World
i look beside me
everyone who was there for me
has now disintegrated
they pass by me
expecting me to be on my own
no rules no expectations
they refuse to give me more
inhaling what i think cures my pain
only gives more tearing pain
determination to release whats deep in my veins
escaping thoughts of mutilation
drug is no escape
pain, is the same.

Father i see you
i see you as you drink away
your screaming father why?
take another drink to calm the voice of hate
tripping and falling all over the place
father please slow down the pace
and take a seat for your sake
leaving me while you take mother with you
throwing away what you work for
on prizes that go over your rate.

While turning your back on who is my role model
shes tries to keep you sane  
as you throw yourself to other creatures
she turns her head in pain
holding a drink to please the husband you choose to be
catching her breath holding each and every word
disappointed with the world  
as she tries to get away
she sees herself stuck
in the same place as yesterday.


Father i see more in you
i expect more from you
sober you is such a different you
memories, great memories are in my heart
we share times together as family when your can is gone
you goof around and exaggerate
and make me laugh on my happiest days
these are the times i call you daddy
my daddy please stay.

I see you as many
your night and day
promise to be temporary father
and forever the daddy i ask to stay
be the husband my mother deserves
and grow old happy and faithful
as i teach my kids the same
be the person they chose to be
don't make them ask you
why you haven't changed.

Tell me why
Perfection is not the key
But light from head to feet
I see the golden shine
I question the desire at times
For me and you is what your feeling true
No unreasonable words with no meaning
Simply the feelings straight out of the blue

I stick my head in the clouds
As opening up to someone is hard to do
Maybe your there as no one else appears
A chance to change and accept faith for who is maybe saint
What you deserve is a lady that is the same
From eye to eye
Things will come true
For not only me but also
you

Therefore tell me why
As I try to open up
I decide to hide
In shame I cover my eyes  
Tell me why I feel this way
My shame stays the same.