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anonymous Feb 2014
vertical*
because I wanna see you in a different point of view
maybe if I saw what others saw I wouldn't be so into you

optical
because seeing the real you
is something I've always wanted to explore

geographical
because you're as interesting as a map
very boring on the outside
but complex once the content is discovered

chemical
because media and society have poisoned your brain by presenting what an ideal woman should look like more than what she should be like as a person

miracle
something God has blessed us with;
for a love like ours
is something that only happens
one in a million

typical
because ******* up something so rare
is something I'm amazing at doing

reciprocal
something I wish our feelings would learn how to do
once more
anonymous Jul 2018
our love was like the moon
beautiful and bright
mysterious
some nights you saw it
and it followed you home
other nights you went on a search
to find it
oh, how beautiful and simplistic
and i talk to the moon
hoping that you hear me
because our love was like the moon
sometimes so bold and beautiful
and sometimes..
so hard to find.
anonymous Oct 2020
i miss waking up next to you
the sun beaming on your face
as i stare at your radiant skin
the colour of caramelized brown sugar
the kind you eat off candy apples
in the summertime at amusement parks
while the lights from rides illuminate the night
the same way your presence ignites my heart
i am stuck in daydreams of you
and although the world is on halt
i feel an immense amount of chaos in my world
because you are not here with me
in my presence
and the thought of you makes me feel
and finally understand things
that were once incomprehensible to me
i’ve never been good at science
but with you it’s like i understand the concept
of gravitational pulls
because although we are so far apart
i feel so insanely close to you but...

maybe i’m just stuck in the universe
that i found in your eyes
anonymous May 2019
Nothing hurts more
In this very moment
Than the thought of losing you
And though I want to give you
The reassurance you don’t think you need
The twisting and turning of my gut
The rush that my anxiety is experiencing
Refuses to let me tell you
And it hurts most
To know that
You
You were the closest thing to love
I have felt
In a really long time
You are the closest thing to love
That I remember feeling
Before I touched the deep
deep
Pits of depression
A feeling... that is slowly trying to familiarize herself with my soul once again
A cut tie that is trying to find the strength to mend its old habits back together
And I fear meeting her once again
Because I might be on the verge of losing you
But I cannot let myself lose me ever again
anonymous Aug 2013
Whisper softly in my ear
Tell me all the words
I wanna hear
And make it sound as beautiful
As the birds

Then as my neck awaits
Your mysterious kisses
We can both relate
To our past while each of us reminisces

"Remember when"
You begin
"You're telling this story again?"
No reply
Just more kisses against my skin

I love the sound of your raspy voice
The adrenaline when your hands touch mine
The pause when our eyes meet
Your hand on my waist
And everything about you

*A
anonymous May 2014
"I missed you"* I said
"no you didn't" you replied
"yes I did" I shot back at you
"is that why you haven't talked to me in the past 7 months?"
and then it hit me...
like a bullet to my ******* head

*a
just another idiot who's scared of trying
anonymous Jan 2014
they say love is patient
they say love is kind
but how would love be
in the wrong state of mind?

you think you're attracted
but what if it's just the looks?
you're only feeling lonely
which is the reason you're hooked

don't fall in love
when you're feeling alone
fall in love when the time is right

for i know how it all ends up
our memories that were once so colourfully vivid
have turned black and white

*a
anonymous Feb 2014
i denied being depressed
because i thought maybe telling myself that
would decrease the chances of it being true
but i now realize that denying your feelings for something
only makes them stronger
and because of this
i love you more
i hate the world around me
the environment i once thought was so beautiful
has now painted a monstrous image in my head
of what truly lies in this place
full of danger and lies and people who say they care about you
but actually don't
i have abandoned the memories
that linger in my mind
but no longer have meaning
i just need a new place to start everything over
i have come to the conclusion
that i have reached my breaking point

*a
anonymous Mar 2014
they call you dangerous because you are "rebellious" and you ride that cherry coloured motorcycle
i call you dangerous because you are capable of taking over my emotion;
the way i feel and how i see things
it is as if i am a flower
and you have picked me from the garden
you have control
you can leave me to die
or you can revive me and place me into a vase of water
they say you are dangerous because if i am a cat, you are a lion
you're stubborn, you fight for what you want
you are intelligent and you are beautiful
you are danger but maybe that is exactly what i need in my life

*a
anonymous Aug 2013
Dear Mama,
I wanna thank you for everything
Your love, your sweetness
Everything you do for me
For us
For everyone around

Dear Mama,
I was only young
I could not fathom the constant bickering
Between you and dad
You always seemed to leave the house
I would wonder how
You would get home at 3am
On your own

Dear Mama,
I realize now
You're getting sick
Sick and tired but
I hope you're not sick of me

Dear Mama,
Depression is killing you
You work overtime everyday of the week
No breaks, no nothing
Still not enough money to raise this family

Dear Mama,
I know you do everything you can
To keep your children alive
I don't know how to show
How thankful I am for words cannot explain
This feeling

Dear Mama,
I know I don't tend to show how much I love you
I'm sorry
But I don't know how
All I know is
I loved you yesterday
I love you now
I'll love you forever
Dear mama

*A
anonymous Jan 2014
"*i don't wish i was perfect
but i do wish i was happier
i do wish i would stop becoming such a bad person
i do wish i never cried so that i wouldn't have to wish away that lump in my throat when holding back my tears
i do wish many things like to stop world hunger
i wish to find a cure for diseases like cancer
i wish a lot of things
but i also wish that everything would be the same
i'm not going to wish i didn't love you because i'd never be happy if i did
i just wish you'd love me again so i could stop wishing for things i don't have because what else do i have to wish for when i already have you?


a

-dec 8, 2013-*
"
letter #10
anonymous Jun 2014
every so often I like to believe you still think about me
maybe you remember the smell of my hair
or the way my neck always craved your lips

maybe you remember the scars on my body
or the way my eyes always drowned in my tears

it's raining out and you know how I love to cry with the rain
you know I hated the sight of sadness by one's self

or was I so soon forgotten?

*a
anonymous Jun 2014
we were lost lovers
we were lost
and
we were lovers
people die everyday
and so does love
and maybe what we had
just wasn't meant to be alive

*a
anonymous Nov 2015
I close my eyes and the smell of your jacket suddenly fills the air
I feel your chin resting on my shoulder
do you ever remember the days you admired my "beauty"?

I open my eyes and see the seasons change
autumn to winter; the colours, the joy in people's faces
"I hate winter" one says
the world replies, "how do you hate something so beautiful?"
and then it hit me

it was not the beauty you saw
it was the beauty you felt when we were together
it was the beauty in the words we spoke, the kisses we exchanged
it was the beauty in knowing each other
but maybe that's why you are no longer here
because as you got to know more and more, I was not as beautiful as you thought I was
because I was no longer a light to guide you
but a dark cave that you often got lost into
and I knew you never liked the feeling of being lost

I guess I should be happy you found your way out.

*a
oct.14,2014
anonymous Jan 2020
You are a piece of me
And as much as sometimes
I feel that I need to be my individual self
I find that it’s hard to think of living my life without you
As much of an independent woman
People have perceived me to be
And as much as I’ve made myself believe so too
A piece of you lives in me
And I hate that the thought of being without you
Makes me feel incomplete
Because if one day
The universe decides to separate us
Or tear us apart
And I fall..
The way I fell in love with you
Except this time
I fall into a pit of depression
A feeling that knows me oh so well
A feeling that constantly lingers around me
Like my favourite perfume
I fear that I may end up losing both of us
And I know that pain loves company
And maybe I don’t want to think about losing you
Because I’ve grown up to be pain
And you are my sweet, sweet misery
April 2019
anonymous Jun 2014
it's time to forget about you
and keep you in the past

it's time to burn all the photographs
erase all the memories
cleanse my hands which you've held
and wash my cheeks which you've kissed

it's time to move on, you know?
quit following the paths we took walks on
stop hoping on all those future plans we made

but I'm afraid that I will burn my fingers trying to get rid of those photographs
and I will wipe out my brain cells trying to erase all our memories
I will be mortified to hold another hand and kiss another cheek

I will lose sense of direction forgetting about the paths we followed
and I will have no hope in any future at all

I thought that maybe forgetting about you would make my life easier

question: how hard could it possibly be?
answer: it would be harder than I thought


*a
anonymous Aug 2013
Thin waist, long legs
Smooth hair, big chest
Angel eyes, full lips
Pink cheeks, wide hips
Tall but not too high
With a gap between her thighs
And long lashes on her eyes
Hourglass figure

Sweatpants & scarred legs
Damaged hair, flat chest
****** eyes, dry lips
Pimpled cheeks, no hips
Short and stubby
No thigh gap, just chubby
And eyebrows? Shrubby
Me

*A
anonymous Jun 2014
even if I screamed until my throat went sore and punched everything in my way til my knuckles bled; even if I ran a million miles when my lungs gave up on me 999,999 miles ago and even if I scribbled across every page of my favourite book until the stab marks began to fade and even if I beat myself up everyday until my body became permanently numb; even if I stared at old pictures of us til my eyes were on the verge of blindness and even if I cut my wrists with pieces of broken glass that resemble my heart-

it would NEVER compare to how hurt I am and how sorry I am and how much I want to tell you how I feel but I can't because it just wouldn't be fair

and I know you've moved on but that's something I'm trying to teach myself how to do because no love will ever compare to the way I felt with you

*a
anonymous Jul 2014
inhale
I took a breath of you
cause I was addicted
and god you tasted so good
but you were like a stupid cigarette
and at the time I loved you so much...
my escape from everything...
but after a couple puffs, you burned out
and completely disappeared
but that's okay because
you always seemed to come back
....
I took more and more puffs–
little did I know
that cigarettes were slowly killing my lungs
the way you quickly broke my heart
I was dying...
I still only wanted you...
but you were nowhere to be found
and although I enjoyed you all these years
the long term effect has destroyed me
so thanks for being the cause of my stress
and the thing that helped me overcome it
but I quit smoking
and I quit loving you
and I know they say quitters never prosper
but I still feel like a ******* winner
exhale

**a
anonymous Apr 2014
"when I look into your eyes, I see a beauty that no one in this life will ever get to see
I grab your waist and all of a sudden I have the world in my hands
we cuddle on my couch but it's as if we're laying on clouds and our problems have fallen back down to earth
my problems are gone when I'm with you...
I will give you up for 40 days because you want me to
if this is what you think will prove that I truly love you
because I would do anything for you"
-March 2013-

I should've never taught you how to love without me

**a
this is what you said to me in last night's dream.
anonymous May 2014
I stand right before your eyes yet you still do not see me and I speak my mind and my soul yet you still cannot hear me then as I scream and shout you refuse to even listen. I give in to the option of giving up but as I am starting to put myself down you begin to pull me back up and I don't understand what the concept of this idea really is. I see that you want me to leave but when I leave you silently beg me to stay and now I cannot even think about how our love works but somehow it does. and what's keeping me alive is the fact that no matter how hard the waves crash the shore that is what the seashells live to see and no matter how much the people love the sun it will never compare to how the moon dies every night for her to keep on shining.

*a
our love is something that I am slowly trying to understand
anonymous Jul 2013
We could travel to Paris
Then fly all around the world
Visit main sites
Explore the greater things in life

Or maybe have a picnic
Pb&j; with some pink lemonade
Just the way you like it
Soft kisses and tight hugs

After everything we can lay down
Cuddle as we watch the moon chase the sun around the earth
A sudden shooting star
But what more could you wish for?

*A
anonymous Jun 2014
just friends don't look at me like you do, no, they do not hold my hand and kiss my face like you do baby if we're just friends why do you run your fingers through my hair and bring me on walks I'll never forget, good god, just friends? that's right because just friends plan their future together and can't wait to get older so they can be free to love each other endlessly. who the **** are we kidding when you take me out on friendly dates then invite me to your house to watch a movie just as your friend? just friends don't forget about a movie then cuddle like we do and I mean can you please explain to me why you couldn't let me go home when it was passed my curfew, my friend? can you tell me that? it was because we were never just ******* friends to begin with. you knew it. I knew it. and everyone around us knew it.
I guess you were just too ******* ashamed to call me something that was more than just your ******* friend.

*a
anonymous Jan 2014
lately i've been gathering my feelings
and have been trying to put them into my poetry
but they don't exactly come out how i want them to

i have words in my mind
but as they process through to my fingers
i, all of a sudden, turn numb
as if the words have frozen in my veins

i wouldn't say i'm depressed
more like a little unsatisfied with the things that have been happening lately
or the things that haven't been happening

and everyone says to stay happy
but it's easy to say that
when you're not the one overthinking every night;
it's easy to say that because you're happy with your own life

but of course i'm not upset that you're happy
for all i know, you probably deserve to be
i'm just sick and tired of hearing that i should lighten up
from people who aren't constantly dodging the darkness
from people who aren't battling between what they want, have and need
and most of all, from people who think they know
exactly what i'm feeling
when they really have no idea

*a
the explanation for all my (kind of) depressing poems. i haven't really been myself lately and poetry's helped me release some of my stress; even if i'm not really good at it. this is just a little rant i wanted to get out there. please don't take what you have for granted because nothing should have to disappear for us to realize what we once had or what was once there.
anonymous Jan 2014
some people mourn over the lovers they lost
who may live in different parts of town
who may live in different cities, different countries
or sometimes halfway across the world
therefore it's reasonable that they be utterly upset
or so they say

to them, it is only okay
because they are unable to see them on a daily basis
but what if i told you
that the one i love lives just one block away?
many people would think
"wow, you're definitely luckier than most people"

but tell me
do you know what it feels like
to live one block away from the person you love
who's heart is taken by someone else
and never being able to see them
or build up the nerve
to even say hi?

as i stare out the streetcar window
i wish that maybe, just maybe
you would walk up the stairs of this same streetcar
see my face & just stare
the way that you used to
and maybe that one glance
would make you fall in love with me
all over again
maybe, just maybe

*a
anonymous Sep 2013
I guess those memories
and words
mean nothing to you
because there you are enjoying yourself
with your new lover
and here I am dying
without my old one

I'd say I wish you the best
but I'd be lying

*A
anonymous Jun 2014
maybe one day my poetry will come to life;
not in the form of a person or object

but maybe one day I'll be able to put my poetry into words that will help my heart feel less like an anchor and more like a happy balloon

*a
anonymous Sep 2014
I thought I was over you
until I came across a song I used to play
when my nights got lonely and thoughts of you filled my mind

I thought I was over you
until I kissed someone else and pulled back hoping it was really you

I thought I was over you
until I picked up that phone I bought in the 7th grade;
the phone we both promised we'd get just so we'd match & be "real" best friends

but maybe I am over you

the only problem is the thoughts and memories of us that still linger when I play those stupid songs
remember your stupid lips
and pick up that stupid phone with no intention of calling you ever again

*a
anonymous Jan 2014
i want to kiss you
and make you feel loved
even if i've failed many times
doing so
i want to hold your hand
just like you held mine
and run my fingers
past your knuckles
i want to marry every bit of you
because i don't want you
to age without me
i want to tell you that i'm sorry
i let you down
rejecting all your love
because now i miss it all
not just the memories
but i miss every vein in your body
i miss the eyelashes that hover your eyes
and i miss the lines on your palm
i miss the colour of your eyes
when the sun shines upon it
i miss the jacket you covered me with
the love that you clothed me with
and the company you provided me with
i want to marry every bit of you
because i don't want you
to age without me
i want to tell you that i'm sorry
i let you down
rejecting all your love
because now i miss it all
not just the memories
anonymous Jun 2014
my body is numb and my heart is sinking at the thought of...well...in 48 hours I will see you for the last time in a long time

my blood is rushing as I contemplate on whether to confess or just pretend that...well...what I've been feeling for the past 9 months without you never existed

and when I put myself in your shoes I know you'd tell me the truth about everything, but then I remember...well... I was never as brave as you in the first place

my mouth would freeze just at the sight of your eyes, sweets, because when I look in your eyes...well...there lies all our memories

"good night sweets
sweet dreams
dream big"
is what you said to me every night and it's only after almost a whole year without you I'm starting to realize...well...you didn't say it just to say it

and maybe I should've appreciated it before it disappeared just like everything and everyone else

oh sweets, come back and tell me things will be okay real soon.

*a
personal & nervous
p.s. "sweets" was a nickname we had for each other
anonymous Mar 2014
why is it easier for me
to cry myself to sleep
than to wake up smiling?

why do I feel better
when I hurt myself
instead of confronting what's hurting me in the first place?

oh, that's right
because you built my walls up
and when the time came
I realized you only did it
just to break them back down

*a
anonymous Jul 2013
Long brown hair with a soft ombré effect
A million dollar smile
Eyes of an angel
Lips of a ******
Brain of a genius
Hands as smooth as silk

But

Her long brown hair was to hide
Her million dollar smile that hid
The eyes of an angel who constantly cried herself to sleep
Lips of a ****** who couldn't speak of what she really thought
Brain of a genius who was filled with suicidal thoughts
Hands as smooth as silk to cut the wrists of a girl so insecure

Her beauty was seen by everyone
But
Herself

*A
anonymous Jan 2019
I’ve fallen in love with the taste of you
And the way you love to taste me too

I’m in love with the mystery you portray
And the passion you exert
With the affirmations you speak
And the love that we make

Being with you is like being inside while the rain is pouring down
The way you bring me feelings of comfort, relaxation, and an overload of emotions
And though most wish the rain would just stop
I admire the process
Because I know something beautiful is ready to unfold

My dear, we have never been perfect
And although I hate rollercoasters
I’m willing to go through ups and downs with you
Because I know this ride is worth it

And in case the universe decides we weren’t meant to be
A piece of you will live in me
Because you have brought me light and love
At a time where I spent most of my days in oceans that I created with my own pain and tears

And for that I am forever thankful.
anonymous May 2018
It's not fair that I am constantly giving out love to people who don't know how to treat me and who don't appreciate the way that I surrender my pride. It's not fair that while I cry in silence you get to live your life in peace because you do not care nearly half as much as I do when it comes to losing each other like is that fair?
It's not fair.
Do you realize that I put my heart on my sleeve for you?
You must not realize because you always want to cut your sleeves off on hot summer days even when you know how expensive that shirt was to begin with. You don't give a **** about the sleeves that I rest my heart on and you neglect my salty tears cause you are always in search of something sweeter
while still stringing me along.

Cut the ******* string since you're so strong and keep that perfect posture of yours because when you walk away from me I sure as hell better not see you turning back. I sure as hell better not hear that sorry-*** "I miss you" after months of me training myself to just keep swimming. There's plenty of fish in the sea sweetheart but never forget that the same fish you throw back willingly are the same ones that others pray their whole lives to catch.

a
anonymous Jun 2014
is it bad that I stopped at the park
on my way home
to watch people release sky lanterns?

because it made me think of you...

it made me think

*that if you were walking me home,
we'd look up at the sky
and follow the direction that
these things were coming from
and find ourselves joining them too
but instead I found myself

alone
following that direction
hoping that if I set this lantern free
my thoughts of you would disappear
into the sky
along with it

thanks a lot, silly little sky lantern

***
anonymous May 2018
Thank god I am happy
But I will never forget the words of the heartbroken version of me
The strength of those feelings I carried..
You would think I was a body builder, but for emotional tendencies

And to the person that inspired this wanna-be poetic side of me
Thank you.

Thank you for breaking my heart
And don't worry, I forgive you

I appreciate you for making me fall in love with sunsets
For it's taught me that endings can be beautiful, not just tragic
I appreciate you introducing me to the moon
For we've learned to become best friends
And we indulge in great conversations at night, when the voices are asleep

Most of all, I appreciate you for loving me
Because I now know never to settle
Because I now know how much I should be loving my own self
Something I have struggled with for many years..

Thank you for being my guardian angel
My first love
And my distant soulmate

a
anonymous May 2014
some days* I feel the sun shines so bright that my eyes could catch on fire
some days I feel like it's been a constant darkness underneath gray clouds and black skies

sometimes I feel like the ocean waves for me because no one else would say hi
other times I can barely touch the shore

a couple times I feel like I am at the top of the world and nothing can ever stop me
and the rest of my days are filled with hours and hours of feeling like I am no longer alive

**a
anonymous Oct 2014
can I please move countries
so I never have to see your face again?
so the memories we made never replay everytime I see a picture of you
so I don't feel your lips against my neck
and so I don't feel your arms wrapped around me?
because I don't want to feel you
and I don't want to love you
because I am only hurting myself doing so
so please get me out of here

*a
anonymous May 2018
this is to all the lost kids
who **** time at a pizza place
or a library
just to stay away from home

this is to all the lost kids
who plug in their earphones
to drown the noise of everyone else
to prevent them from ever hurting again

this is to all the lost kids
who pray every night
hoping that tomorrow will be a better day
knowing that it won't be

this is to all the lost kids
who result to drugs
because they think
it'll numb the pain

this is to all the kids
who wish they were someone else
who wish they had another life
because they hate who they are

this is to all the kids
because I was one of them
because I did all of these things
and I know how it feels
this is to all the kids

*a
feb2014
anonymous Feb 2014
in a world where tomorrow does not exist
changes have to be made & there are risks we must take
speak the lost secrets that linger in your mind
set them free;
getting it out
is more important
than getting it right
who knows where you're going
or how you're going to get there
but tomorrow does not exist
so why not find out today?

*a
you can't always rely on tomorrow, so why not do it today? do it while you still have the chance.
anonymous May 2018
I am in love with a person i no longer know
It has been three years since we last had a conversation
And not even a real one at that
And we encounter each other sometimes in the mornings
Standing less than a metre away from each other
Still keeping up the 'stranger' charade

I'm still in love with a person whom I haven't spoken to in the amount of years it took me to realize i was depressed
It's crazy to think that a person so distant could have this sort of impact on you
And I still love you
And I still love you...
Some nights.... most nights....
Stars seem brighter than they usually are and I find the moon and I have similar conversations

I'm unsure as to when i will get over you because
If i can be even more in love with you than i ever was
After 3 years of your absence
After hundreds of days, thousands of hours of not getting to spend my favourite days with you or share my new stories with you
Something has to be wrong....

I wish I could just take a peak into the future sometimes just to know if I wasted all my time waiting for something that was never bound to happen
jun2016
anonymous Jun 2014
I practise what I'm going to say to you months and weeks and days before and I imagine that maybe if I practise hard and long enough it will come out perfectly and you will take me back in an instant. I assume there is a specific way to say I love you and I miss you and I have tried many many times to master it but I haven't quite got it down. I look at my reflection in the mirror and hold back the tears as they begin pouring in because I do not want you to think you have hurt me.
but the day finally comes. my words and my voice fade away at the sight of your eyes and your smile and everything that I once called mine. so that's what happens. all my practise has gone to waste because the sight of you leaves me breathless and once again I have ****** up real bad. but that's okay. because now I never have to practise again.

it was nice seeing you for the last time... in a long time.

***
anonymous Jan 2014
fragile
so please don't break me

heartless
so please don't love me

misunderstood
so please don't try to understand me

almost blind
so please don't misguide me

patient
so please don't rush me

weak
so please don't step all over me

confused
so please don't mess with my mind

missing you
so please come closer

craving you
so please hold tighter

needing you
so please don't leave

pulling you
so please stop pushing away

*a
anonymous Jul 2014
you are a living human
that carries all my secrets
and feelings from a time not too long ago
yet when our eyes meet on the streets
it's as if our lips are glued shut
and I realize that we are no longer the people we used to be
and that our friendship is history
but you are a living human
a walking human who knows everything about me
and it's crazy how this all worked out;
how when people see us
they could confuse us for strangers
because when the time comes
our eyes meet
yet our words don't because
we cannot even say hi

and that is so sad.

*a
anonymous May 2018
if I sent you a book of all the poems I wrote about you
if I added all the love letters I wrote to you
would the memories come back to you?
or would you spend your days trying to remember my name?
oct2014
anonymous Apr 2014
everyone knows what you're like at 3 in the afternoon
but I wanna know the real you
I wanna be stuck in a room with you
at 3AM
with blunts and some alcohol
I want to hear what comes out of your mouth
when you are unaware of it and cannot control yourself
because deep down I know you feel the same
and deep down I know the feelings never faded away
I want to know the real you

*a

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