What's the worst feeling of being in a room filled with people?

Oh, you know? Can you tell me what it is and what  it feels like?


Why should i tell You.
You wouldn't be able to understand even if i told You.
You have so many close friends and a family that doesn't fight.
You have siblings that have the same mom and dad as you.
You have clothes from expensive stores.
You bring a smile to everyone's face.
You make people proud.

You wouldn't understand the loneliness that i feel everyday. Feeling like you annoy everyone you talk to.
You don't have to shut your eyes real tight and cover your ears while you shake back and forth trying to ignore the screams from your mother and STEP FATHER's room.
You don't have to protect, raise, and worry about your HALF siblings.
You don't have to deal with dealing with an alcoholic mother.
You don't have to deal with your mother telling you about how your father is worthless just like you.

Of course You wouldn't know the answer to that question. But here is my answer for you

don't worry about it

until you experience that loneliness i feel don't bother asking stupid questions like that

from the deep feeling of emptiness to the scars on my body
     i shall become my worst nightmare
        a shell of who
                i am

a being of no remorse no empathy no feeling
just
                                    nothing
just here and there
just my Worst Nightmare

i think and think and think
but that thinking gets me nowhere
my mind goes in circles
thinking of one single word
alone
alone in a world that has to much going on
will anyone get through the crowd to find me
save me
save me from my mind
save me from me

What does a New Year bring?

Does it bring positive things, negative things?

The New Year brings another year of age, but with that age it proves that we are living a life.

The new year brings new opportunities and, with those opportunities bring another step closer to who we are.

The new year brings a fresh start. A start we can change flaws that we wish we could get rid of, a start where we can do things differently.

The new year will bring many positive and negative things but guess what.

That's life.

My life contains of two worlds
A world of light
And
A world of darkness

I go down each path
Fighting the light and darkness
Going through many hardships and emotions

Emotions that sometimes I can't contain

Each emotion brings me light or darkness

My two worlds make me who I am

And I am like no one else

I am

Me