Annie

Annie Nov 2012

I am angry and you are broken and I think I need to go

i am angry
blood shooting through my veins like a drugged up ****** addict
relapsing
and my hands are trembling

face; hot and red
you are standing there
******* clueless, in out of your head
and I can not think of the words to say

the splinters on your tongue
are poking my eyes
and the daggers in my words
tear apart your lies

but this is not how I wanted to live
glass breaking, heart shaking
mental violence
hate making

i want to make love to all your imperfections
throw my body into that sad excuse for a soul
and find a reason to stay
give you all, even though I'm not whole

but I am mad
and you are broken
and i don't think I can fix you

Annie Nov 2012

layers and flakes

who are you?
you know your name
you may even know what you stand for
but strip off your skin
and take apart your bones
search deep inside your existence
what would you find in your soul?
And more importantly would you be happy
with what you find?

Annie Nov 2012

friends

It was a brisk November day
And the air was cleaning out my lungs
And the wind kissed my skin
Leaving tiny chills on the surface

We went to buy some ice-cream I remember
You always got cookie dough
I had a combination of coffee with cookies and cream
But I always wanted to try some of yours

We were sitting in your car
Listening to the silence of the world
Some of my ice-cream melted down my fingers
Leaving a sticky residue

The sun was shining
And the atmosphere was cold
My insides were cold now too
But this is happiness
You, me, and this beautiful
Comfortable silence between us

Annie Nov 2012

velcro

There is a plastic wrap cover
Laying over my eyes
Keeping me from my lover
Because all I see are lies

I am afraid to be close
Because when it is time to go
We will separate like velcro
The ripping noise almost unbearable

Should I run away before you do
Split before you go
I'm tired of this constant black and white
Monochromatic sludge

Annie Nov 2012

Shooting Stars

I close my eyes
And I see the sky
With every sparkling goodbye
That we mistake for a star

See, whenever you say goodbye for good
A light nuzzles into the nighttime
And when we wish upon a star
We are really wishing on
Every regret
Every word
Every glance
We ever had
And lost

Annie Nov 2012

distance

You tell me I'm distant
So maybe I am
Because I'm always dreaming
Of where I'm going
What I'm going to do
So yes I am distant
But that doesn't mean I'm not here
Because unfortunately I am

Annie Nov 2012

I am Sad Today

I am sad today
Not because anyone died
Not because I received criticism
Not because I broke my television
Nothing like that

I am sad because my alarm did not go off on time
And I am sad that the lady at the bagel store
Did not put enough cream cheese on my bagel
I am sad because I could not find the right words
And because I smeared my pen on the page

It is always the small things
Because they slip between the cracks of the walls
That I had spent so long building
Walls that I built to keep back the things
That make me sad in the first place

So when you asked why I was sad and I refused to tell you why, it was because I was afraid you would think I was weak for letting insignificant things bring me down.