along the lines of my notebooks,
drawings, scribbles and notes contained...
along the common divide
of my journalistic side

my heart cries when you arent here
the drive almost an hour long
for a day
a smile arisen on my face...

these eyes are usually brown
and they reflect the ocean blues of you
when i leave the town
i am on a one way ticket home
alone

take a drive
look into life
there is a reason to understand
"that all we have is time"

the phone is my only lifeline
to the world beyond
And i am outside searching for a signal.

I was dark and gray,
I was night and slept all day.
I was violent, borderline insane
Funny thing, love...
But do you remember me?
Do you remember my name?

I am day
Sometimes, I sleep at night,
I somehow always forget to turn off the light.
Some say there is always another.
I beg to differ,
Do you care to debate?

I remember looking on your hands,
Seeing the more tempting Aspects--
I saw your past, Our Future.

The greatest test, this.
See if I go overboard, make a change.
So far its all wonderful.
Except one thing, I cannot forget you.

Midnight, three sheets in the wind,
Bellowing in the breeze, As if I were free...
I cannot dream, only able to muffle my screams...
Torture, on my mind,
As I lost not only once,
I cannot fathom Twice?

Have you seen your reflection?
Remember? your Promise?
Return the favor,
Our love, I will Always savor.

I see you everywhere,
The melodies of what I need to do,
What I should have done...
To cry tears is weakness, And--
My subtle strength.

Now I manage to smile,
After the test drive,
I am ready for the rest of my life...
Do you remember me?

Someone told me to reach
sometimes I can't see
where in the world is your heart?
Why in the world must we depart?

I just can't see why...
you have to ignore me all your life,
does true love have to walk about you twice?

These questions I ask
might they go among you,
encompass your heart
tear apart the hate.

What in the world do I have to do...
just to get the message through you?

i tried to speak
from studdered speech
my thoughts, my mind are clear,
but you dont see
where i came up with it dear.
so i cut my hair
to ease my pain
but it looks like i will suffer again

the morning is never the same,
wake up--look at the clock,
Now looking left
How the luck ive gotten myself into
a long wished and winded,
hope evaporating with the fog..
I THOUGHT i knew.
heart was beaten black to blue,
Given life because of you.
Heart beat, yet faint.
a desire to have the wish refrain...
The dream Begins again.

To the right, that clock.
The annoying sounds of Daybreak,
A choice to make.

Do I return?
Back into the realm of Dreams?
Where everything goes planned, imagined, and according to me?
Do I move on?
Stake my claim for the day?
Sit and make way for things...

Looking around now....
Have I given up?
Have I become complacent, compliant, or cordial?
What way should I be?
The way I wake... I declare

A familiar touch of the time
Memory of shine..
Through glass... watching the dust
It's a moment to feel...
As I wake.

bring forth life to these hands
call them
make them create
make them go
provide the sense of touch
and select taste
even with every scar
a blessed memory
give them life
make them see
a pulse, a soul within
happiness
spring
re-juvenation of them.

There are days where you and I
Can't quite seem eye to eye

There are days where I would wish
That there was something better than this

Now you see, I hope
Awhile, I have been afloat
Do You see what this does to me?
Nights pass by where I wait for simple things,
Though the words never come out right

You say the only thing you have left us to die,
I have seen proof Otherwise....

There are days where you and I
Can't quite seem eye to eye

Take a moment and wonder why
You have often seen tears in my eyes.

He had me in a position,
One I was unable to refuse...
A twitch to the left;  A pulse on the right--
He's got me.
Locked in... with those eyes.
Those moments...
Unable to be spoken
The air quiets. The silence climbs through my skin and from with I....
Let him see the other side
The point and moment where one side cannot do anything but beg.
To be let loose. Set free,
Suddenly.
To let it rise right in and take me,
Shake me to my core...
Leaving me wanting.
Yearning. Needing.
Pleading and begging...

There is no care left unaccounted for --
There has been a bit of memory ...?
Left on the floor.
Yet motionless is an understatement...
When that man makes me beg for the other side to take ahold of me
To run free.
Emotional enlistment
This...
...THIS.... is all I need
To feel that sting
That twitch... the pulse.
All of this one moment.
One breath--

A whisper of a shadow on the left
The hums of the air going right around me
These...
Shivers I beg. I plead--
Don't know how this man...
Understands.
Me. This need. This desire he set free!
To be needing and begging.
(Deep from within)
All of the flooding  the emotional waves that--
Crash amongst all the sands, jettys, and the dunes...
All in the dreams.
These moments aren't mere memories.
I'm begging
Pleading
Let me in.
I want that desire
That one hidden within

That animal you decide to show
Those hands the know every inch...
Of skin I possess.
The best little moment to let....
It all begin-- yet stop just as sudden.
On edge I wait for release...
Begging for us to be free.