Dear Soulmate,
How many?
How many lovers will I mistake for you?
How many kisses until my lips reach yours?
How many, "I love you"s,
The beautiful lie,
Until it becomes a truth upon your ears?
How many tears,
heartaches?
Sleepless nights,
Until I can sleep in your embrace?
I miss someone I've yet to even meet.
I love you,
But I don't even know you.

Dear Soulmate,
I'm sorry it's taking so long to meet me,
Every minute,
Every hour,
Every year,
Every decade spent,
Is so that you'll get to see the me designed for you,
Every trial we go through,
All so that I'll grow into the girl you meet,
Or you,
The perfect one for me.
And maybe your lonely,
Sad,
Or scared there without me.
And I'm sorry,
I long to be by your side.
But it'll all be worth it,
The day I finally meet you.
I'll love you.
I wanna meet you.

Dear Soulmate,
I've finally made so many friends.
So many passions,
and aspirations.
I know who I want to be.
I've made so much progress in my life.
But I still find myself wishing you could be by my side.
I wonder how your doing.
If your happy and whether life is treating you alright.
I want to meet you soon,
But I know that I'll see you at the perfect moment,
Fate knows when It'll bring me to you.
And I'll be overjoyed to get to know you,
Your beautiful imperfections,
and your own joys.
Until that day,
I hope life treats you well,
I love you,
Keep going.

Dear Soulmate,
I hope your out there.
Are you listening?
Sometimes I'm trapped,
my thoughts being the walls that hold me in place.
I question your existence.
I wish you'd find me soon.
I know I'm insecure,
I have so many flaws.
Could you wrap me in warmth,
kiss my tears away?
Cradle me with your time?
I don't want your money,
Or objects.
I just wish you'd enjoy being by my side.
I might push you away at first,
My walls as thick as my tears.
I'll feel too much,
Be shy one moment,
outgoing the next.
I ramble on,
Or not at all.
I'm easily jealous,
over emotional.
I hate myself.
But could you love me anyway?
Know that I'm working on it,
and love me where I'm at?
I'm by no means perfect,
But im happy.
And I want you to be too.
I no longer am a weak princess,
needing to be saved.
But I'm moving forward,
Hoping our fates will meet.
I love you,
Please find me.

There's a caged child within me,
Somedays it's happy and immature.
Other days it decides to throw a temper tantrum.
There's a caged child within me,
I poke it with a stick,
and starve it.
It begs for food,
any morsel will do,
but I call it ungrateful and filthy.
The child keeps screaming.
It won't shut up.

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There's a girl out there.
Somedays she'll smile,
It's a beautiful sight.
Other day's she's sad and crying.
There's a girl out there.
She pokes me with a stick,
And won't feed me.
I try to pretend I'm not hungry,
But my stomach keeps rumbling.
She gets angry,
and yells a lot.
It hurts,
and I can't stop my tears.
I don't want her to know.

Now she's crying.
She says she's sorry.
But
Im still
Hungry.