I know you now,
i didn't know you then,
you knew me then...
In a blink, i saw my whole life,
laid out...
what i wish,
what i wished,
what i prayed for...

In a blink i saw the light,
it disappeared as fast...
In a blink of an eye...
You embraced me with warmth
within the depth of your soul,  
I found myself
i felt safe
it was just for a second,
you should have stayed longer...
it was just  a blink.

Ash.

Accepting is hard
but inevitable,
Its some what unbearable...
I Accept.

How i have looked for answers
How i have awaited a revelation
How i have strained my ears,
just to catch a whisper
of what i wanted to hear...

There are NO answers,
NO revelations, NO whisper,
and whatever it is,
i know i don't to hear it.

I Accept
My fear has come out
knocking so hard,
i cant take the noise...

Ill face you
on one Condition,
This fight is mine...
I've lost you any way.
asha.

...there is something warm and tender with the way you look at me...
That undresses my soul,
that hopeful gaze in your eyes goes straight to my heart...

for every time i drift off to sleep with you next to me
I know you will always be there with me
what we share transcends our daily reality

But for the moments i spend with you
tick too first
i just want to stop the clock
turn back time...
asha.

Today i took a walk at the beach
watched the waves, listened to the breeze,
picked up some sea shells,
saw a neatly grass thatched house...

I drove through a field,
first time behind the wheel,
Today i walked through a rose garden, beautiful
white roses, pink, red, yellow...
i even saw black roses...

Today i broke down,
i just broke down...
i smiled, then broke down.

Every thing i do reminds me of Him...

Today i listened to his favorite music...
listening to every line every bit,
clinging on every thought...

Today i smiled at his jokes
precious time we spent together...
i missed Him so much
I broke down...

Today it hit me,
reality struck me
i missed him so badly
His never coming back...

asha.