Spread thin
I feel as if I’m being pulled in every direction
I've never been more stressed in my life
Exams coming up, on which my livelihood depends on
But that’s not the end
It’s actually just the beginning
I have several projects due within two days
Ones I haven’t even started
Papers to write
That are half worked through
Lessons to plan
That will probably go horribly wrong
Bills to pay
And no job
I don’t even have time to study for those exams
The ones on which my future livelihood depends on
Exams I can’t even afford in the first place
And will most probably have to retake
….A third time
So yes, I’m feeling anxious
Spread thin
Very stressed, and badly needing it to all
Stop

I feel the need to shout
I feel the need to cry
I feel all day all night
And yet I don’t feel at all

I feel the need to laugh
I feel the need to dance
I feel all day all night
And yet I don’t feel at all

With so much emotion
For one single day
I feel as if I’ll break

But most of all I feel afraid
Because how am I to carry on?
This cruel cruel life
If I don’t feel at all

We keep saying it’s our last year, our last hoorah
But in truth it’s only the beginning of the rest of our lives
I know we are about to walk our separate paths
But we know that our paths are not far from each another
For if I look beside me there you will be
Like you always have been and forever will be

Years will pass and our paths will collide
We’ll retell our stories and unfold some new ones
And just when we seem comfortable our paths will divide
But don’t worry my friend for you will always be by my side
For our paths will run alongside one another and we’ll always be there
Because you have left an imprint in the deepest folds of my mind

So here’s to our year
To the many ups and downs
To remaining true friends
Even in our darkest hours
Our friendship will last
Many of years to come
So cheers to that and that’s my hoorah

Looking back we built a bond
One I thought would never break

Yet I sit and wait
But you don’t come
And I start to think

Did I do something wrong
Or am I not good enough?

Do you not like my company?
Or have you found better

I don’t blame you
Because if I were you
I would leave too

I’m too overbearing  
Too dramatic
Too emotional
Too much of everything bad

Why would you ever want a friend like that?
like me?

But I only ask one thing before you leave for good
Will you help me find those good things in me that you always seem to bring out?

****** day
why you ask
just is I say
but you wont leave it that
mood swings I say
but still you wont drop it
you know better
you are my best friend
****** day
you pull me through it
that is why
I call you my best friend
You make me laugh
Even though I don’t want to
That’s why I call you my best friend
****** day you say
Why I ask
Just is you say
I smile and try to pull you through
Just like you did for me

So many years
Gone by
Flown by
I look back and it’s all a blur
No control at all
With what’s going on
High school
Almost done
College
Up the road
Life
Just around the corner
Its scares me
To the bone
I wanna hang on
To what I don’t know
So many years
Gone by
Flown by
So many new things to experience
So many things I’ll never experience again
I wanna hang on
But to what
Im still trying to figure it out