Your 'love' sickens me
But it has trapped me
In my own mind
And I beg it to set me free
So I might see the sun
So I might find the one
The one I might call my own
So I will no longer be alone
The one who will love me more
Than all the ones before
But I will never find
This beautiful girl of mine
'Cause I'm trapped in my own mind
Stuck in this hell hole
Because my heart you stole
But now I'm stealing it back
Even though I'm shackled to this rack
And chained up in this cell
While you make my life a living hell
'Till she comes to save me
And release this love within me
Because its her and only her
That keeps my life a stir
And then I awaken
A deep breath I take in
I'm stilled shackled and chained
My heart still scared and maimed
Someone's coming through the door
It's a girl but I can't tell much more
And I relax my fists
Because I know who it is

As we sit together
And she sits next to us
Envy burning through her eyes
Like a million fire flies
A burning, crackling, roaring flame
Fed by her shame
All because she wanted to play this game
And she wanted it to be the same
But she forgot one thing
Her game is lame
And now she is mad
Because now I'm not mad
'Cause I have you
And she and I are done
'Cause I found the one
Now this heart of stone
Is no longer alone
Because now I have you
And you have me
And the world will leave us be
'Cause your love will set me free
Releasing my shackles and chains
Taking me outside of this cell
To where it never rain
Escaping my spirit from this hell
Although these scars still stay
And they will never go away
But your love keeps my anger at bay
And your kiss lets me live another day
So here, forever, I will stay.

You gave me pain
And you gave me hurt
Now my heart slain
Lying beneath the dirt
So I'm sick of your pain
And I'm sick of your hurt
Because I love this one
And I love you none

Now its the end of your lies
And the end of your betrayal
As I say my goodbyes
And end this horrible tale
No more will my heart fail
Because I love this one
And I love you none

I'm no longer hurt
And no longer in pain
Now you are just a stain
Smeared on my shirt
Now you feel the pain
And now you feel the hurt
Because I love this one
And I love you none

As I walked through the wind
Tears soaked into my cheeks
Thinking of things we could have been
And could have lasted longer than a few weeks
As my cheeks stay dry
And I no longer cry
Because now I know why
Why I had to die
So that my soul could fly
And be freed from this torture called "life"
Now on hatred I feed
And I thrive on struggle and strife
So as I lie dead
And you are confused and mad
Off your hatred I am fed
When the razor ripped my skin
I already knew I would live again
In death I see the truth
Loving you was a sin
My body rests under earth and rocks
My soul sits in hell and talks
And chats with the devil
Told him to curse your soul
And the very earth on which it walks
So now your life is in ruin
And it's a living hell
And when you're released from your shell
And rescued from your cell
My spirit will rise
Just to haunt your "life"
And torture your very being
To make you envy me
And make you wish you were me
Wish you could be
Just like me
Exactly like me
Make you beg and plead
"Please! Please just **** me!"
But I let you live
I want to torture you
As you tortured me
I'll let living eat away at you soul
Make you pray for death
Then we both get what we want
As I take in my breath

What would you do if you loved someone...
But they didn't love you back...
You just want to pull the trigger on that gun...
Until the point where body has slack...
What would you do?

What would you do if someone hated you so...
Even though you loved them...
And it's ****** up cuz they know...
Exacly how you feel now and then...
What would you do?

What would you do if you knew how she felt...
And she knew how you feel...
And once her heart you did melt...
And once your heart she did steal...
What would you do?

What would you do if she felt nothing for you...
And you felt everything for this girl....
She no longer calls you her Boo...
She was perfect for you like oyster to a pearl...
What would you do?

What would you do if your world was coming down
And there was nothing you could do
But sit and watch
As everything goes to ruin........

How was I supposed to know
That things would end like this
How was I supposed to know
That you would do something like this
That I would feel a pain like this
Every time you don't speak
My heart becomes weak
I no longer see the love in your eyes
The love I now despise
And hate with so much passion
The emotions erupt within
My mind, body, and soul
That rocks my very spirit
That chisals at my heart
Until you can no longer see it
But I need you as mine
So I hurt no more
So that I really am fine
And I really am ok
So I no longer have to lie
So I can live and not die
I can only dream that dream
I know it won't happen
But I'll tappin' and tappin'
On true love's door
Until I break it down
And demand you by name
With a roaring flame
Of love and nothing less
But I'm too late
You have found you "soul mate"
I guess this is fate
The way its supposed to be
So much I love you
I guess you don't love me
If I could change my ignorence
Alter my stupidity
I would make me see
The way you look at him
The way you used to look at me
No more you stare
Now you just glare
I thought the love we had
Was special and rare
But, again, I was wrong
Now I'm stuck singing
This sad, sad song
With this non-stop ringing
And this constant stinging
Shreding my very being
But I keep you from seeing
My pain and my tourment
My heart thats broken and bent
Pieces are shattered
Beaten and battered
Standing with this girl flirting
Then I see you and him
And for a second all is dim
With the residue of love
But as you pass
So does the thought
And when it and you are gone
I'm back to talking and walking
Just sitting and bullshitting
You have this new guy
And I have my new girl
But I still ask why
Why you still sigh
And reminisce of us
And our secrets in the mist
I also wish we could go back there
So it will be just you and me
So I can whisper softly to you
I love you , baby....
And you can whisper back to me
I love you too....
Love's rendezvous

Mischievous secrets
Softly screamed in my ear
Anger surging
And racing through me
Voices no on else can hear
Crying out in my mind
Revealing truths
Sheding light on shadows
Soul cowering in the corner
Afraid of everything, everyone
People you've hurt before
Try to warn me and tell me
Exactly what will happen
If I say only 3 words
Fatal words hurtful words
You know of the damage they cause
And of the wreckage they bring
Yet you say them so meaningly
Your trying to hurt me
And bring me pain
Well you succeeded
My heart is slain
And I feel a pain
Like no other pain
And I still tell you
I still love you
And no matter what
I always will
And you never will
So ***** I spill
Because you make me sick
Because you think your slick
But you're not
All this is what runs through me
And my mind
As I sit here and you tell me
This 3 word devastation
That I fear, so much I fear
As I'm dripping a tear
As you softly whisper in my ear
I love you dear
Tears crystal blue
Becasue I know its not true