im waking up beside your heart

you feel warm to the touch

i breathe you in



i fight the urge to blink

for fear that you might disappear

alone in my head



you whisper in my ear

and i tingle from the neck down

"i want you"



that's all you say

that's all you've ever said

tell me..

when does "i love you" come in?



i've loved you

i love you

i will love you



but you're not really there

fantastical is this fantasy of false addiction

when instead you feed my affliction



you're killing me slowly

and all i can do is gasp

for the air that will never come



so please, just let me go

release me from my delusions

and i will be set free

She tried to remember when she first knew she was in love

but words on her lips were only false images

the truth was

she could not remember

love was spontaneous

like the pigments in the night sky

a rush emotion that enters her brain

as if a wave had crashed against a cliff side

they say that when you are in love

cupid shoots you with his arrows

and that poison molds into your being

as if it were the oxygen you breathe

it begins to tingle from the points

of your finger tips down to the edges

of your toes



she did not remember an exact time

or day

or month

or year

what she remembered was how she felt

how she still feels

and how she will continue to feel

she remembers his face when she told him

it was sad

a longing that stretched from his eyes to hers

he looked pained

but smiled curtly anyway



she remembers her tears

they bled from her eyes

as he stayed silent

they felt like hot rain against her cheeks

her love was being poured out

she remembers his eyes

as he kneeled in front of her

to gently press his lips against her fingers

she remembers his empty response

and the look of hurt as he

left her sitting there

alone



she tried to remember when she first knew she was in love

but all she can remember is the mark that arrow made

when it struck her to the chest

she knows her heart isn't empty anymore

in fact it is absent

she knows she will fight for the love

she remembers

and that one day she will remember

when she first knew she was in love
.

it's amazing

amazing to think how far i've fallen

fallen for the athlete

the jokester

the ace

my best friend



it's amazing how we met

a tumble in the grass

and what happened next

was history



it's amazing how you loved me

how we shared

and held on tight

hoping we'd stay together

all day and all night



it's amazing that i'm ignorant

of how i felt about you and us

that i couldn't see the bond

or how you loved me



it's amazing that i let you go

cut our ties and drowned in sorrow

being selfish all for nothing



it's amazing how much i miss you

when you speak

or pass me by



it's amazing how much it hurts

to see you happy

to feel my heart bleed out to you

when we speak



it's amazing how i love you

but it's too late

too soon

not right

oh well



it's amazing how i'll keep trying

trying to win your heart

trying to see your smile

always trying

it's truely amazing

You scream help

but no one listens

absence only lingers

pushing at your bones



tears become waterfalls

descending into muffled cries

you grab at your seams

scratching away the rose colored stains



please hear me

I'm falling into my own despair

my own defeat

I'm going under

so won't somebody hear me



Scathing cold eyes

bore into the black abyss

awaiting the silent terrain

of each ticking moment



You shutter violently

trembling before your pain

the lines scorch your skin

as they burrow deeper and deeper



Please hear me

I'm falling into my own despair

my own defeat

I'm going under

so won't somebody hear me



Pleading and needing

a sound to escape

this wanting desire

just aches to be made

I'm crawling inside

my heart beating along

please hear me someone

for I'm not alone



Please hear me

I'm falling into my own despair

my own defeat

so won't somebody hear me

please, won't somebody hear me

Exhausted, each letter drops

from my head to my feet

a blank screen behind these eyes

why?

understanding is futile

and wondering is growing weak

wanting, waiting

empty wishes

fall like ash

clouding my judgement.

just a fox and a hound

evading my pursuits

i'm left without your hand

warmth, smile, touch, breath

ingredients to your heart.

Mystified, my haze injects into my mind.

uncontrollable

my blood squirms

with a single thought

her...

polished, porcelain doll

of mocha caramel flavor

painted happiness, internal despair

all i ever think about.

waking moments reflect daydream hopes

dreaming scenes

of tomorrow

a ghost, a whisper on her neck

she'll never know.

Exceptional grins of jagged pearly whites
adorn skeletal masks
suffocating your mangled breath
as curled fingertips scrape against dirt.

Flesh, charred and soiled
hangs brilliantly from serrated bark.
Bleached bone barbed at the spine
where charcoal dragons dig infected beaks to feast.

A single mountain of shadow stands
before lacerated skies
a portal of inviting mayhem and madness
concrete pathways twist to its starving mouth.

Horned beasts hobble on disfigured limbs
dragging their sins across heated ground.
Hungry for souls dipped in blood
the scent of rot disperses like fog.

Rickety witches stir boiling cauldrons
with ossified tendrils,
saliva oozes from cracked lips
as you're watched from a distance.

No escape from the blackened sludge
as it wraps on the nape of your neck,
gurgle out pitiful screams of fright,
welcome to halloween.

Traveler dare to be bold
Gobble up future remnants always
Backwards path, he wanders alone.