i don't miss you.
not one part of me longs for you.
i just loathe you.
even if i tell myself i forgive you.
how do you sleep at night?
knowing youre so selfish and self centered.
but you play your angles right,
so people think you;re someone you've created in your mind.
but i...

when i look into your eyes, i dont see anything familiar, or similar to what you used to be. its so cold to know that youve turned everyones world around too, just to move around and change where you are.

i dont know if i love you.
but i feel like i have to.
so i can spit the words out from my lips.
but i dont feel it in my heart one bit.
and your lies are piling up in front of me.
i see them so clearly,
and you cant dig your way out now/


youve taken everything straight from my hands.
and you just go about your day the same way.
you are awful, dreadful, and ill always be resentful.
sorry that youve made me feel this way.

get these big green monster off my back.
get me out of these waters, and place me right back on track.
i love so **** hard, and all it does is interfere.
all it does is weaken me inside and out until the sight of you brings tears.

and i'll do this all again, and again, and then some.
and when i whimper in despair, well it sounds just like our anthem.
you just want to cut off my limbs and watch as a try to crawl.
and i always crawl. i always crawl. but never far enough away.

another day under your attack.
another day where i'm afraid to see how i feel at the end.
will i stand strong or roll onto my back?
i am stuck here hoping and hoping that i can become more controlling oh,
help me take the wheel and drive.

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ive been fighting harder than i thought that i could.
im a bullet shooting through your fragile skin.
how could i forget what i've been fighting for?
i've left myself cornered by letting you in.
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and oh, i tried to say that i wouldn't become weak.
even though ive built this distance with my blood sweat and tears,
i still continue this hide and go seek.
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sweet dreams, heres your lullaby. youve sunken under in another time.
youve fallen asleep, your guards been let down, and thats how you wanted it, you just would never allow yourself, but youve admitted your fault without words, and youre rising to the top, even though it hurts. you're not the weak one, youve always been strong.

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i cant cut these ties, a knot in a rope.
its hard to let go. my hands wont let go.
theres good days and bad, but i always find the sun
even when im under the earth, sorrounded by the darkness youve spun around me.
i'll always let you lead me.

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goodnight, goodnight. swallow your pride. the games just begun, even though it feels like forever.

these words are slipping through my lips the way i've let everything fall between my fingertips at least a thousand times.
i've watched you make my heart glow so bright i see the light reflecting through my chest but then again, theres times you made me want to cut it out and watch it lose its life.
i never knew bittersweet until your eyes fell into mine.
whatever you project, sometimes it feels like love, sometimes like vines,
that keep me constricted, and all my muscles freeze, suspended in time.
i just wait for you to do it one more time.
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you crawled inside, so sly, so slick. I accepted you here, so certain, so quick. watched as you pulled me away from the person i was before. I don't want to know that person anymore. i love what youve evolved me into. i love that theyve fallen for you.

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youve chased me away from the places i hid. i buried myself perfectly under the dust id been in. i liked it there at the time i had thought. now my eyes see with new vision that you have taught. i have no secrets to hold from you. you lure them right out, crawling from my mouth, and when you hear what i have to say, your eyes, your face they dont change. they dont change.
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so i know this feeling now. i thought i had known it before, but it was all just a hoax. out from my shell, i watched you coax me out. ive been wearing my new skin and wearing it strong. i didn't have time to try it on, but you seemed to know i'd like the fit.

thoughts are overflowing in my mind
but my mouth is as empty as my heart feels here.
i have chased this like ive been starved to the bone,
now i'm touching the sky with my fingers, but i can only think of my home.
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and ive never seen my heart skip beats like this before.
i think i've found my plague for sure.
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youve pried open all of my wounds. i know you didn't mean to, but that doesnt make it hurt any less tonight.
youve revealed all of my scars and, you want all these explanations, how do i know i can tell you and keep you in sight?

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don't sweat it, i always manage to pull through.
pain is something ive become used to
but never immune to. it never gets easier. no.
i love the way we sycnhronize.
just like your body is part of mine,
and i watch as we conjoin and intertwine.
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the letters i wrote you, i stowed them away,
to the depths of a place you will never see,
this is so constant, so thorough, so strong.
this is why i, drawn to you.

i forgot how to be myself for a while.
but i've returned, and it caused a smile.
i've emerged from the depths of whatever buried me alive.
i've crawled out from the underworld where i pretended to survive.
and i never understood why i couldnt shine under this light,
but when i move the lamp around, i glow ever so bright.

i never knew it to be possible until now, that you could lose yourself if you let it go too long.
and how could i forget what made me so evervescent from the start, trying to play another part when i was
casted in the perfect role myself.

i dont think i know how to love, i just pretend.
but love is silly, love is meaningless, but i guess it all depends.
cause i have fought the rainstorms without shelter for so long
but somehow im still here, and i never gave myself the credit for being so strong.

and they all talk, i hear the whispers bouncing off the walls.
i can pretend to be ignorant, but i see behind the smog.
and all ive wanted was to hold a place in a heart that had no empty seats
so ill find another show.

i feel like an unfinished painting.
like an outline, waiting to be colored.
i have so much more to do here,
so many footsteps to leave before i'm gone.
all i want is to carve my name on your heart,
let it stay there, so you dont forget me once ive gone.
take this picture, staple it to everything you touch,
maybe if i know you miss me i wont miss you all that much.

i know this is going to be the hardest thing ive ever had to do. to turn away from you.
i can still feel the words dancing on my lips, your hands resting in my fingertips, oh it's to sweet to let go now.

i love the way the color of your eyes changes,
and every time, i know i love you simply because i have noticed.
i can;t just sit here in my skin, and pretend this isn't what it really is.

i don't want to see you again.
i just feel a pain in my chest
when i think of your smile, your laugh,
all it does is leave me restless again