you say you understand
trust me i wish you could
if you walked a mile in my shoes
you'd be hurting before it started

you say you went through it too
that i can always come to you
it happened to you
did it really?

just let me
be me
for once try not to judge
don't tell me i'm not good enough

all they told me was to give up
to stop trying
to just quit already

i'm not going to have you tell me too

~anonymous

"on the narrow porch they sit, and wait, and sit
in wheel chairs, behind walkers, too many
like goldfish who crowd the surface
for flecks of food..."

their forgetful minds
but remembering hearts
you wonder if she knows
it's you
her mind doesn't make the connection
but her heart feels the love
like a mother and her son
not knowing how to speak
but loving without question

the dementia taking over
her mind once brilliant
now the light dimming
it's hard and she tries to remember
not wanting to let go
like a solider in battle
she does't want to loose this fight

you see her for the last time
replaying the memories
like your favorite song
over and over again

~anonymous

"If I could find the words, if I could shake the world,
If I could turn back time would you still be there?"

all these hours spent together
wondering if you ever gave a ****
i trusted you with all i had
you were the crutch i couldn't walk without

i'm drowning in the memories
trying to forget
you left me crying in the dark
shattered

you always said that you would never leave
well were are you now

"If I could find the words, if I could shake the world,
If I could turn back time would you still be there?"

we would plan for weeks
just me and you
the dynamic duo

picking songs
creating dance moves for each one
no tv
just a laptop
and the beat of the tune

just me and you
the dynamic duo

weeks of planning
shoved into just a couple hours
we danced all night
made our own songs
talked about anything we thought of

when i look back
these days
every minute
was worth it
these are my favorite memories
it's like we couldn't leave each other's sides

long lost sisters
our parents couldn't handle us
as sisters
so we chose to be
sisters by choice
not by force

~anonymous

small towns means everyone knows all your secrets
unless you don't talk
so i keep to myself

my deepest thoughts
never to be heard
i hide from them
for they scare me

it takes a thought to pull the trigger

~anonymous

your words fill my mind
like a never ending song
they are always there

i want to let go
but you keep coming back

holding your knife
behind your back so no one could see
but the second i turn around

you stab me

i want you to let me go
stop holding on so tight
i’m done with you
im sick of your hurtful ways
you break me and leave me shattered

don’t bother to help pick up the pieces this time

~anonymous

three years passing
slowly and gracefully
i had that feeling
never letting them show

i knew i should have left

within an hour
it was all true
my face wet with tears
i felt like i was burning

she was killing me

that feeling
was real
everything i ever thought
was being shown right to my eyes

i was broken
shattered

~anonymous