Feeling the sorrows of myself
to why
I don't really know
answer
is within myself to find
no one really knows
why we feel
the sorrows that touchs us
in many ways
to understand the moods we get into
we long for something
someting that we are missing
memories become us
in reality it shows us
to why
we hang ourselves so long

what are we searching for
a balance life
maybe
or
not

feeling the sorrows
of my own thougths to be in away
moods
are sorrows
trying to understand them
is question we all don't understand

I know who I am
sorrows I hate is knowing what people
hating the fact of life
life is many sorrows
to them all
finding a place of comfort and warmth
what happen to it all
I was the same

lost and confuse
nothing seem to work in the past
I walk silent in my mind
yet I question many things
I word into my mind
before saying it to anyone else

life is a sorrows
to all who live with many different
pies of depress
comes in many forums not just the fact or the issue
it's real out there
nothing would work
can't get rid of the pain of confusing
through our sorrows
in the way
we cannot express ourselves
deeply
within us
just the fault that creeps upon at times
yet

we hold on
to our own strength by doing things we like to do
focusing on others
who feel the same

feeling the sorrows to myself
and to others
who aren't alone
in the world
we see or seek out there
sorrows
to who we are
real within our own ways

Once upon
the
love
we hope for
for love can be forever
she fell upon a rock
a rock so hard
is that the way
love is
to be hard to open up
a mind
that won't express it self
how can she be clear
to her own self
trust the person she with

once upon
the time was there
does she walk to the light
forget the time
they had together
the rock don't break
how can anyone explain to her
false hope to open
a mans heart
in his own way

once upon
about himself
how long does she know him
for himself
can love be pure and simple to her

when does the story begin and end
love can be what you expect it to be

but yet
love is grander and a story to write
love
comes
and
go

once upon a time
there is faith in all
when children are young
parents engage them
in a time of their generation
they are to be
granted to be marry
life way back

no love to share
for the story to begin
love can me completed in a way we see

once upon a story
ain't no fairy tell to tell
all it is
demons lies cheat

all been there from century before our time
there was false hope
lies to **** for the love was meant to be
oh
how life
can be
when it will be so simple
just to begin
many stories that would last

love is the demon to what we all expect
love can be rough on the edges of life
like falling upon the rock so hard

cannot break a mans mind or heart
to be a man
is like knowing who he really is
is he
himself
ruthless of himself
does he lock himself in closet of lies
or
hide in between lines
the he preaches about
many times over an over
women
or
men
been hurt for the love
is a story
to the end of time
where does it begin
we all don't know

once upon the love
is looking for a needle in hay shack
where love
can be true
to write a story
of
once upon the love
we
hope
for the best
to
all
who seek the love we need
soul mates
are hard to find
falling upon a rock
look beyond
read in between the words
men
or
women
say
show the colors of the meaning full ways
stories are made
of movies
for what
hell over bond
crisis of mercy
wishing upon a star
where life is true
by
watching a movie we see
we all
wish
the stories be true
tell of tale of princess and kings
they to
live
upon a love
where they all know all to well
they fought
for praise
to the true meaning
of
love
can be
once upon the love

Holding on
to life
what is meant to be
she feels
out of sort
what should she do
sitting alone
in a room without no one
she can express
the way she feels
emotions
of her runs through her mind
how sad is she
sadness is within herself
hiding from all
not wanting to talk
would they understand
can't they see
they eye's of her
in a daze of illusion
she feels uncontrolled
to how she feels
why now
is it starting again
her disease is making her feel
not her best
to what she can do
distance away from others
all she can hear
they are chatting away
a good conversation
but she feels left out
not wanting to join
in her mind
is uncontrolled
she wish in time
she will feel better
illusion that is in her mind
takes a toll
and
energy that she don't seem to have
why now
why now
sitting alone away from others
she feels like a
stranger
not meant to be around people for
a while
please Lord
hear my words of Praise
can you read what she types
carry her through hard times right now
is it normal
for her to feel this way
she doesn't want to feel sink into the gutter
cannot seem to climb the ladder
please
Lord
hear her calling
for help
knowing she is not herself
what can she do
only thing she is doing
trying to coop her day
living a life
is knowing once again
holding on
what life is to her

My only
love
just him and her

embrace the
love
for sensual love will be true
look beyond each other

ask why
you both are together

knowing true love
doesn't come by so easily
it's the
love
to found
in true soul
connecting by the unity
what is there

one love to another
is the unity as 100%

there is no take
it's a given an a praise
what one does

my only love
his the man of her dreams
things he does
she does not ask

it amaze her so much what kind
a man he is

to woman of herself
she praise him so much
in return
he does the same

romance began long long ago
for true love
does it all

shower them both
love making
is slow
but lovable to feel the true
love making
by a man
by a woman

touch the skin
touch the strength
touching to behold a woman
in his arms
just to gaze into her eye's
how she relaxes into him

touching
feeling
feeling the soft silky skin
oh how much he adores her
feeling her ways
of a
woman
to
him

love is grand when one relaxes to a man
that beholds his love
kissing
the
tonging
******* of her *******
oh my oh my

how he hears her moan
love
is
real
to the both them
the heat
penetrates the sensual of passion

he is delight for she is
his love for ever
knowing she

she to relaxes in her mind
to feel her
man
touching her in many ways

to stroke by experiencing each other
love
is to be
slow
to feel each body and soul
of each other
takes time

to enter the tunnel of love
taste the pure
nectar of each other
love is grand

but to know
who they are

my love
we are the only ones
to love fore ever

he knows
she knows

my love for her
is the love
for him

my only love
is forever
in love
until death comes
they will reunite
in heavy above
to find each other

is the connect by the soul mate
by heart
by the love
by who they are
what meant the most
is loving what they were giving
to each other

my only love

Running away
by the one she cares
always the same never change
she asks
hows his day

it was good until now
she show up
disappointment he was of her

she cannot compete any longer
she knows
his is in love with his brother girl friend

how can she compete with someone
she belongs to another

he express so much to her
how he feels
right at her face
is like who cares this is the fact

it's also most Christmas
be who you are
she ask once again

what does he mean
expand herself to whom
doesn't matter

she gave so much
how is it so hard to express herself
to care for someone
he treats her like a dog
to be train by his command when and where

today of all days
her day is ended
all she did is walk to where he is
the light of him

was anger to see her there
to hear the words he responds to her

all she can say to him
she feels
his brothers don't treat their women the same as he does

she is just a punching bag to his liking
not a person or human being

she tried so hard to get some
respect and notice she is real
why is it
why is it they don't like

all she knows
men like women that spend money on them

until
the money is gone
they have their own money for themselves
yet
their own girl friend has nothing to offer

running away
each time
he express the words he says to her

the is full of hate and unlike and unwanted
being who she is

how can she go on
how can she live a life

all she is
is someone simple
she never ask
she gives by the inner heart
to who she is

all she gets
is a slap across the face
no matter
what she does

to care more the guy she loves
yet
she cannot compete
with his brother girl friend that he so much
adores

not realize
it's time to fight once again
learn the basic rules
let him go
let him go
let him go

get help
to let him go

running away
so many times over
yet still goes back giving him another chance in life

Please don't cry
over her
to why she says
is the best thing she done
in life

life to her gave her pleasure to know
who she was
what she was
until she meant
the one
the only one
the meant all to her

don't cry
when she isn't near you
just look ahead
think of the good old days that gone by
she'll take the dying heart of herself
rest in peace
to her final good bye to herself
all she would see

is the painted picture of you
in her mind
by time goes
her memories will fade away into a cloud
where there is no more
joy to remember by

it's up to the one
she adore in life
who gave all
to what she needed the most

love came
a grand surprise to meet the one
she thought
who would never give the pleasure of happiness

please don't cry
over her
look at the painted pictures
he drew of her
in his mind where every day tells a story
why pictures are done

most the part is
looking around the house
what two people share and made the home
into a loving home just for two
unity of the bound
the love making
that brought
many children in our life
to give a more grand of surprise
to what we share

she may not see him any longer
she may not sleep with him any longer
feeling the comfort gone
feeling the one beside her as she sleeps

very did the time go
why did she take sick
why her why her
he ask to himself
someone precious as an
Angel up above ask her
why now

when life just begone for more the just a memory
it's a memory of faith to believe in hope
to look over our children
where they to
find the love within themselves
made it a bond
with a wife or husband they married into

look at it now
Christmas is near
children everywhere born to live long
sad of herself
tears inside will never show

life began many long ago
now taken to early
she'll miss the laughter in the rain

children, children
grandchildren to her
what a Blessing of time
so close so far yet

time has gone
when now
a wife
a mother
a grandmother

is taken so soon
in an empty chair
where that loving person was

is the wife to her mate
is the mother who play taught them meaning
love faith joy hope
each child she bare is the Blessing
by two parents
that gave them life
to be

now once again
taken by love
she'll never get to see
the love of her grandchildren
growing up
being who they are

living a life as they are now
taught by love
gave them hope
a special in life for them

is to
taken away from them
to early in time

please don't cry
over her
all she wants
to be remember
by the love
she gave to all

each year
when Christmas comes along
just save an empty sit
for the next generation to come

please name the child
a
Blessing
of their
grandmother
they would never see
each year

when Christmas comes along
the child
be remember
by the loving grandmother
who sat
in a empty chair
for years

now gone
to the love of heaven

please don't cry

Painting
a
Picture of
beauty
he sees
no colors need
just herself
and the way she carries herself
in his mind
she is the picture
of all he sees
in his mind
he watch's her daily
the one he
married
always took his breath away
they image he sees
is the young and bold
he capture by sight
what a love they share
between them both
she will always be the beautiful
to him
age don't matter to him
it's within her
that capture his faith of love
he never quit
or gave up
on chasing her
he knew then now and forever more
she is the one for him
to love
to love the children they made love
to create
the peaceful night
as they dance underneath the moonlight
he created a bridge
backyard
made
for
two
to dance away
the love they share
he will always praise her
for the things she did
but to be him
how lucky
he was to be patience
when she finally took notice
he waited for all those years
just to have her
in her arms
comfort at night
as they lay beside each other
in the moments
he will tell her a love
words by words
he made
just for her to hear
words came so easily
by him
she memorize it all
where she took notes in her mind
and
written them all
where she took notice
these words are to be capture
by love
and
by the words of Poetry
where the sounds he gave to her
in light
before we say good night
a light kiss is made
between the both
as they turn off the light
anything could happen

cause he capture his love
he knew it was the one
moments come
just to kiss away
through the nights
of
darkness
of
love
of
faith
in between them both

You won't know she is there
she is the spirit
of your whelm
she walks then night
as he sleeps
she watch you within yourself
moments
a rise
when she seeks you through
you have no knowledge she is there
she circles the channels
every day life
she miss him so
she watch's him go
in and out
through the doors
he walks through
and
life wasn't fair
when the Lord above
said good-bye to him
not fair not right
she was the one he knows all to well
why did he take her
not she is the whelm of a spirit
to watch over him
moments come and go
as she is
she cannot share a tear
she cannot lay beside him at night
all those years gone and took away to early
by each other
she see's him
but he cannot see her
does he realize she is there
blowing through the wind
slowly by her walking
at times she see's
feeling the breeze of warmth
is that her
looking over him
is that her trying to send him a message
to him
at night
he wonders
to why she is there
he knows why
she cannot let go
the love she had for him
same goes for him

love was meant to last
not so young
not now
taken away from him as well
long days
long moments
years gone by so long long ago
now he comes and goes
is there another one for him
why doesn't smile
all he does
walk about around the house
looking at the
memories
they both share and build
all he see's
the things she did around the house
he never took
anything away from her
to what she placed
around the home
home of comfort
took away to early
only 24yrs old
his life with her
is the broken sorrow of his lonely heart
you won't know she is there

Victim
of
confuse
to why she does not understand
perhaps in her own mind
she is play
so many times like a yo yo
on a string

why do men
pretend they don't understand
emotional abuse
words they say and do
are very hurt full
to a
woman love

men don't realize
when their the person that cares for them
the most
when gone
who is the full again

a woman looking for love
in the wrong places

but for her
all it is
a game to play within her own mind
by
a
man
who feels what he does
is okay

many times over
she shakes her head
many times she will ask
why is she being punish
why is he saying this words

he express himself so deep
to how he feels

explain to her
do you still want to kiss him or not
is that a question
to answer
WoW

who do you think she is
giving him a kiss
in front of everyone
making it look like
no other woman is allow
to kiss

confuse by confuse
he leaves away
all she can do
is cry inside
even though
tears lightly show
he cannot see them

for why
she been hurt in the most ways
within the deepest touch of her
heart
and her
mind

victim of confuse
will always carry on
no matter what happens
all she can do
is carry it home with her

letting go
without no one around
hearing the sounds of her cries
knowing her
pillow is a puddle by her tears,

she keeps on going and going
why isn't she like
why is it people see
the care
the love
the understanding she has
the patience
just sitting by the person
and listen
to a sound from someone else
feelings
they aren't allow
we are all in the same boat
perhaps
like she said
we are the odds
to those who feel
they are normal and wise
to judge those who are good

make it
in a way we all are meant to be hurt and punish
victim to any abuse no matter
how hard we try
the abuse to a victim never forgets
all it is
a movie that keeps going and going
victim of confuse

Destiny of love
where to begin
she comes home
daily routine

she is my inspiration
to who I am
desire love
that's who he is t her

loving her
every moment
when she enter the houses
pretty smile of hers
glows through the heart of his

he gave her desire's to love
he gave her all
but she gave the blessing
more than he can ask

a child is born
between to people
engaging the love
they both deserve
it was their
destiny of love

two people
long long ago knew they belong
in many worlds to who they are

desire's to love
never ignore
they each other the modest love
they both can dream
love makes
the grander
a messenge that crosses them both

one taun's they other
pleasing each other
is the passionate of desire

they sleep together in silent moments
they do not ignore
when one desire's they other

it's a wake up call for love
and
desire

destiny to see her
through out his mind
the way she walks
they way she kisses
it's not just a kiss

she sits by him
on the sofa
a
kiss to her
for him
is just take the emotion
slowly pleasing taste the mouth of each other

love is to be desire
for
destiny of love
is well know

teasing pleasing
knowledge to one
gesture
the silkness of her skin
to hold
to grab
to squeeze
each others body

what away to live the love
never a stop
never a no
it's always
a
give
by giving
the other
enjoys the pleasure of a
fruit
pie
cream of the flavor
the taste
explosion
the
action
they give and give
it's a wild
destiny to them both
love is all
for who they are
to embrace every moment that comes by
early hours
through the night
she is the ***** cat
the prolls through the night
for him to see
the beauty of her body
the blossom of her perks
when the nibbles come alert

oh so much pleasure he gets from her
he gives in a little
but yet tease's her with many options
that he can think of
to hear her moan
to hear her delight
to see her beauty
to who she is
a man
who desire his wife
until the end of time
is man who loves his woman
for who she is
to him
he knows
what is given by her
though she maybe tired

it doesn't stop her
for loving the man she married
giving him all by her
is knowing she to is the
destiny
to her husband
a man
she married for love
the
love
is
giving
forever
to each other
destiny of love
is knowing
true love never comes
it's the soul of each other
that brought them together
in life
in marriage
strength by their love
to create
children
by their desires
of
time
and
emotions
on
making love last
through their journey
into their
bedroom
for the love is
destiny of ove

Darkness
within myself
I hide from fear
fear to whom
maybe my
mother
brothers
my abuser

I hide within myself
no where to run
I hide in the closet

I cry
and
I cry

no one can hear
not even my
mother
brother
my abuser

what should I do
tried many times
to run and to run

knowing what's to come
when I return
home

my mother ready
behind the door
what would she have
in her
hand

a
belt
wooden spoon

what fear to look for
within myself
I hide
many times
in my closet
no one can see me

I so skinny
no one knows
where to look
I can hear them
call my name

Anna
where are you

Anna
it's supper
many times
I miss supper
it wasn't important
to me

food oh well
I won't miss a day of eating
no one really cares
if I'm at the table or not

all I know
family isn't the life for me
negative and hate
no
love
no
trust
empty nest of sorrows

with the family I have
who knew

God
gave my
mother

a daughter to love
instead
all it is to her
is hate after hate

I tried and I tried
to do the best I can
nothing seems to please
her

what is it with her

I look up
to the sky
and ask

God
why
oh
why

I'm a girl
with four brothers

why was I chosen
to be a
girl

the only one in the
family
a
family
of
hate unwanted love

no one cared no understand
what life should be
all I know

in time
I needed to get away
for the purpose to survive
a life
to
wonder

only person that cared in my life time
my
loving
Grandmother

which we call her in
Italian

Nonna for Grandmother
she was the life
she was the love to who I was
she gave the basic love
taught me who I should be
but still
deep inside

I learn to
hate
shame
dislike
myself
to who I am

I blame myself for being born
into this World
that is so big and wide

I kept to myself
no
friends
empty nest of nothing
I spare the moments
in my room
that's all I had
four walls to look at
growing up

does anyone out there
understand
does anyone
understand the meaning
of being depress
the word
depress means many option and detail of a person

I found out many years ago
as an adult
I suffer from trauma mental illness

my illness I will tell
Bipolar
I have many other illness
do to being abuse
life seems so hate full
for
45yrs
now 47yrs old
almost 2yrs now
January 27, 2013

will be the actually date
of
positive outlook
to who I am
I've learn to love myself
within my own spiritual way
the outlook came from someone dear to me

a love that came
so dear so close
who knew I would find
a soul mate so far
yet so close

he gave me the life
life to live for
not to be afraid

he open the door
show me the way what life should be
he game me the option
to be who I am
like always
and wanted so dearly
for the years that gone by

life change to who I am
cause of him
he gave me the love that is so simple and basic it took
that long
to found that true love

I ask myself once again
how did I manage to fight within myself
became something more
for myself and to give what is given to me

help
I got
I took
I kept on going
the skills to understand
now I am brave
I have someone beside me
telling me
do not fear
I am hear for you
he came me the option
to take what is given
he gave me all
and still does
until this day

love came to me
for real
no lie
no false pretend what a man should be
he is the original man
that is raised
by
a fine beautiful mother and father
and
family wise
what a Blessing to find out

never been love that way in my life time
it is amazing what life can turn out to be

I am who I am
until this day
I stand tall and proud of my man
he makes me look amazing
every time I'm near him
I see all within him

so within myself
I don't run
I don't hide
I don't cry
all I know is

obstacle I fought
came a life time of happiness to express
my thought's in many ways
to who I am today

Darkness within myself
is within the light
of
a
man
who gave me the tools
to find
what life is all about
love and life

now 47yrs old

Keep walking around
the block so many time's
is it safe to do
I walk the distance
realize I'm only

his attitude has change
I realize
I'm just a fool
to believe in love
know one seems to care anymore

what should I do
keep walking
around the block

I don't think he cares
he sits at home
all he does
is watch T.V
I guess that matter more than her

does he realize
I am here
couch is always empty
fear to sit with him
telling me
don't I have something to do
instead sitting by him
made him unnerving

what can a woman do
no love
no communication
all it is to him
is fun and games

I keep going outside
feel the fresh air
the breeze is cool
not wanting him to know
I do tear inside

what I'm I suppose to do
I look through my own judgment
do I tell him

it's time to leave
beside this is my home not his
would he fight against this matter

all I can do
is tell him the truth to who he is

selfish to his needs
selfish by being himself
not wanting a basic simple relationship

as long he watch's T.V
have a beer on his right hand
snacks to nibble

what am I to him
a slave for his purpose
to clean after him
to cook

eat alone
while he sits at the couch

if his attitude don't change
what am I suppose to do
seek help and advise

do I shelter myself away from him
there is always hope
all it takes for her to find her strength within herself

time for her to write a letter
simple and short
packing his bags for him
next time he comes home

lock will be change
a letter be sealed in a envelop
for him to read

I stay inside
ignore the knocks
he maybe anger at first
but it's time for him
to move on

find someone who doesn't care
I lost my heart
cause of him
I know where I belong
a place that is peaceful

until it's time for her to move on
walking around the block
it made sense for her to do

it clear so many obstacle's
for her to change her mind
seeking the help and advise I needed to know

I gave him so many option
to be who he is
true colors show quickly

all he wanted
is a place to stay and live

when her home ain't about that
it's about a loving relationship that matters to her and him
but he took the trail
by using her

there was nothing after that
all he wanted
a place to rest relax his feet
someone who is a dead beat
of a lazy person

no job
no interest
him and his friends
will never longer
step through my doors

I need a good foundation in my life
someone who cares about life
life seems to be on fair for some
but to love a life
is knowing
is there someone out there for her
to be in love
and to him love her as is
simple as she is
like a flower
in the garden

taking a walk
was a good thing to do
it gave her positive attitude
to what to do
with someone who thinks
just sitting around
not giving a hand or love
communication stop
the day
I allow him
to enter
my home

bye
bye

see you around
when I turn away
walk the block in a different direction

I in my moments
to why
I don't understand it either

I am tried and feeling weak
lonely I guess
wanting the love to feel

I lay empty in my bed
I look
to my side
no one there just me and my pillows

it would be nice
to have a midnight snack
but Oswell

I a woman to who I am
passionate is the love within my soul

I love to be making love
to the one I love

he is distance
to where I live
but yet

we both live in the same time
that comfort
that feeling
just having him there
beside me at night

comfort of knowing
his there for real

making love
will the most amazing love
making
to her

a woman who needs the touch
that feeling
the ticklishness of her skin

knowing the love he gives
is the love given
by her back to him

she loves to be the playful one
allow him to relax
allow him enjoy the pleasure
by the woman he loves

dearly and pure
she excite him
with moist lips
taste
hunger for more and more
oh the pleasure she gets

is so real
knowing her love for him
strong in deed

his love for her
is more strong the life

life to both
is knowing

I in my moment of time
to make beautiful
harmony of sounds
we would make
love
endure
togetherness
reach out
touch
feel
taking the time
to focus
and explore the bodies of soul

I in my moments
to make love

Loving the one
whom I'm with
he cherish her so
he in lights the day
a smile by him
is love by him
he knows her well
she is the one
we travel around
to where we go
he and I
know who we are
love is there
love is no question
we look
into each others eye's
we know
what to say
in our minds
one knows
what the other says
without a gesture
by our mouth
we bliss the light
as we headed home
love is the form
when we see
the sun light beam
headed down
we watch the stars
we seek tonight
as we head
to our silent room
we bliss in delight
as we sleep at night
soul to soul
who we are
he my star
I'm his sun
we delight each other
morning and night
no hiss of sound
no grumpy moods
we are here for each other
love is a form
to be who we are
without a question to ask
one does for the other
that's who we are
love comes in many ways
that's how we understand
we are each other
in harmony ways
love is to be all
not to make love
it's more than that
love gives to each other
making sweet sounds
of pleasure through night
she wakes up
early hours
by making sweet moment
love is love
for who we are
he is the light
I'm his sun
day by day
Loving the one
with whom we are
love
is
real
to
who we are

Ringing the sounds
to what we hear
silent we sleep
when do the bells ring

not know when
she'll ring it in time

silent she sleeps
in her mothers
still inside

not know when
she'll blow the sound
ringing the tears

she''ll sound the voice
when it's time

we will all know

far far away
knowing the sounds of Glory
a mother far in distance

away from her daughter
knowing she is surrounded
by
family

knowing her own mother
is in distance

no tears to hear
no sounds of joy

only a mother would know
times where there
when she heard
her own children
cry with bliss

sounds of baby
about to be born
she is the Glory

ringing the sounds
special person not yet to be born
knowing far away
in distance

a grandmother
who's knows all to well
when child is born

a Blessing is about to start
a birthday wish to all
when the grand
entering
of a
baby girl

she'll in time
how Bless she is

surround by all
surround by love

far far away
knowing someone
will not be there

first time to be
a grandmother wish

to be their for her daughter
when she is about to have
her own
baby girl
a daughter of her own

to cherish the time
life begins
they day she is born

my little girl
how much I miss
grandmother sends

the love of joy
she knows the sounds

a cry
of harmony
about to start

no stopping there
it will every day bliss
sounds of singing
by little girl
to be born

love of life
how life begins

to a granddaughter

far far in distance
no matter where you are

grandmother knows
when you sleep at night

waking the sounds
of your tiny
little voice

your mother to be
will know
how life starts
when you cry for a reason
she'll know when
to wake up

love by a mothers arm
safe as you are

little girl
your grandmas little Angel
no matter how far far you are

grandma would know
by singing the tunes

a cry for a moment
is knowing
how far you came

months after months
your mother walk the miles
to have you here

heaven above
looking down
the earth will be yours

grandma welcomes you
with sound of her voice
by saying
sweet little one
cry out loud
you made the grand entering
by singing
the love
everyone been waiting for
month after month

ringing the harmony
the sounds we want to hear
is knowing your
alive and well

to a proud grandmother to be

Hello it's me
I'm here once again
I miss you so
the love
inside me
embrace the thought
how much I miss him
where did we go wrong
love never died inside me
love grew strong
why
why
why
he does not longer
want me
what did I do
love became
en empty nest
to whom
to who he is with
ran away from me
where did love go

to someone else
was I that bad
all I did
is love him so
is to love someone is it really bad
I thought he and I
would last a life time

someone came in the light of him
who came in between
I don't know

I guess she is better then I
I please him
as woman who loves her man
no matter
what went wrong

I guess another woman
took the place of me

does she make him happy
does he think of me

laying in bed
is empty sorrow
no one to
love
talk
share the days
until it's time to say good night

sometime a
man or a woman
go their way
what are they looking for

I was the woman for him
I
loved him
clean cook
made sure

he was pleasure by woman
who really loves him

now heart broken with sadness
how can I go on

love is to die
love is to be strong
unity we share

memories are their
photo's
by
family and friends

we all look the other way
for what reason
not sure

will he ever wonder why?
will he ever wonder
to come back to me?

she cannot go on
with another man
in her life

my life began with him only
I guess
I need to go one
keeping myself busy
not letting anyone come near me

there is a empty nest
one day
who may return

love is strong
I have that in me
with or without him
time goes on
the healing with start

inside my heart
I will never forget the moments we share
a love story
that drew us together

I will never find out
who came in middle of us
only thing he would realize

the door will always be open
we embrace our thoughts
children
marriage
unity of foundation
we started to build

all I wanted is for him to be
happy in
mind and thoughts
looking forward
to what we both dream of

now gone
who knows where
but here
I am

patience I will wait
by months go by

I will just take the toll
realize
he did walk out on me

to another woman
that gave him something
which I don't know

life is the sorrows of love
no matter
how much it hurts

the deepness of me
will carry out in time

no time for another
a time for me
doing the things
I love to do

is knowing
what i write in my book
is the journeys I thought were real
love came
love went
love went to another
woman
he found

in my heart

Hello it's me again
door is open
just knock
I will open the door
welcome him back
to my arms
by saying
hello
it's me
never stop loving him

he was my first and second third
man in my life

there was no other
wasn't room enough
for me to share

it was always him
hello it's me
I'm always home
for you to come back
love is strong
love within myself
is knowing

hello it's me again

Shatter
what do we mean
about the word
Love
times we hope
for the best
but love can be
shatter
in many ways to love
lost love
death of one
broken hearts
shatter the mind
to how we feel upon one
love can shatter many ways
to love
walking away
to another
looking through eye's of
someone we all love
heart ship is so founded
by the way we all feel
why is there so much
shatter
it's not only for us adults
it's also effects
the love
of our
children
they the shatter life
of two people they love
parents
breaking up
where do they go
who do the children belong
is it the power of control
by one
a mother
a father
or keeping the unity
what was given
will one shatter the dream
of a child
looking upon for a praise
a gesture by whom
a mother ways to how she goes
a father what he says goes
no one really knows
how much lives out there
is shatter by break ups
life is about
shatter by love
no matter how we look at things
reality of it all
the love becomes a dream for children
up
but the out look
for them
is seeing the love of two people
torn apart
when once in love
is
shatter by love

Bright eye's
when are you going open your
eye's
it's me
your mother
waiting impatience to open your
eye's
we will connect
eye to eye
but for now
you lay in your
mothers arms
sound asleep
sweet as you are
little one
come on
open your eye's
there is whole world out
wanting to greet you
with
a
smile
little Angel of my
your
mother so proud
knowing your finally here
what can words say
your a beautiful tiny
little
bouncing baby girl
sleeping quietly in your
mothers arm
the love of hugs
can never let you go
tiny little coo's
tiny little yawns
where does your
mother to begin
words to say
we all know babies hear
all we can do
say the praise
of
Prayers
gentle into your thought's
of your little ears
cuddle up with pride
a mothers love so be
the next day is here
it be two days now
you've been born
slowly and surely
there we go
hello in there
it's your mother
looking beyond
waiting for the time
first person be seeing
is your mother of love
there you are
good morning sun shine
there we go
there you are
my little girl
now eye's are open
first to greet
is your loving mother
who will always be
strength to carry you through
you'll be delight to greet
friends and family
who waited for you so long
now here
eye's open to be ready
to great
to all who love you
is the eye's of connection
is the greetings of the modest
to all who endure you
with faith to believe
now your here
will always be
the world at peace
as you fall fast to sleep
in your mothers arms
as you lay
protected

Love
by
heart
all we know
what love
means
is it a
purpose
reason
to push ourselves
to
love
many types
of
love
is it just
saying it
or a gesture by a look
does one push to make
love
is that what
love
is all
about
love comes in many forums
things we do for each other
saying the love more than once
is it by making love
love takes time
to understand who we are to each other
love by the heat we all have
is it to share or to ignore
can love be real or false
one can be with someone
just for the wrong reason
not knowing
the other does love
whom their with
love can be hateful
meaning of dis pear
when we look beyond
we know by not saying a word
one love comes
I'm sorry
Won't do it again
Give him or her one more chance
love is a giving
never a question to ask
we do things for each other
it's not a command
on
love
time comes in moments
for love
can be all
to what makes it
the perfect life
is it
when we ask
is it time
to be the unity
of one
love in what
marriage
base on strength
love becomes
a delight of all subjects
we learn the hard way in life
when the marriage's fail
to what reason
not being the
truth, honesty
of a
man
or woman
in the first place
everyone jumps
to fast for love
what hurts the most
children or no children at al
they are in the middle
what is love to anyone
false or honesty
within
a
woman
or
man
love by heart
think hard
to what a person
wants in
life
before
anyone takes the path that leads to what
a marriage base on
truth
love
unity
foundation
a circle build around
with
families and friends
love by whom we are
is to love ourselves first
surrender by
giving not taking
for granted
love is the serious
base on
love by heart

Lula-bye don't you cry
birds are chirping
sounds of your voice
they hear you sing
a tune of a voice
a Lula-bye don't you cry
someone will come soon
mean time
birds at the window
gaze through the window
see the tiny infant
cuddle up in the blanket
what is the tune
infant is singing
is it speaking to what it wants
she or he
maybe
hungry
or
thirsty
mama will be in
soon to hear your tiny little voice
crying away
a melody for
mom
knowing
she or he
is
hungry
thirsty
need of attention
of love
by a mother
hugs of love
by a
mother
is very over whelming
to how the comforts
a
infant
to suss
back to sleep
but first
the
mother checks
infants
before
she
lays
she or he
back to sleep
sing away
the Lula-bye song
comes in many ways
to understand
an
infants
cry
is knowing
the sounds outside
by many chirping
birds
is the
praise to hear
by the infant
it self
knowing
the cradle will rock
calm down the baby
back to it's comfort
a tender little kiss
by a
love
by a
mother
who settle the infant
by a gentle
little rock
back to sleep
until the baby
will cry
a
Lula-bye don't you cry

A lullaby is to sing, sweet moment of an arrival soon to come
sweet child of hers
is feeling the emotions
inside her
a daughter, first time mother,
a lullaby to sing to,
yet still inside,
counting the days is now
six weeks and counting
oh my
a grandmother
waiting in patience
adorable love
will be loved by all
who awaits to see
the tiny
little
toes
fingers
the eye's that would brighten
many members
of the family
six weeks and counting
is the birth
of
Audrina Rose
wait by all
love by first time
mother
waiting for the first time
lay upon a mothers
arms
of love

Sleeping through the night, she became a nightmare,
through her dreams
she does not question
it just happens
reason and purpose to why
not sure at all,
all she knows
she wakes up to a dream into another dream
no matter how she tries
to ignore the dream
is it real
to her
why do these dreams to remind
her of the haunted past
she seems to forget
no one knows why
I'm it happens to others
just like her
to become your own dream
remembering the faces
thinking to why
no related
she knows
long ago
her one brother dated a beautiful girl
but married long long ago
why does she seem to appear
is there a question to the answer
she does not know
she remembers each dream
waking up and rolling on the other side of herself
another dream
appears
no one knows why it happens
she knows deep down
depression sets in
she is thinking a lot
why do people command
the thought
to how she thinks
no matter who she is
the haunted times
come and go
in reality no one really cares
to how she feels or think
she is not meant to be feel
she is not meant to be happy
she is meant to keep her keep
until one says
let's meet
let's talk
let's say hey
but not her
she is a down fall of herself
of her dreams
to remind her
of horrors
that she been through
they say
jump forward and keep looking forward
she tries and tries
no matter what the issue
is
haunted dreams
she dreams through the night
is meant for her
to keep on dreaming

Mothers love,
for the unborn child,
soon to be here,
only two months ahead,
it's time to get ready,
little things to do,
precious bundle,
is a little girl,
knowing who she,
knowing her name,
the love, is there,
no matter,
if it's a girl or boy,

Mothers love,
is knowing,
the surprise,
she could not wait,
she needed to know,
it's a little girl,
coming,
before Christmas Blessings,
a Celebration,
is here,
what away,
to welcome,
a little precious joy,
soon to be here,

Mothers love,
is waiting,
impatience,
her first,
unborn child,
soon to be welcome,
by a mother,
to be,
the love,
of a mother,
is knowing,
her little girl,
is lucky,
to have,
precious mother,
to know,
in time,
saying hello,
to her mother,
by look up,
in her mothers eye's,
contact is made,
by a
mothers love,
to her little girl,
Audrina

Saying good bye, for what reason
maybe, she grew old, not wanting,
a life anymore,
life is to short,
to stay alive,
no will power,
no breath,
just an old,
woman,
looking through the window,
one more time,
saying good bye,
who is there to say,
no family,
no friends,
she lived alone,
for years after years,
no children,
what is family to her,
sisters and brothers,
long long, away in the distance,
she seems not to remember,
where they live,
they have forgotten,
one sister out 6,
4 brothers,
one sister,
and herself,
parents,
long long gone,
will it be her next,
in line,
who can she share,
the last spare of time,
in her own mind,
all she can do,
is write a letter,
to whom,
letter would say,
to all, who forgot her,
just think back,
when we were children,
how fun it was,
we were forgotten,
who we are,
siblings we were,
we were once close,
by all,
went on their own,
own life to spare,
everyone,
went their own way,
she is the only one,
stay behind,
a home, we all grew up,
only her, knows,
all to well,
saying good bye,
is the hardest thing to do,
no one will come,
no one will say,
last words,
by their only beloved sister,
vanish, by a sickness,
never told a soul,
knowing her, all she can do,
saying good bye

Lost in the wilderness of winter, fall is coming,
Time to head home, gather things up,
Getting ready,
Winter is near by,
What to do, where do we start,
Time to chop, bundle of trees,
Sweeping and cleaning, the chimney,
Winter fall,
Things to do, prepare for the feast,
Holidays are coming,
Think of the fall, smell of hot soup, pumpkin pie,
Baking in the oven,
Thinking twice, we are lost, within ourselves,
How can we find ourselves, get ourselves,
Out of the wilderness, to home,
There are good time's, there are bad time's,
To remember by,
Smell of cherky  wood, hot cocoa, made by mom,
Oh how much, we remember,
Dad will go out, hunt, for food, surviving the task,
Through the long winter nights,
Bundling up in bed,
Those time's are still there,
But lost in the wilderness, how can,
Mom and Dad, find us,
We forgot, to mark the twig, to find our way home,
Time's to remember, should remember,
How are father, taught us, lost in the woods,
In the wilderness of winter,
Let's make a fire, the smoke, will be notice,
They would know, we are lost,
Knowing our father and friends,
Will gather together,
Come to find us, knowing it's getting dark,
We worry, about the danger,
Knowing what to do,
We do not be afraid, our father, will be here soon,
We must Pray, for the Angels, to look upon us,
In the moment, let's remember our,
Father and mother,
Things they did, the love and devotion,
Parents love us so, they'll find us soon,
Winter is coming, so is the snow,
Bundle up with joy,
We cannot be afraid, to what may happen,
Twinkle little eye's, by both girls,
Knowing tears will follow,
Lost in the wilderness of winter,
Is knowing, we will be found

Where did we go Wrong, Perhaps we weren't meant to BE,
Illusion of our Minds, made to be Taught,
for  what it Means, we both don't Know,
in Time, we thought it was Best,
Best for what, to be Married or to be Part,
a Part from each other,
not knowing where we will BE,
the Facts are there, there is no Truth or Honesty,
we both thought, it was good, but at the End,
a Story became Real, Real to each other,
but then, things Happen, we Forgotten who we are,
Times that went ON, no one new, it would Happen,
Life was Real, knowing each other for so Long,
Going to School, Dating High School,
Dancing in the Wind, Party all Night Long,
but Look at now, we thought it was Good,
we thought Marriage was the Answer,
to be Together, but it became Real,
we didn't know, what we wanted in Life,
Mistake came, Hurt Feels came, Dishonesty and Trust is Lost,
what went Wrong, we both don't Know, the Answers were there,
we just Lost each other in Time, Bordem was there,
Life of Love, where did it go, Thank God, Children weren't involve,
but it all Happen so Fast, we both went to Fast,
Love was in the Air, but not in Marriage, our Distance went further,
we both went Further, we forgotten each other,
Love was there, but in Marriage, we weren't Ready to be,
Thank God, Children weren't involved,
Perhaps this was meant to be, we still can be Friends,
but then again, we both don't know, would we Find each other,
Once again, begin a new Chapter in Life,
Let the Love begin again, Perhaps we would know then, not now,
Long Love Lasted for a while, but in Life, Marriage wasn't the Answer,
to us Both, Lets Part away, Until then, lets not say Good-Bye forever,
it's just Fear, to what went Wrong, but in Life, it was Real,
when we were both Young and Wild,
Love was there, Marriage wasn't, we both weren't Ready,
to be, Man or Wife, Life was Good, but now, Lets Fade away,
In the Mist of Dust, the Light of the Dark,
lets not make anymore Mistakes, will see each other in another Time,
who knows when, if it would Happen, but now,
Distance between us, is knowing, we were Wild and Free,
but Love was there, but not in Marriage.

A Child calling for Love, Why must this Child Suffer, to Why, we don't know,
for us Adults, child is unknown to the Eye's they see,
why must this Child go on Living a Life of Hate,
Why was this Child Born, to what we may Ask,
Abuse after Abuse,
all the Child asks and calling of Love,
Why two People, Who become Parents,
that One Simple Child to be Place Upon Parents,
Who don't Deserve, the Blessing of a Child,
at Night, Child Sleeps, through hours of Time,
Dreams become Real,
Into their own Little Minds,
there are Issue's of these Dreams,
Horror of Thought's, Horror of Being Abuse,
who will be the striker Upon a Child,
who will not Listen, for the Child Cries alone,
Let a Child be Loved,
this is a World, we Bring a Child,
Child should have, the Love by Two, not only One,
Child should be Blessed by the Gods of their own Endures,
God Shelter a Child, Protect those in need,
a Child is Ignore, every second of the Hour,
Who would Listen,
Tears flow, down into their Pillows,
Dreams of Horror, a Child must not have,
Dreams of Horror,
Illusion become Real, who will Save this Child,
Abuse happens every day Life,
how can we Stop it,
Abuse is a History of Violence of the World,
Creation by Man or Woman,
the Hands Placed upon a Child,
would Surrender to who they are,
Please to Place a Child Love,
exchange for Abuse and Ingore,
a Child is a Beautiful Mind, only the Eye's of Parents,
who Gave Birth, will never know,
a Child is Abuse every second of their Life,
Please Hear the Children Cry,
they only ask for One thing,
A Child Calling For Love, is by Two People,
who become Parents of a Child, they Gave Birth

God Endures, All his Children, in Time, God watch's from above,
who will Shelter a Life, would God Give the answer,
Children all Over, where do they Go,
they have Forgotten the One who Hears the Most,
the Love of God,
Perhaps Children are Meant, not to Understand,
to Why there is a God,
in the Children Eye's,
what do the Children see, to who they want the Most,
God is the Praise to what we all Endure,
Life is the Precious, God is Precious, to the Eye's of Children,
let the Light Shine Beyond the Hills Over the Banks,
River Flows, the Holy water is the Blessed of the Children,
God Gives, God Listens, but for the Rest,
we must take the Challenge to what we all See and Endure,
Life is not what we see, Life is Violence Place to Live in,
the Modest of Life, War Continues on,
why can't it be Simple,
Children see, the Destroy of our Nation,
God can only do so much,
for the Children that Grow, go on Living a Life,
would they forget, would they know,
Time will Tell,
only the One knows,
God Endures to what he see's, do we Listen or do we Ignore,
Issue build on and on,
Solving Problems become matters of the Troubles,
we all see, in the World of Hate and Anger,
but yet, God Endures all his Children,
God takes away, for Give those, who Hate,
Hate in the World,
we must make it a Peace Full One,
Children of Generation,
what Happen to them,
Children are Forgotten, a Lesson to be Taught,
to why we Pray, to why we must Die, to why we are Chosen to Live on and on,
only One knows,
God Endures all his Children

My Love, I will write to you, many days go by, thinking of you, so far, Distance of each other, is to far to reach out, all my life, I been thinking of One,
Only person in my Life Time, it would be you,
You Give the meaning of Life to Her, in a Beautiful way, so much Endure, so much Passion,
what took to Long, why we were meant to be the Distance of each other,
is it the Game, is a true Story to Tell, why is the meaning of this,
was it the Lord, who kept us Far Beyond a Path, not knowing, One day we will meet,
Look at us now, we are both Older, but Fragile in away,
we both Suffer, within an Illness, but it does not Stop,
we both go on,
the Love of us, is knowing Love is there, True Beginnings,
Last a Life Time, until the Story Ends,
but for now,
My Love, I will write to you,
where shall she begin, where are the words to Tell,
so many wise Chosen words, but yet,
In her Heart, Dignity of her Pride, you showed her the Way,
Life gave a meaning, to what, to Live on, not with herself,
it is with you,
My Love, where have  you been, it to her, long Journey's of a Path,
why did the Lord, make her Suffer,
the Abuse, the Haunted Memories, Horrors of her Dreams, she Dreams at Night,
but yet,
It took her, 3000 miles to Travel a Distance, Life was Real, but it took a While,
to know what is Real out there,
She meant One, Destroy a Life of herself, the Cruelty she Endure, she never Expected,
Life was a Hate full way, once again, Four Years of her Life Time,
Trapped in a Cage, Keys taken away, no site of anyone,
Kept in, no knowing what Society look like, But Fear of her Mind,
Gave her the Scare of a Life Time,
Perhaps it's a Learning Process, But yet she doesn't know,
But in Time, One decide to let her Free, Doors Open,
it set her Free, in Time, she never knew, Life was a meaning Full thing,
Perhaps the Journey was meant to be Long, Hard Times, knowing when it comes or not,
but now, Life to her, is with you,
My Love, I will Write Many Letters, but inside herself, the Letters are meant Locked in,
her Heart, is always there,
but Confuse at Times, so My Love, Letters Written by her,
is the Love of Faith, a Guide to know, is always meant,
Words of Wisdom, is the Chosen words, said and done,
for the Letters she Writes,
is meant for you,
My Love, I Will Write To You