Most believe love to be
A stone plate
Their efforts forever
Etched in the slate
But the truth is
Love is more like sand
You pick up a pile
Just to have it run through your hand
You struggle to force it
And keep it there
But as the wind blows
It falls apart in the air
You look down at your hands
And notice they're bare
You scoop up more handfuls
Only to watch them
Break into shambles
You try to hit it
And pack it to the floor
But everytime you smack it
It just breaks apart more
Love is not the boulder or pebble
It can not be measured
To any level
So be careful when you answer the door
When Love does knock
Its not always there
Unlike the rock
It's not limestone, quartz, or granit
It doesn't last forever
So never take it for granted

I pretend to be indestructible
But I know I'm not
I pretend things don't effect me
But inside I rot
I make it look like I roll with the punches
So you never thought
For one second that I wouldn't protect you
From harm anyone sot
To inflict upon you
I play the role of bulletproof vest
You take one percent of the damage
And I take the rest
I'm willing to be your human shield
So you take a pin ***** of the blade
While my wounds can't be healed
So I stand bleeding
In a flower filled field
You didn't realize
We could have been something great
You didn't know how much I love you
And now it's too late
This was my destiny
This was my fate
To die attempting to touch
Something that can't be reached
Because I love you so much
It didn't matter what happened to me
Pain, heartbreak, and things of that such
Didn't demoralize me
And since I left, now I see
That I was born to die
And died to be
Your guardian angel
I was created to protect you
I was created to love you
I still do my job
Only now I float above you

When I was lost
You came to find me
When I was falling
You stood behind me
But I fell so many times before
I though I was the forgotten one
Or just the one you ignore
So I never looked to the sky
And kept my feet on the floor
Wondering when I'm going to die
Becuase I couldn't take any more
Then you took the only thing that made me rich
And you left me poor
My heart couldn't take it
It fell apart and tore
But then you brought her into my life
And all the sudden it meant so much more
When I thought to be caught in the Devil's stare
When I thought no longer did you care
When you took my everything
And left my heart bare
You showed up in the nick of time
And entertwinded her life with mine
So once again my life is fine
Now I know you forgive me
For my life of sin
Becuase you gave me a reason
To live once again

I thank the Lord above
For all the times
That I fell in love
And I thank the one below
For the pain
That I have come to know
I know it so well
Through the scars
From all the times I fell
They’re the reason why
I’m an empty shell
They have shattered my hopes
And destroyed my dreams
But it’s the love I have
That muffles my screams
I have more love than pain
Or so it seems
Until I’m crushed with this burden
And I come apart at the seems
But my soul burns bright
No one can dim it
But this girl just pushes me
Everyday to my limit
She drives me crazy
Completely insane
And for a minute I feel nothing
Not even the pain
But once control I regain
It becomes all too familiar
I wonder if it’s worth this
And is it my fault
Did I birth this?
Did I terminate this bliss?
Did I do something wrong?
If I did
Why has this been going on so long?
If this isn’t feeding off love
Then what’s it running on?
My brain twisting and turning
With different notions
My heart flaming and burning
With different emotions
I struggle to tell you
That life isn’t fair
And that about you
I never did care
You try to look into my mind
Knowing not the conflict
That rages on in there
The Devil pushes
God pulls so I get no where
Whether I should walk away
Or sit and stay
Is a battle between my heart and my brain
That I think never ends
I just hope when it stops
The right one wins

So many times in my life
I’ve gone down the wrong path
Leaving nothing in my wake
But a brutal blood bath
I seemed to be misdirected
Until God and I connected
With us being conjoined
He gave me the insight
To see that when I thought to be right
Actually all along
I couldn’t be more wrong
He handed this power to me
Only to take it away
Then give it back another day
He kept doing this
Just for fun and just for play
Sometimes when I needed him
He wasn’t there
When I looked for him in my soul
I found it was bare
He did help me at times
But these times are rare
It looks like he helps some
More than others
And that isn’t fair
Is it that he can’t help us all?
Or that he just doesn’t care?
Whatever it is
When I needed him most
He left me alone
When I needed him close
He left me to roam
Now I’m lost
And I don’t know which way is home

This life of sin
Is like a game of chess
That I just can’t win
It has no pros
All it has is cons
Like a team of queens
Versus my team of pawns
I have no power
And it seems my grapes
Always turn sour
Even if I try
To make the best of every hour
No matter what happens
My heart will never know
What it means to cower
It only knows now
What it is to empower
My body with the strength
To reach the top of this tower
Hopefully with my new faith
I can manage to scour
The stains of sin from my life
Leaving nothing but a glower
Upon the Devil’s face
As I slide you
Into my protective embrace
My sins will erase
When our fingers interlace

As I lay my head down to sleep
I ask you Lord, please keep
Me from the Devil’s grasp
Free my soul from its fleshy clasp
So it can set flight
As I retire for the night
So I can sleep soundly in my bed
Without a dream in my head
Because to tell you the truth Lord
My actions were of the most untoward
I don’t want these thoughts to haunt me
And wake in the night looking rather gauntly
Please Lord, forgive me for my sins
Let me start anew as the new day begins
I am truly in dismay
For the unholy crimes committed today
I ask for your sympathy
And I plea for your empathy
I apologize for tomorrows sins that I may commit
I’m no where near a saint yes I admit
But I tried hard today
To live as close as I could to heavenly way
And tomorrow will be better
I’ll try harder to loosen the Devil’s fetter
Just let your mercy rain down like thunder
To help me sleep but avoid eternal slumber