Speaking to myself is getting old,seems like i have no one else to talk to.My words are becoming thinner ,and trust me im far from a beginner.Time has passed by slowly but surely my time is coming,I almost  cant remember the good old days. Something in my reckless mind screams out for help as my words remain silent. Tip toeing through a field of sorrow,I start feeling like im worth a shiny dime lost deep in someones pocket. I wish i was strapped to a fiery rocket, waved goodbye to everyone as it exploded just so the knew my pain.  Everyone goes through depression but unfortunately Ive never had protection,not giving up on life because living was "once" my goal but right now im on one hell of a roll.....But look Ive  done tried it all!!!!!!!There's no point talking because my words never get too far,id rather just keep my words and feeling bottled up in a jar. I love when people play like they really care,but truthfully their hearts are still and bare. Fighting my inner demon,I cant seem to win  this ever lasting battle.My eyes filled with meaningful tears,mean nothing to anyone. No matter how much Ive tried its never played out my way,just a roll play. Speechless and lost from confusion,wondering why it had to fall on me. I'm going to end this on a good note and say farewell live on and for ever in peace........

Have i ever told you how thankful i am,holding me loving me hand in hand....theses precious moments will never end its just the start so lets began...Time after time you've been there for me.To guide me straight through everything.Lost in my ways blinded by the light but ill always remember to fight,fight,fight.I'm growing old and so are you but will never stop standing two by two.

The glare of your eyes set my soul on fire.
Your rosy red lips give my heart desires.......
The very touch of your hand give me motivation.....
I love being your situation........
You've stood by me through thick and thin....
I've got your heart,I think I win......

Today i want to thank you for allowing me to awake,for keeping your promise an not to forsake.
Though i have signed you have forgave,so in this matter i want you to be "praised".
All your grace and all your glory,lord i love how you told your story.
The way you held my held high,an said how id fly high in the shy.
No matter how far i go i know who to turn to when I'm feeling low

Darkness fills the sky's....
Tears fill my eye's......
The way I appear,Don't take me by surprise.......
My mouth speaks words that no others have spoken........
Please don't take me serious I'm just joking.....
My words are full of Lie's.......
My mind is soon to die.......
So when I tell you my words are true,please Don't believe them I'm constantly crying the blues.......
My hands dealt the shame.......
My mother got the blame........
But one is whole and one is me......
An me is slowly dieing!
Sunshine fills the sky's.......
The glare of my beautiful brown eyes......
I will not despise, what I recognize.....
I am me and I will be me to the foulest......

A black man follows as i walk he was always my best friend,my lover,even my comfort when i couldn't talk.This man makes me happy he makes me glad he makes me anything but mad.This man is my shadow slim and sleek hes been there since day one but here's the sneak  peek.He's evil vicious,grimy to he'll get into your mind and tell you what to do.This black man is smart and slick you wouldn't imagine all his mindful tricks .Ive fallen into them quit a few times and that is why my life is on the line.The black man plays no games you fall into his trap and you start to daze. Daze into a world you'll never forget and there no going back its like thee end!

As I open my wide brown glazing eyes....
I stop and realize.....
This is who is am...
You get one soul as you do one mind....But as you know when its your time you will fly...
Fly high in the sky with the angles above with no shame like a white feathered dove....
Souring like a bird,swimming like i fish in the deep blue sea...
Standing perfectly still with no motivation of moving....
Going down 99 just crew-zing...
Waiting on god to answer my prayer......
I keep thinking to my self life just isn't fair...
As i lay me down,I sit an think....
There's better ways to get my way!!!!
Tho hes by my side.....
Still no tears i cry.....
I shall not die,With out goodbye......


So for now be still..........

A life lived in Missouri....
Time ticks and I start to feel more and more guilty...
As we know I was dealt a ****** hand of cards......
Your still number 1 in my heart.....
Says to be my best-est friend......
Your were no longer there at the end...
Forgiving is all we can do....
Moving on is the beginning of something new.....
I have no shame against you.....
But for now will be distant

Me and you as one can be....
Time fly's by slowly...
We started out fine....
Now look at we!
The good days didn't last very long!
I still remember the long nights we sat up talking about unnecessary things....
The pale moon light blaring down on my face on a summer min night......
My eyes are closed tight.
My thoughts are at a whisper..
Morning light comes and still no progress....
I'm afraid its to late...
What we had is gone .....
Me & You are dead!

Way past the windows......Far along the road!
Deep in the ocean.....
I know this can't be long.....
Way above the chimneys.......
Low a pound the ground.....
It was more then just a whisper, more then just a sound....
Two people combined......
But this two makes one.....
Not just love for now,but for forever.......
Time and time again,are pinky's held tight.........
Never give in on are love,remember to fight!
We grow old together as one......
No remember are love has just began.....

Counting down 5 two 1.
Lets be honest its just begun..
The walls in here are cold and bare...
Cant you smell it in the air????
The people you meet from far and near.....
Keep your eyes peeled its not very clear......
As days go by i start to fear ill never get the **** out of here!!!!!!!

Her soul was as free as a bird flying in mid air,her eyes sparkled like stars in the night  sky. Not a day goes by hat i don't think about you and how we used to be. Obtained by sadness that your gone,years has passed scene Ive last saw your face. Taking a closer look on reality id rather be with you,everything happens for a reason an what doesn't **** us makes us stronger. So in honer  of you i wanna speak life  and life for you...Live and grow an be what you expected of me. To yo,you will never be forgotten.

Them eyes really fooled me...
The words you spoke  to me were really true to me.....
All the lies that were said went right over my head......
I chose to love you instead....
The way you bared me with every breath....
I still chose to love you my best!
Tho we are no more......
There's still one more thing i have for you in store......
You never saw the real me......
Funny,silly,giggly as can be........
The person everyone wants to be around......But look at what we found out !
Time completely destroys a person....
anticipating  on looking over life for a while.......
Well unfortunately we have ran out o time with out a civil ending.....
Don't worry baby we can have the perfect beginning....
Time will go by and so will I .......
Like a forgotten soul ,no shame don't cry!!!!!!
God knows this is yet another battle i have to fight....
But that's it for now and im going to end this by saying them eyes really fooled me.

unheard voice

I know this isn't where i belong,Ive tried telling them this all along.
People try helping me but there usually wrong,its like an old time record playing the same old song.Deep down it belongs to me,i don't understand why they cant see.im the only one that holds the key,the key to my happiness so please don't take that away from me.For many years Ive never spoke whats on my mind,from here on out i think its time.To let that little unheard voice shine.