I see you sitting on a park bench
Alone
in the pouring rain
As I get closer I hear silent tears
and see a red stained wrist
I have never been more scared in my life
As I run to you
And hold you
your breathing becomes slower
and your eyes flutter
as your pulse begins to fade
the blood is flowing
and staining my white shirt
but I don't care
I start to cry
and I realize I'm too late
I didn't pay attention to the scars
you never cared to hide
I was too caught up in my own world
my own pain
to see the signs
you were alone,
you needed me
and I failed you
I'm as guilty as the next
I soon realize
...Its my fault...

When I think about you
I think of happiness
Because you make me so happy
You cheer me up
And make me laugh
When I think about you
I think of warmth
Of being in your arms
Holding on forever
Of falling asleep together
And of our cuddles
When I think about you
I think of love
The way you look at me
After we kiss, just once
The way you say you love me
And the way you hold my hand
how it fits just right
When I think about you
I think about how I never want this to end

In the dead of night
the silence slowly kills you
closing in around you
making it hard to move
breathe
or even make a sound
don't try to scream
it will pierce the silence
only making it seem all too real
You are alone,
yet you feel eyes on you
searching your soul
you try to move
only to find you can't
your legs and arms bound tight
as he reaches for you
you let out a cry
just a single cry
a little cry
as he grabs you
and takes you deeper into the darkness
into the unknown
where he will keep you forever
and your soul will be gone

As I cry
I write my sad note
On the back of an old napkin
Soon I'll be forgotten
Left alone in the storm
I write what I feel
I hide nothing
Of what I've hidden for so long
All the feelings
and the hurts
That know one knew
My tears smudge the ink
It doesn't matter anymore
This is my goodbye
My form of suicide.

I stand there
In the night
Under a starlit sky
I look up at you
So many questions in my eyes
Will this last
Will we be forever
Will you be my eternity?
It starts to rain
And as the cold drops
Drip down my face
You kiss me
And I know
You are my forever.

Do you really care?
I'm left here alone
Hurting and broken
Wondering what happened
To our forever
I cry when I think
About the love that we shared
Was it even real?
Do you not know
How much it hurts?
Or do you even care at all?
My tears mean nothing
They go from one ear to the other
Unaffected
I'm alone
Hurting and Broken
And feeling so stupid
I love you
Do you not know?
Or do you even care at all?

How about we forget the world?
Me and you together
Maybe if just for a day
We'll lie in bed
So wrapped up in each other
Me and you
We can just forget
Forget the world
If only for today.

I feel pathetic and stupid
For wanting you
Lost and alone
For loving you
Confused and Broken
When you're the only one I want
I wish I knew how to tell you
Will you listen?
Will you care?
Stupid and pathetic,
All I am to you.

How should I describe, how I feel
when I'm around you?
Warm and Safe
as if nothing can hurt me
bright and happy
like nothing can ever go wrong
beautiful,
Like I'm the only one you see
I feel invincible
and Whole
like I can't be broken
Light headed and dizzy
beacuse you make me feel
Like I've never felt before

The ghost of your hand in mine
Holding tight
Don't ever let go
Daddy please
The ghost of me sitting on your lap
A little horsie ride
Don't let the fun end
Daddy please
The ghost of your arms around me
Protecting me
From the world around me
Daddy please
Why did you let go of me?
Where did you go?
Daddy please
what made you leave?
Daddy please
come back...

I want to tell you how I feel
I want to tell you how much I need you here
How you're the only one who can help me now
I want to show you, I'm not still that girl
I want to tell you how much you mean to me
And how much I love you
But will my words make any difference at all?

Why can't I say it?
the words in my head
little thoughts
floating around
why can't I say it?
the emotions in my heart
the pain in my
can't you see?
I'm scared to death
of the effect of my words
I need you more than you know
But nothings the same
Why can't I say
what im really feeling?
why can't I express myself
I need you more than you know
but theres so much hidden behind my eyes
can't you see it?
why can't I say what i really feel?

I waited up for you
every night
curled up in front of the tv
I knew you wouldn't be home until late
if you came home at all
so many nights
I was so scared
something would happen to you
so many morning I would wake
and you still weren't home
and if you were
you would yell
and tell me all the things ive done wrong
you would hurt me
and tell me I don't deserve to live
tell me it was all my fault...
I saw your blood shot eyes
And heard the rasp of your voice
smelled the alchohol on your breath
You think I didn't know
all I wanted was my daddy
to tuck me in at night

I know you love me
I know you care
Why are you so scared?
So scared just to be with me
You know I love you
You know I care
You're my one and only
You know we're meant to be
But sometimes it just feels like your heart is a million miles away

This is me
A young girl
Left by her father
So long ago
A distant memory
Of what used to be

This is me
A little girl
beautifully broken
with scars visible and not

This is me
Stronger than you might think
but still so torn up inside

this is me
faking the smile
shaken up by a memory
of a father, who never really cared

this is me

My heart is lost, wandering, and broken
Wanting to be loved
And held, and charished once again
Wanting to be whole and alive
Instead it feels so dead inside

My head is whirling in circles
So much inside
Too much to think
Too much going on
I can hardly keep it straight

My hands are lonely
Empty
Wanting to be held
Just a touch would be amazing now
Just a touch

Then I found you
And now my heart is with you
Its whole again, and forever charished
I have never felt more love than now

My head is always thinking about you
Just one simple thing, in all the confusion
One thing I can rely on

My hands are held
With such care
And I know you love me
Just one touch can send my heart into a flutter
And I know
This is real, meant to be

This is love

I might not have the words to describe how I feel about you
But I hope you can see it in my eyes
The way you make me feel
and the smile I can't help but have when you're around
The shivery feeling I get whenever you touch me
And the way you set my heart flying
You're always on my mind
And I get distracted by you so easily
When we're not together I count the days until I can see you again
The way you hold my hand,
so gently, yet tight enough to never want to let go
The way you kiss my cheek,
just a tiny little peck, and I see stars
The way you wrap your arms around me
please never let me go
Forever in your arms
and Always in your heart
I want to be your forever

This is me
Mom cant you see?
I havent changed..
Im still your little girl
Please look at me
Daddy too
Cant you udnerstand
Who I like
Who I love
it doesnt change me
This is my choice
This is me
Mommy Look in my eyes
You cant tell me..
You dont love me anymore
Have I really changed?
Whether I like her
Or I like him
Daddy.. Im still me
I love her
I like him
Whats the difference?
Its still love
Please understand..
This is me

All my life, ive been waiting for someone to love me
more than anything else
All my life ive been waiting, for someone to hold me
And make the tears go away
All my life, ive been waiting for someone to kiss me
And make me dizzy
All my life, ive been waiting for someone with a smile like yours
One that can light up my world
All my life, ive been waiting for someone, who knows me
and love me for me
All my life, ive been waiting for someone who can make my day
by saying three simple words.
All my life, ive been waiting for someone, to make me laugh
ove the silliest things
All my life, Ive been waiting for someone caring
Someone who really cares for me
All my life ive been waiting for someone patient
Patient enough, to help me through it all
Baby, all my life, Ive been waiting for you