Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Annie Sep 2013
She quiets her mind with
bad decisions and liquid courage.
Her thoughts slow down along
with her breathing, and her
heart misses a couple of beats.
The veins in her arms now
carry a death sentence
as her eyes lose focus.
She's found the perfect
formula for self-destruction.
Annie Sep 2013
I think I might be dead.

I don't feel my heart beating anymore,
I can never quite catch my breath.
I think more than I talk and they
tell me that I'm a ghost.

I think I might be dead.

My hands are always cold and
people seem to talk right through me.
You look at me with frightened eyes
and whisper that you think I'm going to die.

I think I might be dead.
I wish I was.
Annie Sep 2013
I see sadness in the way you move, as if your only wish
is for the ground to open up and swallow you whole.

I see it in your shifting eyes-they move from my eyes to
the sky to the people surrounding you.

I can see how you yearn to be in someone else's skin;
how your bones ache to be free of your mind.

The corners of your mouth twitch when they try to
reach too high, as if they aren't strong enough to
hold up whatever is bringing you down.
Annie Sep 2013
Her smile cracks in the middle,
and she covers her mouth, trying
to keep her words from escaping.
Thoughts tickle her throat and she
coughs up a few apologies, but
that's all that makes its way out.
Annie Sep 2013
The hospital air lingers in her lungs;
it's heavier than it should be,
weighed down with screams, tears,
and last breaths.

She still carries them with her,
unable to shake that which vows
to heal. Funny how she's been sick
ever since she left.
Annie Sep 2013
my writing is ****.

that's it.
Annie Sep 2013
It's funny how memories work,
some are nice and soft like
the sweater you clung to in the
fifth grade when your family
stopped giving out hugs.

But others feel like they're
ripping out a vital *****,
typically your heart, and you
don't know what to do because
you never went to med school
like your parents always wanted.

You're sitting in your room on
the phone and then all of a sudden
a tornado is outside your window
and your ceiling is leaking and
you can hear the wind screaming
for you to just give up already.

The only time you've ever picked
up a hammer was in woodshop in
seventh grade but instead of making
a chess board, it's banging against
every wall in your head and a
chainsaw is cutting up your thoughts.

And so you get through this daily
hell the only way you know: by
counting breaths and dripping
tears on the coat of man's best
friend as you drift to sleep.
Next page