Painting
a
Picture of
beauty
he sees
no colors need
just herself
and the way she carries herself
in his mind
she is the picture
of all he sees
in his mind
he watch's her daily
the one he
married
always took his breath away
they image he sees
is the young and bold
he capture by sight
what a love they share
between them both
she will always be the beautiful
to him
age don't matter to him
it's within her
that capture his faith of love
he never quit
or gave up
on chasing her
he knew then now and forever more
she is the one for him
to love
to love the children they made love
to create
the peaceful night
as they dance underneath the moonlight
he created a bridge
backyard
made
for
two
to dance away
the love they share
he will always praise her
for the things she did
but to be him
how lucky
he was to be patience
when she finally took notice
he waited for all those years
just to have her
in her arms
comfort at night
as they lay beside each other
in the moments
he will tell her a love
words by words
he made
just for her to hear
words came so easily
by him
she memorize it all
where she took notes in her mind
and
written them all
where she took notice
these words are to be capture
by love
and
by the words of Poetry
where the sounds he gave to her
in light
before we say good night
a light kiss is made
between the both
as they turn off the light
anything could happen

cause he capture his love
he knew it was the one
moments come
just to kiss away
through the nights
of
darkness
of
love
of
faith
in between them both

You won't know she is there
she is the spirit
of your whelm
she walks then night
as he sleeps
she watch you within yourself
moments
a rise
when she seeks you through
you have no knowledge she is there
she circles the channels
every day life
she miss him so
she watch's him go
in and out
through the doors
he walks through
and
life wasn't fair
when the Lord above
said good-bye to him
not fair not right
she was the one he knows all to well
why did he take her
not she is the whelm of a spirit
to watch over him
moments come and go
as she is
she cannot share a tear
she cannot lay beside him at night
all those years gone and took away to early
by each other
she see's him
but he cannot see her
does he realize she is there
blowing through the wind
slowly by her walking
at times she see's
feeling the breeze of warmth
is that her
looking over him
is that her trying to send him a message
to him
at night
he wonders
to why she is there
he knows why
she cannot let go
the love she had for him
same goes for him

love was meant to last
not so young
not now
taken away from him as well
long days
long moments
years gone by so long long ago
now he comes and goes
is there another one for him
why doesn't smile
all he does
walk about around the house
looking at the
memories
they both share and build
all he see's
the things she did around the house
he never took
anything away from her
to what she placed
around the home
home of comfort
took away to early
only 24yrs old
his life with her
is the broken sorrow of his lonely heart
you won't know she is there

Victim
of
confuse
to why she does not understand
perhaps in her own mind
she is play
so many times like a yo yo
on a string

why do men
pretend they don't understand
emotional abuse
words they say and do
are very hurt full
to a
woman love

men don't realize
when their the person that cares for them
the most
when gone
who is the full again

a woman looking for love
in the wrong places

but for her
all it is
a game to play within her own mind
by
a
man
who feels what he does
is okay

many times over
she shakes her head
many times she will ask
why is she being punish
why is he saying this words

he express himself so deep
to how he feels

explain to her
do you still want to kiss him or not
is that a question
to answer
WoW

who do you think she is
giving him a kiss
in front of everyone
making it look like
no other woman is allow
to kiss

confuse by confuse
he leaves away
all she can do
is cry inside
even though
tears lightly show
he cannot see them

for why
she been hurt in the most ways
within the deepest touch of her
heart
and her
mind

victim of confuse
will always carry on
no matter what happens
all she can do
is carry it home with her

letting go
without no one around
hearing the sounds of her cries
knowing her
pillow is a puddle by her tears,

she keeps on going and going
why isn't she like
why is it people see
the care
the love
the understanding she has
the patience
just sitting by the person
and listen
to a sound from someone else
feelings
they aren't allow
we are all in the same boat
perhaps
like she said
we are the odds
to those who feel
they are normal and wise
to judge those who are good

make it
in a way we all are meant to be hurt and punish
victim to any abuse no matter
how hard we try
the abuse to a victim never forgets
all it is
a movie that keeps going and going
victim of confuse

Destiny of love
where to begin
she comes home
daily routine

she is my inspiration
to who I am
desire love
that's who he is t her

loving her
every moment
when she enter the houses
pretty smile of hers
glows through the heart of his

he gave her desire's to love
he gave her all
but she gave the blessing
more than he can ask

a child is born
between to people
engaging the love
they both deserve
it was their
destiny of love

two people
long long ago knew they belong
in many worlds to who they are

desire's to love
never ignore
they each other the modest love
they both can dream
love makes
the grander
a messenge that crosses them both

one taun's they other
pleasing each other
is the passionate of desire

they sleep together in silent moments
they do not ignore
when one desire's they other

it's a wake up call for love
and
desire

destiny to see her
through out his mind
the way she walks
they way she kisses
it's not just a kiss

she sits by him
on the sofa
a
kiss to her
for him
is just take the emotion
slowly pleasing taste the mouth of each other

love is to be desire
for
destiny of love
is well know

teasing pleasing
knowledge to one
gesture
the silkness of her skin
to hold
to grab
to squeeze
each others body

what away to live the love
never a stop
never a no
it's always
a
give
by giving
the other
enjoys the pleasure of a
fruit
pie
cream of the flavor
the taste
explosion
the
action
they give and give
it's a wild
destiny to them both
love is all
for who they are
to embrace every moment that comes by
early hours
through the night
she is the ***** cat
the prolls through the night
for him to see
the beauty of her body
the blossom of her perks
when the nibbles come alert

oh so much pleasure he gets from her
he gives in a little
but yet tease's her with many options
that he can think of
to hear her moan
to hear her delight
to see her beauty
to who she is
a man
who desire his wife
until the end of time
is man who loves his woman
for who she is
to him
he knows
what is given by her
though she maybe tired

it doesn't stop her
for loving the man she married
giving him all by her
is knowing she to is the
destiny
to her husband
a man
she married for love
the
love
is
giving
forever
to each other
destiny of love
is knowing
true love never comes
it's the soul of each other
that brought them together
in life
in marriage
strength by their love
to create
children
by their desires
of
time
and
emotions
on
making love last
through their journey
into their
bedroom
for the love is
destiny of ove

Darkness
within myself
I hide from fear
fear to whom
maybe my
mother
brothers
my abuser

I hide within myself
no where to run
I hide in the closet

I cry
and
I cry

no one can hear
not even my
mother
brother
my abuser

what should I do
tried many times
to run and to run

knowing what's to come
when I return
home

my mother ready
behind the door
what would she have
in her
hand

a
belt
wooden spoon

what fear to look for
within myself
I hide
many times
in my closet
no one can see me

I so skinny
no one knows
where to look
I can hear them
call my name

Anna
where are you

Anna
it's supper
many times
I miss supper
it wasn't important
to me

food oh well
I won't miss a day of eating
no one really cares
if I'm at the table or not

all I know
family isn't the life for me
negative and hate
no
love
no
trust
empty nest of sorrows

with the family I have
who knew

God
gave my
mother

a daughter to love
instead
all it is to her
is hate after hate

I tried and I tried
to do the best I can
nothing seems to please
her

what is it with her

I look up
to the sky
and ask

God
why
oh
why

I'm a girl
with four brothers

why was I chosen
to be a
girl

the only one in the
family
a
family
of
hate unwanted love

no one cared no understand
what life should be
all I know

in time
I needed to get away
for the purpose to survive
a life
to
wonder

only person that cared in my life time
my
loving
Grandmother

which we call her in
Italian

Nonna for Grandmother
she was the life
she was the love to who I was
she gave the basic love
taught me who I should be
but still
deep inside

I learn to
hate
shame
dislike
myself
to who I am

I blame myself for being born
into this World
that is so big and wide

I kept to myself
no
friends
empty nest of nothing
I spare the moments
in my room
that's all I had
four walls to look at
growing up

does anyone out there
understand
does anyone
understand the meaning
of being depress
the word
depress means many option and detail of a person

I found out many years ago
as an adult
I suffer from trauma mental illness

my illness I will tell
Bipolar
I have many other illness
do to being abuse
life seems so hate full
for
45yrs
now 47yrs old
almost 2yrs now
January 27, 2013

will be the actually date
of
positive outlook
to who I am
I've learn to love myself
within my own spiritual way
the outlook came from someone dear to me

a love that came
so dear so close
who knew I would find
a soul mate so far
yet so close

he gave me the life
life to live for
not to be afraid

he open the door
show me the way what life should be
he game me the option
to be who I am
like always
and wanted so dearly
for the years that gone by

life change to who I am
cause of him
he gave me the love that is so simple and basic it took
that long
to found that true love

I ask myself once again
how did I manage to fight within myself
became something more
for myself and to give what is given to me

help
I got
I took
I kept on going
the skills to understand
now I am brave
I have someone beside me
telling me
do not fear
I am hear for you
he came me the option
to take what is given
he gave me all
and still does
until this day

love came to me
for real
no lie
no false pretend what a man should be
he is the original man
that is raised
by
a fine beautiful mother and father
and
family wise
what a Blessing to find out

never been love that way in my life time
it is amazing what life can turn out to be

I am who I am
until this day
I stand tall and proud of my man
he makes me look amazing
every time I'm near him
I see all within him

so within myself
I don't run
I don't hide
I don't cry
all I know is

obstacle I fought
came a life time of happiness to express
my thought's in many ways
to who I am today

Darkness within myself
is within the light
of
a
man
who gave me the tools
to find
what life is all about
love and life

now 47yrs old

Keep walking around
the block so many time's
is it safe to do
I walk the distance
realize I'm only

his attitude has change
I realize
I'm just a fool
to believe in love
know one seems to care anymore

what should I do
keep walking
around the block

I don't think he cares
he sits at home
all he does
is watch T.V
I guess that matter more than her

does he realize
I am here
couch is always empty
fear to sit with him
telling me
don't I have something to do
instead sitting by him
made him unnerving

what can a woman do
no love
no communication
all it is to him
is fun and games

I keep going outside
feel the fresh air
the breeze is cool
not wanting him to know
I do tear inside

what I'm I suppose to do
I look through my own judgment
do I tell him

it's time to leave
beside this is my home not his
would he fight against this matter

all I can do
is tell him the truth to who he is

selfish to his needs
selfish by being himself
not wanting a basic simple relationship

as long he watch's T.V
have a beer on his right hand
snacks to nibble

what am I to him
a slave for his purpose
to clean after him
to cook

eat alone
while he sits at the couch

if his attitude don't change
what am I suppose to do
seek help and advise

do I shelter myself away from him
there is always hope
all it takes for her to find her strength within herself

time for her to write a letter
simple and short
packing his bags for him
next time he comes home

lock will be change
a letter be sealed in a envelop
for him to read

I stay inside
ignore the knocks
he maybe anger at first
but it's time for him
to move on

find someone who doesn't care
I lost my heart
cause of him
I know where I belong
a place that is peaceful

until it's time for her to move on
walking around the block
it made sense for her to do

it clear so many obstacle's
for her to change her mind
seeking the help and advise I needed to know

I gave him so many option
to be who he is
true colors show quickly

all he wanted
is a place to stay and live

when her home ain't about that
it's about a loving relationship that matters to her and him
but he took the trail
by using her

there was nothing after that
all he wanted
a place to rest relax his feet
someone who is a dead beat
of a lazy person

no job
no interest
him and his friends
will never longer
step through my doors

I need a good foundation in my life
someone who cares about life
life seems to be on fair for some
but to love a life
is knowing
is there someone out there for her
to be in love
and to him love her as is
simple as she is
like a flower
in the garden

taking a walk
was a good thing to do
it gave her positive attitude
to what to do
with someone who thinks
just sitting around
not giving a hand or love
communication stop
the day
I allow him
to enter
my home

bye
bye

see you around
when I turn away
walk the block in a different direction

I in my moments
to why
I don't understand it either

I am tried and feeling weak
lonely I guess
wanting the love to feel

I lay empty in my bed
I look
to my side
no one there just me and my pillows

it would be nice
to have a midnight snack
but Oswell

I a woman to who I am
passionate is the love within my soul

I love to be making love
to the one I love

he is distance
to where I live
but yet

we both live in the same time
that comfort
that feeling
just having him there
beside me at night

comfort of knowing
his there for real

making love
will the most amazing love
making
to her

a woman who needs the touch
that feeling
the ticklishness of her skin

knowing the love he gives
is the love given
by her back to him

she loves to be the playful one
allow him to relax
allow him enjoy the pleasure
by the woman he loves

dearly and pure
she excite him
with moist lips
taste
hunger for more and more
oh the pleasure she gets

is so real
knowing her love for him
strong in deed

his love for her
is more strong the life

life to both
is knowing

I in my moment of time
to make beautiful
harmony of sounds
we would make
love
endure
togetherness
reach out
touch
feel
taking the time
to focus
and explore the bodies of soul

I in my moments
to make love