All alone in a darkened room, I continue to wait,
Silent and still, minutes and hours ticking away.
Wishing for the pain and tears to dissipate.
But they don't.
No matter how fervently I pray.

Grief, separation and loss echo my empty soul,
Words forever ringing hollow and dry.
My world now meaningless, an inescapable black hole.
The numbness always haunting me, it will never die.

Restless nights, never able to peacefully sleep,
The worst of the memories invade my dreams.
The anger and despair lock me away inside their keep,
I'll never feel anymore than this it seems.

I cannot continue to run,
Everyone will lose someone someday.
In no way am I the only one.

But because time will never lend,
Nobody ever stays in the end.

Fear is the razors edge pushing into a vein,
Making tears fall like bitter rain.
Attaching to every thought,
Seeding doubt within every action,
Or regret with every word spoken.

Over-thinking, and contemplating
That the worst is forever inevitable.
Inescapable, a hellish prison indeed.

Insecurities come flooding through,
Rushing like a wild river rapid.
It shatters confidence and plagues the mind,
Relentlessly gnawing at the intestines.
The festering infection spreading
Turning into a disease with no cure,
Leaving the hapless victim broken and unsure.

I envy every moment not spent with you,
All the wasted years taunt me with what should have been ours.
Oh, how I've longed to call you mine
How cruel it seems that when we've finally come together
You must leave me and I must let go.

But darling, never fear!
You are the only one to hold my heart
or to touch my soul.
While others may come and go,
Their presence never meant anything to me.

My love for you have never swayed,
And it is to you, and you alone, that I shall always return.

I keep my memories safe
And jealously guard them
From the ruthless destruction of time.
For as long as I remember, you will still be here.