I look into the mirror
at the lines upon my face
and wonder how some people
seem to age with naught but grace

There is grey around my temples
and crowsfeet at my eyes
and my tummy is no longer flat
and I've cottage cheese for thighs

And I think about my youth
and the shape I used to be
and it seems that girl with the ponytail
could never look like me

But when I look deep into my eyes
I see her looking back at me
and she looks so very happy now
compared to what she used to be

The anger and mistrust has gone
filled with a deeper pride
and it seems the destination
after all was worth the ride.

I used to be a model
in magazines and on TV
but the person you all worshiped
wasn't me, wasn't me

The only thing that mattered
was how I looked and what I weigh
so I'd binge then make myself sick
every day, every day

But I found out the hard way
that when you end this ride
you're suddenly a nobody
and you feel like suicide

And all your friends desert you
when the spotlight goes away
The fame and fortune disappears
when you have nothing to say

It took the words of a stranger
in the absence of a friend
To make me want to carry on
not draw my life to an end

She found me crying in the park
this old woman of eighty two
she was the one that told me
whats in the picture isn't you

A picture's just a memory
caught on film or on a page
a fleeting moment of your past
in which you'll never age

So dry your eyes and carry on
don't fall victim to your past
your beauty is inside you
and that will always last.

Does one thing really mean another
or is that all in my head
Why do I feel the words I heard
are not what he really said

Am I right to be suspicious
should I stay or walk away
He claims all that it is in the past
but what else would he say

I've tried hard to just get over it
forgive him and move on
but I can't bring myself to trust him
tell me is that right or wrong?

Perhaps my gut is telling me
things I don't want to hear
but my heart is fighting back
and it makes my path unclear

so tell me what would you do
if the one you loved did stray
would you forgive him and start over
or turn and walk away?

Its been one of those weeks
so I don't know what to write
but thankfully its **** day
the weekend is in sight

Monday was well just Monday
which by now I should expect
but I must admit I wasn't ready
for just what happened next

When I woke up Tuesday morning
I had overslept of course
and the milk was more like yoghurt
which just made a bad day worse

By the time I finally got to work
I'd a ladder in my hose
and allergies were in full swing
you'd swear I'd Rudolph's nose

Of course the coffee *** was empty
and the printer it had jammed
and by now it's almost lunchtime
so there's no one to lend a hand

So I worked through lunch to catch up
and somehow make amends
but then my PC up and died
which drives me round the bends

When everyone came back from lunch
I could hear all of their sniggers
Until someone finally told me
I'd my skirt tucked in my knickers

how did we get to where we are
from where we used to be
how did we get from faith
to doubt in all we see

how did the face that lit my day
cause me pain and sleepless nights
how could the one who did no wrong
fail to do so many rights

how could the one I loved so much
be the one I now despise
how could the one who held my trust
repay me naught but lies

how can you treat people this way
and be proud of what you do
and look to me for sympathy
when someone does it to you

you play out your pity party
and expect me to feel sad
well honey here's my news for you
thats just too ******' bad

Oh Farmville, Farmville you fill my day
that otherwise I'd throw away

I'd work I'd wash I'd clean I'd cook
And otherwise be off Facebook

But thanks to all my Farmville friends
I've chicks to feed and fields to tend

Crops to sell and barns to raise
this is now, how i spend my days

Oh look a purple cow!

I now know why I struggled
what it was I couldn't see
for all this time I thought
that us meant you and me

You were hesitant 'bout moving in
I saw doubt within your eyes
I had no idea another lay
behind your compromise

I thought its what we wanted
to be just you and me
How could I be so stupid
How could I not see

You weren't weighing decision
careful choosing right from wrong
You were thinking how your choices
would affect her all along

I now know why you struggled
what it was I couldn't see
for all this time our partnership
had member number three

I really had no clue
You did well to hide it so
But now us is just too crowded
So its time for me to go.