Have you ever been in so much pain
That your insides fell out
of your scarred and shaking self?
Where all of the places inside
that once were alive
are dead and suffering no more?
Once your heart takes a hit
From a hurricane
It’s all rearranged
Full of disaster,
And water stains
From your tears
you cry.
Like water from a leaking faucet
Your eyes are never quite dry.
Never quiet,
When you lie down at night
Put your face in your pillow
pretending to sleep
You cover your ears
So you can’t hear yourself weep.
You poor and lonely
Heartbroken soul,
Didn’t you know?
Love is too fragile to keep
Love is too fleeting to stay
You should have known
That when he went away
He wouldn’t come back the same.
Because JUST love,
Can’t keep him warm
And JUST love can’t keep him happy enough
Until your next call
Because he’s not happy
With you at all.
Because he’s moved on
And left you out of breath
From all of your guessing
And all his regrets
Have left you empty handed,
At best.

I was hoping that what I feared the most
would retreat into the darkest corners...
of my mind,
hide themselves in space and time
so they would never
double cross me.

But even in the blackest hole
their presence haunted me nightly,
and as the tears stained my soul
I kept welcoming the pain
because I wanted you.

Everything should have been fine
but we fell somewhere and,
you forgot to help me up.
Had I the strength, I would have
carried you all the way
but you turned out to be dead weight.

The light of day
couldn't warm my smile,
couldn't break the ice
or break the vice
that squeezed the life from me.

I embraced this pain waiting and wishing
for a better day,
when you would finally say
"I love you," and mean it,
when you would finally stay and mean it.

But all this time, all these days
you slowly, slowly slipped away
because you could never say what you need to say,
to my face.

It was like staring at the sun too long
how you blindsided me,
with the smile on your face
but really you wanted me to go away
you weren't strong and you weren't brave.

To tell me this,
you had to wait
you had to lie
to keep my heart intact
one more time.

And all of this doesn't make a difference,
shouldn't make a difference,
but it does...
now I just regret being in love.

Now I just regret,
all the time that I spent
and the things that I did,
and the energy I took to make it right
when all this time....
Our love just slowly faded into the night.

Our fates,
they race around the clock
tick-tock.
Star crossed from the first sight
the first night...
we touched,
Like fire in the wind
creating a path,
forcing a dream
that won't ever last.
Destruction.
Flicker and die out
Isn't that what we are about?
A brief moment
in the life
of a girl and a boy
a husband, a wife,
doomed from the start,
opposite side of the tracks
the turn of his back
the fade of her laugh.
Clear is our end
a broken wing
that couldn't mend,
a union that couldn't fly
so lay to rest  and let die.
From the start,
it fell apart
but you can't see,
what is hidden in the dark...
FATE