Grasp hold the unborn blossoms
clench tightly
knowing a flower waits to burst forth
slowly to the top caressing sweet tendrils
each one holding a life its own
pass them by climbing higher
knowing each their own way will unfurl
reach to the top, touch at last
the mother of these creations
her children are safe
look down below
they smile

It is your eyes
I love black coffee
no sugar, no cream
much like your eyes
deep and dark, mysterious
except I am pretty sure once you jump in
unlike my black, bitter coffee
your demeanor is sweet
and skin soft
so you could say
your eyes are my new coffee

Is a color not a color until given a name
a bird not a bird until we call it such
what is an idea without a meaning
a definition
why teach a difference
one color ,two billion colors
how much of the spectrum do we not even see
black, white, yellow, purple, green
just people with red blood when the oxygen touches
hopes, dreams and love
hate is not born
it is taught
children are born colorblind
why can we not stop naming the colors
and see all are one people

For all the silent voices
screaming as loud as you may
lying in broken sobs
shattered dreams
it is not right, it is not right
black is white, grass is blue, sky is green
all is so confusing
let me sing the blues for you
do not look for joyous sounds
look to me to strum broken guitar strings
stroke out of tune piano keys
regardless, for you I would sing
sliding my fingers down my grooved fret board
tapping in silent strokes
of forgotten dreams and abandoned tear stains
left to dry in bitter winds
let me sing the blues for you

And they were both only alive
when the other existed

Hiding behind a facade
one that screams lonely
show me passion, make me feel awed
for I lost it, the feeling
my mask is cracking
but still I shall recoil
I will keep on acting
*deep down I am crying

You poisoned it
my love
a child's twisted black heart
quenched with acidic raindrops
feeding upon a parasitic wasteland
reaching for the one who bleeds like me
unable to hold, I cannot wield it
when the anvil drops
pain and repercussions become absolute

I do not wish to hear words of love
I do not wish to be bought
I do not wish to be wooed
I wish to feel it
Pure and undeniable
In an embrace
In a kiss
In a voice
I do not wish to hear I love you
Ever again

I just despise you
you make me wish to spit nails
teeth drenched in venom
let me tear you apart
cold, unfeeling, callous
you make my anxiety reach a peak
so easy for you to dance on graves
dance, smiler dance!!!
know I lie in wait
for the day
that my vindictiveness can cut you to pieces
so easy to take the bloodied knife
and repeatedly jab at the lamb
sick and twisted must you be
feeling no remorse, no pain
dance on some more graves
let me put them in a pretty line
so that you may dance an eloquent dance
twisted
no way can such a taunt be held
if ever a thing was truly felt
and oh how angry does it make me
to feel this way, lying in pain
while you dance
on pretty little graves
such vapid spite
look for as many young lasses
as you might defile
spit in their faces
rip their hair out
gouge their eyes out
until they are no longer recognized
dance, dance away with every lady you touch
filling yourself to the brim
with empty emotions
until one day
you die alone and realize
you danced life away
while filling yourself with empty
******

Dance lightly on my grave
callously refute every loving word
as I rot six feet under your feet
for what does it matter when I am dead
whispers of passion
promises of eternity
create excuses to justify
the waves encompassing me
whilst you go on about your day
as if I had never existed
please, echo that which defiles me

*Dance lightly on my grave

Eradicate the sacred light
sacrifice will to fight
crucify, vilify

A rock in a sandpaper throat
difficult to choke, impossible to swallow
obsession had outlived love
dreams too large for tiny arms
and ashes were left where she treads
tears fill one eye as the other stays dry
love prevailed in cold bloodshed
drifting away another vague memory once so powerful
'twas a dream from which to be awoke
the moon turned red and her twisted silhouette devoured the sky
the ocean transformed to venom as her warm breath met the sea
a fiberglass vial, the poison, the pain, the nothing of a dead ghost
leap off the precipice, one might likely fly given the right mind
only the doubtful would cry
only the uncertain would kneel down in remorse and give in to the unknown
her last heartbeat didn't make a sound
exemplifying her lifeless soul
burying her dead thoughts

lost in the hue of insanity
will The Joker find his Queen
does The Joker then find his Queen
will he grow wings to fly
or ride the phoenix to the bowels of Hell
well, will The Joker find his Queen
or will she continue chasing dreams
The Queen went down the rabbit hole
and The Joker was left behind
The Queen found loneliness was her love
and The Joker remained the fool
forevermore
forevermore
will The Joker ever find his queen

Long ago her well ran dry
too many have tasted the still waters
slowly becoming stagnant, coming to a standstill
she traces her fingertips along the outlines of her dry Earth
wondering which was the drink that brought the drought
she cast her eyes wistfully to the vast ocean
she feels so thirsty but one cannot thrive on saltwater
thus she stands high above, crying to the violent seas
the only water to swallow tears
dehydrated

Still enough
Although I know you're not begging
Still as the thoughts running through your mind
Still enough
Although I know you're not begging
Give me a reason to make you mine

I will devour you
Take all the pain away
I cannot stay my hand
From reaching out so that I can
Empower you
For all eternity
It seems to ease my mind
To know that you've brought
Meaning to my life

Had enough
Although I see you're not running
Still are the thoughts running through your mind
Dead to love
The path that you are now taking
Show me the reason to make you mine

I will devour you
Take all the pain away
I cannot stay my hand
From reaching out so that I can
Empower you
For all eternity
It seems to ease my mind
To know that you've brought
Meaning to my life

Run, to where the smallest ray of light will never find you
Run, to where you will not need to shield your eyes
Run, away from all the soulless, heartless fiends who hound you
Run, away and let your memories go blind, when I

Devour you
Take all the pain away
I cannot stay my hand
From reaching out so that I can
Empower you
For all eternity
It seems to ease my mind
To know that you've brought
Meaning to my life

walking an old ancient path
mind cloudy, deadened
despite the birds singing
thoughts are laden bricks
heart fills with fear 'tis true
end in sight nevermore
weight of emptiness crushing
naught can save me from me
devouring own mind
afraid, at this pace... knowing
sooner or later I shall collapse
never to be found
on an old ancient path

What is the point
in tainting my dishwater red
with your blood

*How then can the plates be cleaned

I feel the distance growing
as if it were not too far already
I wonder
if you feel this dance is still worth dancing
over the miles to be covered
my goal is not to push you away
but to understand
for I am feeling lost
and a bit forlorn
as you are more silent in your affections
feeling a million miles away
as I were something to be avoided
quite possibly I am being a fool
but I am so insecure
lacking a belief in myself
thus projecting upon others
but you see, I feel a distance growing
and it terrifies me

My mind is overflowing
with the words so easily whisked into my thoughts
I suspect treachery
Oh yes, yes I do
yellow eyes peer from within the brush
forked tongue flickers for one moment
a moment so brief it is quickly forgotten
venture forth into a forest unknown
trusting that your feet may carry you home
to a path for so long sought
do not forget though
treachery hides within the shadows
waiting for you to become lost

That which she seeks is a fairy tale
silly girl, she lives in dreams
entangling, embracing, thus choking

how is pain so harsh
for that never even touched

reality struck for he
and thus he ran as such

*this is why she is a dreamer
trapped within her own insanity

I wish to drink you
cool water never touched
pure
in secluded mountain air
would I be the one so lucky
to find still waters untainted
by the foul air of the city
a dance in majestic woods
a skip away from my own heaven
drink deeply when upon such sustenance
I think it might be possible
that I would drown
when tasting such lovely waters
I think it may be true
I would never find the will to stop
let my head go under the surface
bubbles the only sign I had been here
and I fall to the depths
finding me consumed

Were darkness not my fondest friend
my biggest fan
I might be afraid to see him creeping in again
and again
in waves, a shoreline that never recedes
darkness has his own schedule
one that does not follow the tides
look over my shoulder
the waters seem distant, so far
one more glance, RUN, the tsunami is upon me
darkness is faster
*I will drown

To Jesus you cried
Every time you had fallen off the wagon
Staring down an endless tunnel
You screamed how unfair the world had been
Yet who put you here except you, my tormentor
Needles, pipes, spoons these were your dreams
You forgot about what is on the other side of the veil
When you lost yourself floating on the ceiling
Daydreams and fickle nightmares, you got caught
Into a net that doesn't catch, it swallows
And ***** you into the bowels of Hell
Thanks for that, here I stand alone and I need you
I know how hard it is, God knows being human
The addictions are our best friend, worst ******* enemy
You forgot to look in my eyes deep and brown
And capture the love and need of a tiny child
So that child never grew up, she weeps today
Like a little six year old screaming, mommy
The hand was left outstretched and rotting
Now a pile of bones and ash, an echo
I love you as a little child must this is a rule
But you disappointed me beyond belief
Last time I saw you off in an ambulance
Sick with the demons that had ripped through your veins
I didn't believe it when I was told, hell for years I did not
Last time I spoke to you was years and years later
Sounding like you were a child with down syndrome
Who the ***** voice is this, sure as hell not what I recall
Spitting fiery lies about the man my father was
Maybe they weren't but who can believe a **** thing you say
You probably lied to and discarded him as well
You broke all our hearts, not just mine
My sister, leaving her my burden when she was but a child
How dare you break her heart the way you did, ******
Fraternal you had and you spit your acid on her as well
Making love to ***** needles dipped in sewage
Once you were a good person hands brown with work
Kindness a true value, giving the shirt off your back
Teaching about what is good in nature and spreading smiles
Once that was you but you fell in love with the devil
This is a jumbled mess but you, you love
You know exactly what the hell I am talking about
I love you but *******

are dreams merely an oasis
materialized to sustain us on a day to day basis
some can so easily be consumed
day to day life incapable of being resumed
always turning back to the way of a madman
seeking to find in their own mind utter bedlam
say the same things over and over again
place your heart in a headlock, lay the blame
when will it change, will it ever
or shall we lie in illusions of a pointless endeavor

naught more powerful
nothing so liberating
as absence of doubt

What is worse might I ask
than screaming into nothingness
receiving only an echo in reply
of your own voice and thoughts
forever alone
the emptiness is closing in
soon to be consumed
by the eternal chasm
that is your loneliness

A beauty so pure, words would not suffice
I have so long been broken glass
in this light the cracks shine bright
I could never do justice to such perfection
so long has such a touch been needed
erode me back, blend the fractures
desire consuming like a fire
strong enough to melt the fissures lining my surface
fix me please, I need you

Peering, watching, penetrating
scrape my soul from the bottom of your shoe please
cause it is leaking out with no outlet
I watch, paranoid, this shadow will not relinquish
scream, dream, wallow, suffer
when this
the eyes
see into my mind
*all I want is to hide

Amidst a sea of friends sat she
upon a toadstool smiling with glee
all beings in the forest sang of life
no entity in the wood knowing strife

The little fairy named Jheira
sang melodically to the swaying flora
dancing atop the golden mushroom
ne'er a negative thought they assume

I wish to join them in the glen
share the happiness from within
sing with the fairies to the wood
basking in all in life that is good

I fell in love with the stars
no matter that stars reside light years away
no need for touch, smell or speech
stars are so bright you see, hearts so pure
so I jumped into the sky
hoping my feet never again break ground
that I would float through galaxies
surrounded by love but the stars seem more bright tonight
than anything I have ever seen
and I am drawn in unable to stop
unafraid of the unknown
when truth be told I do know
nothing could make me forget
the love I have for the stars

I may have never kissed the sky
but you see I do not need to
to feel love

Place your face in my hands
let me dive into your soul
the fire burns bright
consuming ecstasy
finding inner peace
would the world end now
it ends fulfilled
letting go of reality
to fall into a dream

My father must have had
severely annoying curls
dark brown eyes
tan skin to boot
he must have had
a heart full of love
a deep soothing voice
hands rough from work

I do not actually know
but I think he must have
for I am nothing like my mother
and I hope he was a good man

Light is shining forth
throughout these dark paths
so why is it still
nothing can be seen
why so full of despair
ah, I found you
It is the fear
fear breeds absolute fiction
do not let it smile
for fear tells lies
with an inviting grin
draws you in
crushing you between jagged, yellow teeth
it will capture your soul
and drag you to hell
much like a cancer
it spreads like wildfire
leaving you decimated
with no trace of the one you once were
If you are so lucky
as to identify your fear
I beg of you
do not allow it to swallow you whole

Rose petals inevitably fall
A branch eventually snaps
Monuments one day collapse
Even the continents sprawl

So do not fret each day
Live every moment, merely dance
Leaving nothing to chance
Laugh the sorrow away, I say!

Even the darkest of times
Can be a distant thought
Just brush them off, they are naught!
Even alone life can be sublime

*Just love yourself

The Earth looks angry today
spiteful, black, billowing clouds
seeking to consume the atmosphere
lightning clash, ferocious and bright
wind ripping, sheer, biting to the bone
torrential rainfall soaking me to the soul
and I dance

Serene erosion how could it be
a natural force turned so violently
awaiting the day that brings all to their knees
will your master then bade you well
awaiting an entity that will never come
merely impending darkness amd that is all and it will ever be
skin as white as my blackened soul
it's a metaphor didn't you know
ink painted from head to toe
I imagine the taste is that of the mountain air kissing ocean waves
I'm in love with a ghost
I found the moon hates the sun
the moon hates the sun, the rabbit is still white and the hatter still mad
the oxygen still tastes of mountain air and ocean waves
I shall just be on my way, good day

Were there a hidden meaning
one not so much obscured but existing
cackling, he finds a way to point it out
just as cleverly
might I add, a bit quirky  
but a kinder person you could not find
somewhat a hermit, this is alright
a better friend is a trial to come by
most of us know him to be sure
just call him Embers

I always say fire
fire needs air to thrive
without it fire burns out and dies
I have many times found my oxygen thin
dizzied, drowning, my minds death began to set in
the tiniest little ember could be found
at the bottom of my soul, not yet touched by ice
fire needs oxygen to survive
that being said, I find you are my air
without my breath the flames stand still
inevitably extinguished
so please feed my flame
keep me breathing
I am too weak to ignite myself