This is the journey thats about to begin
the one Ive been longing,
the one from within.
Moments of moments they slowly unravel
whilst searching for destiny through this gravel

So heres goes another story
searching for a glory
but why do I get this overwhelming reality?
All this awaiting, this desirous thrill
sends a bolt- down my spine;
like a thunderous chill

Here I go,
set me free
and we shall see how this-
will turn out
to be.

I say vivid and surreal
someday Ill find you

To wait,
To hope,
thats all that there is
for that day, your coming.

And for your arrival
my purpose would be
much much more
vivid and surreal.

But for now I cant help but wonder
Is this worth it?
will I ever surpass this
or let me rot at the end

this so called waiting
these thoughts filling my head
its an optical illusion.

From wandering and from astray,
this very instant
this sketchy world I live in
my only mission is:
to find you whoever you are:
My other half.

Unbearable, Im at it again
Shutting myself from it all
all the negativity pouring in.
Inflicting pain on the outside,
reflecting from within.

Uncontrollably, ironically mindless I do
This sensation that helps keep me sane
whilst putting a big smile on

Unaware of the breaking-point,
holding as much as I can.
Mortified of myself and all that consists of me
Theres nothing, nothing
not enough words to mend what Ive become

At the edge,
I falter, I stumble
as hopeless I can be
breaking, falling
I am weak.

he cut out my wings
right before my eyes
shaky, I sit and stare

caught by an undertow
gasping for air
****** in through his current,
pulled by his flow

theres no escape from this nightmare,
no glimpse of a hope
these baffling thoughts that wouldn't subside
and in the midst of it all, I cant help but notice
this rope.