Frustration, an emotion that
caused a tiny whimper
which broke my heart

Rose petals inevitably fall
A branch eventually snaps
Monuments one day collapse
Even the continents sprawl

So do not fret each day
Live every moment, merely dance
Leaving nothing to chance
Laugh the sorrow away, I say!

Even the darkest of times
Can be a distant thought
Just brush them off, they are naught!
Even alone life can be sublime

*Just love yourself

If I so ever felt inclined to fall again
he would have to love to dance with trees
listen to the whispers of the wind, for they tell stories
he would need to be able to embrace insanity
lets face it, the whole world is quite mad
he would have to love everyone as I do
seek to brighten their lives, if even in a mere smile
be inclined to adore fairy tales and magic
they have to exist or we would have never dreamt them
there is so much I love that I wish to share
he would have to want to share it as well
with me, with the Earth
whilst creating our own world

Were it not for the little lights dancing
One might beg the waves to overcome
Wash over the hills pushing, advancing
Break the axle, rusty fulcrum

Extinguish the flames, end the anguish
Were it not for these dancing lights
Under the waves then to vanquish
That would be the answer, the price

But these little dancing lights
Keeping the waves at bay
For now

You know, I love you completely
for loving me back

I am lonely yes
sometimes I love it
some moments I crave
to recede into my darkness
fill this paper with thoughts
lose myself in music
float off into a fantasy land
one where I am not me
but I must be alone to do this
sometimes I need to be alone
sometimes I love the life of a loner

A line to make a turn
A line to buy milk
A line to buy a ticket
A line to go to school
Another line in a poem
Lines, lines, lines

As we all stand in line to die
____________________­

reach out
try as you might
fingertips never touch
desires whisked away
puffs of smoke
intermittent, forming clouds
that cry tears of sorrow
running down my spine
for I am kneeling
sobbing for you

Probably guilty of the same crime time and again
did ya know, I am right though
in all the travesties
keep looking in disgust
truly, it is a path worth walking
would you not go down
even when appearing thorny and broken as such
really, quite lovely it can be
when holding confidence with affinity
this way, I beckon
come, join me
I promise light does dawn at the end
it is just that
a long path
an enlightening road
no fear, come

I saw myself
in a fire
up close, raw, unedited
I did not personally enjoy seeing it
deadened eyes
they seemed so **** empty
hollow cheeks
pale in comparison to when I was a child
a frown so deep
it could probably cut ice
brows creased with a fury
at what I know not
the entirety of all I used to be
emptied
who is that I am looking at
echoing in the flickering flames

Tossed into the darkest reaches
Left with no hope or light
Thus it is here I must drown
In utter blackness, angry chasm

Reaching 'round nothing is here
It is emptiness absolute
When beaten down and left to die
Long out of sight and mind

Questioning what is it that exists
Down so deep, naught must be real
Save me, help me believe
There is more outside my prison

Pining for wintry eyes
Formed a habit to be despised
Like the ghost of a cigarette
In an ex smokers hand

Fumbling for icy fingertips
Afraid, blind in the dark
Like a small child
Plunged into a nightmare

Searching for scorching lips
Like a gas soaked kerosene rope
Ready to be set aflame
Burning away into ashes then nothingness

Hidden are the sun and moon
Like an old memory lost in the woodwork
Looking young, feeling aged
Collapsing in the Sahara desert
These thoughts plague a mind
When one is lost in time

Hiding behind a facade
one that screams lonely
show me passion, make me feel awed
for I lost it, the feeling
my mask is cracking
but still I shall recoil
I will keep on acting
*deep down I am crying

longing for his hand
to lead him down a path of peace
showing not the world so cruel and dark
but the creation that lives within his heart

I feel the distance growing
as if it were not too far already
I wonder
if you feel this dance is still worth dancing
over the miles to be covered
my goal is not to push you away
but to understand
for I am feeling lost
and a bit forlorn
as you are more silent in your affections
feeling a million miles away
as I were something to be avoided
quite possibly I am being a fool
but I am so insecure
lacking a belief in myself
thus projecting upon others
but you see, I feel a distance growing
and it terrifies me

If my written words could scream
you may go deaf

naught more powerful
nothing so liberating
as absence of doubt

Lacked the strength
to place my mask today
they noticed

Misfortune strikes often times, the kindest hearts
Ones that do not deserve such horrendous trials
I wish nothing but love for these pure souls
For nothing has been extended from them but love in return
Can not the world reach out and pick up the pieces
They are still whole, just a little help is needed, a little kindness
A friend I find in these beautiful people
And I wish nothing more than a warm embrace to give
If I could but share my family, laughter and love
I pray for my friends and for the many others
Seemingly forgotten but they are not, I love you all

He speaks of security, but see I am a dreamer, there must be more
that which equates a roof, materials, does not equal fulfillment
he says life is not a fairy tale, I shake my head, what if it is
what if those who think as he does never find their solace
filling their chasm with pretty gems, green paper, and angry thoughts
I will hope for life beyond that, this is all a dreamer truly has
I never thought of death until now for I know I have been wasting away
so let me dream, do not offer pretty things, they hold no value
so many years you had a chance to show this dreamer a light
never seeking to give a hand until it was far, far too late
for this I am sorry, not for me but for you, losing your dreams
I had thought mine may be shattered, but I love fairy tales
so I will keep chasing them, while you are left behind

Please tell me it is a dream
How does time heal
When reaching out
Only to find darkness
Ever consuming

Oh, hello friend, am I looking in the mirror
I see a shadow, perhaps my reflection
Finding yourself lost in a dream, surreal
Pain reaches out and violently rips apart your being
Convinced you would only cause harm to reach out
You need to be sad, but you need to feel love
Give me your hand my kindred soul
Let us climb out of the bowels of Hell together
Keep dreaming, I will watch while you sleep
Let us teach one another how to see beyond our reflection
Build a new world

My father must have had
severely annoying curls
dark brown eyes
tan skin to boot
he must have had
a heart full of love
a deep soothing voice
hands rough from work

I do not actually know
but I think he must have
for I am nothing like my mother
and I hope he was a good man

Hope so bright, a human need
what do you become, when it recedes
an empty shell, a deadened soul
something never to feel entirely whole

I saw a light, oh so bright
for it I found the will to fight
alas, hope is something that often fades
so easily changed, so easily swayed

What is a person without  hope
when that is gone, what helps to cope
I cannot say to you, my friend
I have yet to cross that bend

Another lost, tormented soul in pain
slapped by reality and its ceaseless bane
supposedly time heals all these wounds
I have never known this hurt, so I am not attuned

For now, only upon hope lost can I dwell
swallowing me whole unable to expel
if it makes you happy, it may not last
once again.. pick up the pieces of broken glass

So quick to seek that which would fill you now
You let go of a dream that would have followed you anywhere
Through space and time
Into the bowels of Hell
Distorted now does lie the dream
Shrouded in nightmares

I love my friends and fellow poets
And I cannot make this poetic or beautiful
But I appreciate you all so very much

The value I hold for myself
I place in what others see
The pain I have caused
I soon forget any of the happiness
And am left with the idea
That I am worth nothing
But pain and blackness
For I forgot about good deeds
And remember shattered smiles
Faltering in the whispers of the night
Pain sticks with us a lot longer
Than anything else, does it not
They say better to have loved and lost
Than to have never loved at all
Think about that a moment
The memory of love grows faint
Masked in the outline of all the pain
The tears I have caused drag me down
Into their ocean I wallow and drown
As I deserve

On my feet
no destination in mind
what an awful feeling
I have walked so long
with no thoughts
I am utterly lost
no one around
completely alone
as I have always been
my body is so weak
I can hardly stand
and yet still I walk
no end in sight
the pain of a lone road
what could be more tragic
the light that did guide
fluorescent
something of dreams
that which I do not deserve
so keep walking
do not stop, do not dream
dreams are for fools
or at least I think
do not cry
tears are for heroes
my feet are blistered
bleeding
too far I have gone
still naught in sight
hope given and taken
the reality is
this world cannot be lovely
it is just too dark
I recede into me
I am done walking
I lie down at last
no more walking
I loved too hard
I died

Stuck in time I remember your eyes are like glass in a barrel
I realize now time seems fast but it's been a while
I avoid the question while you avoid the answer
It pains me deep down to see we're going nowhere

I keep on tryin' while my heart is lyin'
I want to run to you but I think now that I'm lost
It's simpler to hide away and let you forget me
I can't turn away I'm stuck here without me, without you

I wanna see you, then I don't I'm stuck in the fear of it all
You're a mystery through the haze when I reach you then I will fall
Afraid to come near you, then you can hurt me
Afraid you will see me and then I will burn you

I keep on tryin' while my heart is lyin'
I want to run to you but I think now that I'm lost
It's simpler to hide away and let you forget me
I can't turn away I'm stuck here without me, without you

I'll keep on tryin', while my head is lyin'
Perhaps I'll run to you when I find my way out of the fog
I don't wanna hide, I'll never forget
That I turned away and I'm stuck here without you, without me

Each night will she relentlessly cry
Until
her
inevitable
*suicide

screams heard are terrifying
the screams resounding
*are my own

Here I sit, alone in the dark
writing again, unable to stop
while you are out dancing in lust
still not healed from your prior affliction
and this is why I am glad
I am the one who sits alone
in the dark
spilling my soul

Oh the inspiration
brought
by a simple sound
a song