to feel like this
must be

the same way

the sand grains feel
when they are smashed against the rocks

I would rather be a tree in a sink hole
than feel like this.

I would still eat the sun for you
I would still swallow the ocean
to bring rain for you
(I know you like it better when the skies are grey)

in my dreams,
I still see you.

in these ashes,
my heart still
beats
for
you.

and my nights are consumed
by thoughts of you.

I can't put out the fire
any faster than it started.

I exhale fire
and my skin is emerald


I was destined to be great.
I was destined to be

I am destiny!

the back ache consumes me
but my wings have spread
wide enough
to lift me

is my blessing
a (my) curse,

my curse,
my destiny?

sapphire is my vice.
(escape)

they are lurking
(behind shadows and on door knobs)
and following me
(to my bed room and into my bed)

I find comfort
in the water
and then back to the start.
(They are in the water!)

the pounding in my head
never stops.
like a hamster's wheel
(dead hamster)
diseased little hamster.
it's always turning

I cannot stop them.

I wrote something for you.

would you accept my words?
I promise you, they mean no harm.
if you need glasses, I will buy them for you.

You can run if you like,
can I follow?
Cry if you want to,
but can I dry your eyes?

You can scream if you want,
I promise I'll listen.

Anything you do,
is okay with me.

Because I am so glad I found you here.

And if the rain comes,
to strip me of feeling...
I hope it strips you of fear.

Because,
I stand before you:

e m p t y .

Please accept my words.
I promise...

they mean no harm.

together,
we were immortal.

never again
could I trust in this man made prophecy.

I awake in obscurity

(nothing left in my head,
no thought, no feeling)

Oh please forgive me,
Forgive them,
(they know not what they do)
Forgive us
(we know not what we say)

forever,
will be the death of me.

Fire!
Fire!
Fire!

I can't put it out.

I'm an arsonist in love with sapphire
and the comfort
I get from the flames.

Let it burn,
I hope it swallows me whole!

Bring me more kerosene,
I love the decay the flames bring.