I know I drive you crazy
with my unending sadness
wreck your selfishness with my love,
your complains are invalid
there are only a few who taste love
who are drawn to the light
I will drown to keep you breathing
I know I drive you crazy
with my love
you disapprove .

I knew what I was getting into
those fine lines cut away from your lips
when reached for mine
warmth of your hands on my waist
on a hot summer night, unwelcomed
I was way too lost in your eyes
that had for the first time, maybe, collapsed into oblivion
of the beauty of love
fallen prey to mine
you slowed down when time made a stop at our feet
in that instant
when the universe decided to breathe through us
I listened to your heartbeat against my chest
woke up with a smile, tears shimmering down to the  realization of an empty morning
and your love
nothing but a mere escape
a hope
I live everyday.

I stumble on your breaths
light hearted
darkness grows in me when your eyes wander
search through my soul,
you take my love in between your fingers, tie it with your words and let it fall in the vicinity of hope
I slip and fall, slip and fall
melting figures of peace form in my nerves
I stand still
and fake gravity is still working,
your reasons are so much stronger than love
I go home in the rain
let it soak life out of me
I slip and fall
I slip and fall
until bruises hold me together
sew my soul with your rejections
I slip and I fall

my heart has run out of tears to shed
it feels wrong to be in love anymore,
to want to be held in arms that make me feel safe
to be protected within the walls of your eyes seems like a desire burning in the cremation of my soul,
I have lost nights to your memories
my days are shadowed in the darkness of your words
butchering the core of my existence.

if loving you is my hell
then so be it

you and I
live a relationship
that does not exist