I look through him and see the sky,
It’s grainy and blurry and frighteningly vibrant.
I look to him, brain cesses to function.
On me, is his lasting imprint.
And soon I melt, I drift and I sink.
As I am, I overthink.
And I’m left here to watch blue turn to black.
As I’m wishing on stars or wishing I could have my body back.

I have this innate need
To be with the sun
While it paints the world gold
My feet melt into the grass
For a few fleeting minutes

The clouds are mixed with bubblegum,  cotton candy
And drip with nectar
I let it soak into my skin and turn my eyes to copper

I wait there until
Goosebumps start to raise on my arms
Shadows from the trees stretch
Until they reach me
And with the faintest stars, I can see

It’s time for me to go home

Long, drawn-out silences  
eroding at my skin
I freeze and I break, I freeze and I break
Soon I won’t be able to take it

Rocks, ice and anger, wells up inside
I’m tired and I’m stretched so thin
I try and I give and I try not to take
And then I melt a little bit

I slip and start to slide
The movement begins
I’m falling down, down, down

I want to
Deface
Defile
Destroy
Any trace
Any proof
Any evidence
That you crossed my mind
When I should’ve been sleeping

I have this dream
That you’re here with me
We live by the sea
And we are happy

“ hello ? “ I ask
Trying to find the girl I know
She doesn’t reply
She doesn’t remember
I look down a hallway
I know she’s there
I don’t recognize her
Good and bad I say at the same time
She looks at me
I can’t read her face
Maybe there’s nothing to read
Lost, empty
But her face looks soft
And then she smiles
And I know she’s not the girl I know
But she’s better

Plant one on my neck
My cheek
lips
forehead
bellybutton
Watch them grow, flourish
Into love
Watch them consume me
Tangled up in yours
The ones I planted on you
Until we can’t see out our own jungle

I’d like to tell you about:
the stars I’ve gazed at,
the sunsets I’ve watched,
the daisies I’ve picked
and the times you’ve made me smile

Gray, grey, gray, grey, gray, grey
Mixed in everything
And she looks dazed
The sky is dark
Clouds float around her
And her hair
One mass of dark
Rough edges but everything melts together