.
you are awful, dreadful, and ill always be resentful.
sorry that youve made me feel this way.

get these big green monster off my back.
get me out of these waters, and place me right back on track.
i love so **** hard, and all it does is interfere.
all it does is weaken me inside and out until the sight of you brings tears.

and i'll do this all again, and again, and then some.
and when i whimper in despair, well it sounds just like our anthem.
you just want to cut off my limbs and watch as a try to crawl.
and i always crawl. i always crawl. but never far enough away.

another day under your attack.
another day where i'm afraid to see how i feel at the end.
will i stand strong or roll onto my back?
i am stuck here hoping and hoping that i can become more controlling oh,
help me take the wheel and drive.

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